A Special Check-In Thread
Hey. How's everyone? Bad? Good? Numb? It's ok. Your feelings are valid. Your experiences are valid. I know things may be hard now but I know you'll find a way out soon. I know you're stronger than your depression.
So..... How's life? Well it's ok if you don't wanna talk about it. I will be here besides you if you would love to tell more. If you ask me what is the point of telling us your stories, well you know, I don't have any answers for that unfortunately. But I want you to know that, whatever it is, at least for me, it's worth to be listened to. Even if you think it'll never make you any better, I feel lucky to be here with you through all this thing. Maybe I couldn't make things any better for you but I hope this small gestures of mine could help it better even if it's just a small bit.
It's ok to cry. It's ok to grief. It's ok to be vulnerable. You have gone through so much. I'm sorry that I couldn't take away any of your pain. I'm sorry I couldn't do nothing much about it. I want you to know, even if you're at your worst right now, you're not weak. I'm amazed by how far you've survived all the odds in your life. I know you don't deserve any of this pain and suffering.
"How can you be so confident and optimistic about this? You don't even understand or know what I've been through," Well I don't know. I don't even know how I can be optimistic and confident about all of these. I just thought that I'm an expert about faking everything. I just say that because I would love for someone to say those things to me during my times. I want to spread some senses of hope and positivity even though it always turned to be false but I still hope for the best. I may not understand everything in your life but I am curious what you've gone through and I want to support you with best support I could provide.
"But other people have it worse than I am. I deserve all of these" I hear you. I want to know that even if it's just a tiny or small petty problems it still matters and valid. Differences in our depressions and experiences doesn't make our worth and our presence in here less important. You matter, important and precious just like everyone else. If you think you deserve all of these, do you think straying animals which get treated poorly, deserve all the pain and suffering they got from this world? I'll leave it to your thoughts about that.
"Why do you even care about me?" Well I'm sorry, It's my fault for being stubborn for loving and caring other people more than I love and care about myself. Maybe it's because I don't want others to go through what I've been through and for sure I just want to spread some loves for you. Although it's temporary, you still deserve loves, appreciation and care.
There are so many beautiful things that awaits you. Maybe you feel hopeless and helpless now but I'll continue to spread helps and hopes as much as I could. If you feel like giving up, Please take rests for a while and take care of yourself at the moment. You deserve kindness from yourself too. Slow down and let's take a breather outside for a while. Small steps are fine and I know you can do it. Please reach out to crisis hotlines or crisis resources if you feel like you need it.
This depression doesn't make you any weaker. You've outgrown your past self and you're stronger now. We care about you. You can overcome this. Go at your own pace. Slow and steady wins the race. Thanks for reading :) I hope your days will turn out to be better after this.
@kdsyahirah
dear sya,
thank you for being so awesome and caring for me 💛🧡❤️💚💙💜. I am so lucky to have you as a friend, I hope you are doing well💛🧡❤️💚💙💜. I know that this can be case for you too at times, I want you to remember that I am here for you too 💛🧡❤️💚💙💜.
@Iamsidhere
dear sid,
Aww it's nothing much for sure. And nahh you're much awesome and caring more than I am. And aww you're too sweet like the chocolate in my fridge hehe X) You're always in my top priority too :)
Hello~ I'm gonna take up your word and tell you about my awful day because I really need to get it all out now or I'll explode.
I've been dealing with this, let's say health problem for years and the worst thing it's that I don't know what it is, what causes it or what can I do to get better because no doctor can tell me what it is hence, the improper treatment. But i try my best to not let it get to me and it's so hard because it affects the way I do things. The thing it's that my mother makes it all about her, I'm the one who's sick and in pain and stressed out but my mother makes it all about her: how worried she is, how she has nightmares, how stressed she gets and affects her work, how tired she is of me being sick and she says it all like I'm choosing to be sick, like i want to bleed out for a month and get anemia and live with a headache 24/7, like I'm not stressed out and want to cry and scream all the time of how frustrated I am because after all these years I'm still like this, both physically and mentally. I'm tired of this, I want help but no doctor helps, I'm tired of doctors telling me like "you have anemia, let's start with that" and "everything it's normal, the hormonal exams, your uterus is normal, you have no polycystic ovaries", so why do I get my fucking period for a month where I bleed out? I am so exhausted. Like normally I'm tired and mentally exhausted but when this starts I'm stressed and anxious all the time, even more if I have to go out, and it's like ten times worse when the headache starts, like it's so physically difficult to get anything done. I am tired of this, I'm tired of everything.
I'm sorry for blurting a lot but I have no one to talk to, I'm stuck with myself and my stressed mother and university and all.
Thank you for reading and for your kind words you just wrote, they encouraged me to write.
