Last resort
This app is a last resort
I have no one to talk to
Most of my days are spent doing nothing
I wonder if my body even belongs to me
I cant tell if there's any "me"
Sometimes I get scared to look in the mirror, because my brain recognizes me as some stranger, or a foreign alien.
I cant feel any sort of connection anymore
To anyone, past hobbies, myself, the way I look, my own face
I feel like a walking corpse thats still somehow alive and moving
My brain feels like its crumbling and im going brain dead
I can barely even think, and maybe even process emotions. I feel just nothing most of the time, but not always the dreadful kind, the one where you cant feel a single thing. You have no reaction to anything. There is no positive or negative. There is barely existence itself.
I feel I have no identity
My own name doesn't feel like mine
I'm just so tired and confused all the time
Everything seems so boring, but in the "what's the point" way
I have no counselor or some "trusted adult" I can talk to. I am unable to see a therapist at this time.
I have no support or guidance from family members. I often feel quite invisible, like I am nothing but a spec of dust to them.
There are many more things
I'm sorry if this post is too long or too straightforward.
I am scared (i think?) and dont know what to do.
@amicableSailboat1882 hey, hi. I see you. It might not feel like it, but you exist. I kinda get how youre feeling (or perhaps, not feeling). I dont know how to help, truthfully I dont know if I can. But dont give up, dont give up. Selfishly, I'd like to get to know you, and maybe you can find yourself too
Identity is hard. I didnt know who i was for the longest time, now i have- an idea. But maybe itll help to have us around, to figure it out together?
I hope for the very very best for you 🤍
Figuring it out together does seem pretty nice, and i would really love to get to know you too, but im new to this app and dont know how to talk to others besides replies 😅😅
@amicableSailboat1882 you can talk to listeners (https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/) in private messages, but to talk to members (like me) you'll have to stick to these forums :)
I can relate to the feelings you're having.
I also can relate. I hope you find comfort knowing others understand and care.
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Hello my friend, it's good to see you here, it must have been too heavy that you felt the need to come here and express.
And what you expressed, I'm sure that it's just a small amount of the pain inside of you.
The constant ache of your heart.
Feeling like a nobody.
An alien, is a perfect description of how you feel about yourself, which you mentioned.
I'm not here to comfort you, nor bring you towards a salvation.
In your journey of seeking help, it's not good to compare yourself with others.
"This one suffers more, this one is a cry baby, this, that, he, she"
Remember that your suffering, is real.
It's not worse, nor better than anyone else.
It's yours.
And you are nowhere near wrong to feel scared.
It's not fake.
It's not a stupid teenage phase, nor edginess.
It's real.
If it wasn't real, then another pain is what caused it.
Nobody feels sacred of nothing.
You must have suffered, a lot, more than what your words can express, more than how the people here can understand.
I'm not sorry for you.
I'm proud of you, and I admire you.
You are here with us.
We are here, we can't fix you, but we can be here for you, and hold your hand through your journey.
The more you have suffer, the more potential you have to be a hero.
A hero doesn't mean a person who is perfectly rich, muscular, not pretty.
A hero, is someone who chooses to be good, and kind, when the world gives him many reasons to be a villain.
And a hero doesn't have to sacrifice himself to give out kindness when he's fallen, nor does he force himself to put an effort to be accepted by his toxic environment.
A hero, does good, to whoever needs it, when he can, and stays away from the toxic ones who won't accept his help.
My friend, you are lovely, more than you think.
This community may not be perfect, but it's filled with other lovely people who may share parts of your pain, you are free to do, and expressing everything on your heart here, both the bad, and the good.
And I'd love to see you post again, my dear friend.
May the force be with you on your journey!
This message specifically means very much in times like these.
Thank you
Hey this is my first message on this app, I am kinda new to this whole thing. But I must sayz this message got me through a tough time and i appreciate this so much.
I hope I can be as helpful to others and contribute to our healing together.
I want to thank you all for the very sweet comments you left for me.
It means a lot to know others struggle with this exact, if not similar, feeling or situation.
♥️
dude life has no meaning from the very start. feel free to do whatever you want