@Lightsout19 I hear you. Oh no that must have been so stressful for you with everything happening with your mom and about your health. Not knowing our health problems yet dealing it everyday is really frustrating for me to hear, let alone for you to go through this. If you feel like you want to be vulnerable, go for it. Your body and your mind has suffered enough of this. Maybe it could let your negative energy out for now. It's ok if you want to tell us more, we would love to hear anything about you. And Aww I did nothing much in the post and thank you for sharing this with us. I know you're strong and you can get through this. Lots of loves for you :)
That all sounds just dreadful. You are doing a great job in picking yourself up each time and then trying again to find help. Help is out there and you will find it. @Lightsout19
Thank you~ and yes I do hope that I will find the right help eventually.
First, thank you for sharing. I apologize that you aren't feeling seen or heard and I really hope your efforts at communication do not continue to go unheard. I wish you the best with your health and I hope your mom can start to be more supportive of you and your needs.
Awfull just freaking bad and I don't even have it in me or have energy to type and say what's wrong it's just awful it's always been litrealy.
@LayanDamra *sending beams for you* Sounds like you're going through a hard time. It's ok, take a step back for a while. When you feel ready, feel free to let us know what's making you awful. We're here for you.
It's been hard since as long as I can remember but Thanks that means a lot and I'll keep that in mind.
Sending strength and peace. @LayanDamra
Thank you for this meaning post! I currently don't have much time to think about my depression, my mind has been filled with continuous assignments that needs to be completed for school. I guess that's a good thing. I only feel the sadness and loneliness when I'm getting ready for bed, and I also haven't been sleeping well either. Falling asleep past 3am for the past week, and waking up just before 9am. Maybe it's the lack of sleep, I'm not feeling so well today. Suddenly felt pale and lightheaded (on and off). My doctor has said I had a condition, that explains the lightheadedness, as I've fainted a few times at home before. I'll just need to be sitting when I feel dizzy again today. No time to go for a nap to recharge my energy~
@kdsyahirah
@Jaeteuk Oh no, I hope you'll get well soon. *sending healing beams for you* Don't forget to take rest. You deserve it :) Thank you too for always responding to my thread :) I appreciate you too.
You are making it one class at a time. Be sure to try to rest, but you are going to do this. @Jaeteuk
I'm looking at the Purdue Owl for citing the reference in APA again. I'm confused with the order of the authors. I have one reference that has 3 authors, do I need to list it in alphabetical by their last names, or do I just follow the same order as it's written on the article?~
@bestVase7265
I would probably go with the order that they are written in the article. For psychology and other social sciences, they tend to put the people who contributed more to the article first.@Jaeteuk
I was fine today. Then I went shopping and couldn't find barley. Now I just feel awful. I just want to fall asleep and wake up in a couple weeks. I hate it, I was fine and now I'm not.
@raspberryMelon7409 *sending beams for you* Your feelings are valid. I hope you'll find the barley you're looking for. I know you'll find it soon :)
You had a good part of the day too. I know that it is hard to make that your focus after the unexpected downturn, but if you keep reminding yourself of those good moments it can help manage the bad ones. @raspberryMelon7409
@kdsyahirah 🙇Thank you.
@lavenderWater2276 My pleasure :)
@kdsyahirah
Thanks for sharing that, it was a good message that hopefully helps everyone a little.
How am I? I have no idea. I'm tired of feeling vulnerable having feelings for someone... But also, I find myself actually happy and growing more than I ever have. It's a big struggle right now, but I hope it works out in the best way possible.
Good to hear that things are going pretty okay. It is alright not to know quite how things are going. @Torean
@Torean You're not alone in this. I am struggling with my growth too. I hope it'll turn out better for all of us. Ofc It's my pleasure to share these with you guys. Hopefully it's helpful for other people as you said. Thanks for sharing with us :)
Hello, I’ve been feeling better these past few weeks. I’ve been busy with school and work ,which occupies most of my time. so I haven’t had time to have depressive thoughts which is a good thing I guess? I’ve met a lot of nice people at my new job and I enjoy spending time with them.
Glad to hear that things are going pretty well. @Capricorncom
@Capricorncom Aww I'm so relieved to hear that. Thank you for sharing this with us :)
Nice message for everyone. @kdsyahirah
@bestVase7265 ahhh thank you :) *hides in the corner because I'm embarrassed* How are you? How are your pets? How's your life?
Btw Thank you for always helping me with the reply in the forums though. You're so kind and hardworking ❤️ I will forever appreciate you ❤️
(p/s: I actually have no other braincells and ideas for check-ins these days smh smh)
Thanks for asking. Things are slowly getting just a little calmer right now. The kitten and my mother are healing slowly. I am trying to focus a day at a time.
No problem with answering posts. It is a good way to end my day. Unluckily, I too don't have brain cells for doing more than answering posts at the moment. Remember that the start of threads don't need to be profound though. Something simple like "what does hope mean to you" work just fine.@kdsyahirah
@kdsyahirah Hi there, thank you for posting this. I haven't been doing well. My only living parents died recently and I have sunk into deeper depression. It's kind people like you who help keep me going and give me hope.
*my only living parent
I can imagine that it has been pretty awful for you. You deserve sometime to mourn and find a path forward. You have lots of support here. Keep sharing how you are doing. @fearlessWriter78