Why im so negative???
⚠️ Trigger Warning:
Mentions of depression, overwhelming emotions, self-blame, guilt, anxiety, regret, and feelings of being stuck.
I’m feeling overwhelmed right now. Lonely. Heavy. Anxious. Caught in self-blame, guilt, and regret that won’t loosen their grip.
I’ve been crying constantly, feeling disgusted with myself, like my own thoughts are too loud to escape.
What hurts the most is this:
I know some things that could help me heal… yet I’m not starting them.
And that confuses me.Why am I frozen even when I see the way forward?
The regrets keep replaying like a loop, eating me alive.
I keep asking myself why I’m not moving ahead and in my lowest moments, it feels like I’ll never fully “fix” myself.
I also feel bad for sharing posts like this so often. Like I’m spreading negativity or becoming a burden for needing space to be honest. That guilt sits quietly on top of everything else.
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
The human side in us all tricks us into thinking we don't deserve good things or to be happy.
Hence why we put things off.
But you deserve to feel better, steadily.
And I'm here for you now 💚
@Amanda84 So, true word's Amanda. i felt i was fooling pretending to be happy 😔 so, i thought of being honest to myself once. i hope i feel calm and steady soon 😊 I'm looking for one thing which can kick start me as well 💝✨
Thank you so much for ur supportive and thoughtful words 🤗💕
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
A pleasure always 💚
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I’ve been in the space of knowing what to do to move forward…. But it feels scary too, right? Sometimes we give ourselves the love we THINK we deserve.
What could make the guilt subside? The regrets? Have you spoken to anyone about it? I’ve found the more I talk about things the lighter they feel, even if it’s a smidge. I wish I could tell you not to feel this way, that you’re a good person. Because no matter what you think you may have done, your words here reflect a person of good character.
Anxiety also lies to us. Tells us we aren’t going to feel better. But, the moments we do feel better, even in a glimpse, we know it’s not true.
Replace anxious thoughts with gratitude.
Release the guilt of posting on here too. 💜💜 We are here for you. Vulnerability and humility. It’s ok.
💐 love to you
@peachThinker662
Hey hii Peach 😊
Exactly… it is scary. And the guilt makes it heavier.
I know what could help me heal, but I still don’t move. I delay, hide behind reasons instead of starting. In that process, I feel like I’ve wasted so much of this year—and that realization hurts deeply.
I think if I had shown myself even a little more love, self-respect, or confidence, things could’ve gone very differently. Instead, I chose procrastination, even while knowing better.
Honestly, no… I haven’t really talked about this with anyone 😕
Something always stops me. A lot of it is shame—feeling lazy, repeating the same mistakes, regretting them after I’ve already done them. It started small, just a few days, but I kept sinking deeper. Almost like I was stubborn enough to lose what I had once gained.
I used to see myself as someone meaningful, grounded, strong in values. Now I see cracks. I feel like I’ve lost my self-respect, my confidence—lost myself. I’ve been carrying the worst version of my inner voice lately:
“Nothing will work.”
“I’m worthless.”
“I’ll fail no matter what I do.”
That constant negative self-talk has drained my courage, and I hate feeling like I’m wasting my own worth.
When people tell me I’m worthy, kind, or a good person, it makes me happy—but there’s also this quiet feeling of not deserving those words, even though part of me knows I do.
You’re absolutely right about anxiety lying. I know that. I’m wise enough to understand what’s happening inside me, to reframe thoughts—but somehow too weak right now to turn that understanding into action. That gap frustrates me the most.
Thank you for your words, truly. I tend to rot silently instead of letting things out. I don’t share much because I’m scared my emotions are “too heavy” for others, and that’s why I feel guilty about posting vulnerable or negative threads.
So hearing you say we’re here for you means more than you know. I’ll carry your words with me and try—slowly, honestly—to work on this.
Sorry 😅 it's so long... pls never mind:/
Love you back, Peach 🤗🌸
hugs
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Guilt is a *** feeling.
Maybe right now “moving” is exhausting. Slow and steady, be gentle, things don’t happen over night.
I nodded my head “Yes” while reading your post. 💜 I’ve been there. Feeling as saying “I did my best” when it still didn’t feel good enough for me. But, in this moment, you look back and know it was your best.
I hope that one day you are able to sort out your feelings with someone 💝
Sometimes when we are so used to being strong and having it all figured out, when we don’t, we isolate until it’s all put back together again I think.
@peachThinker662 😇
Thank you so much for taking the time to explain things to me 😊 It means a lot more than you think 💝 Truly wise words 💕 I’m trying to stay grounded and go easy on myself right now 💞✨
And sry for the late response 🙏 pls never mind 😊💞
Love you !! Hugs 🤗💗
No guilt allowed. This is literally what we're here for. *hugsssssss* <3
@jesusredeemedme2425😇
Aww 🤧 Please!!!!😊💞 Thank youu 💝💐
Sending Hugs shower* ur way🤗✨
☺️colly51 never feel bad for sharing your posts
@colly5609doggz 🤗💗Thank you so much for ur kind words 😊💞
🎄Ailuraphilelove8tear may l ask what kind of feelings are making you feel stuck? colly51
Hi @colly5909doggz 😊
Yeah, sure you can, Colly!!! 😊
Lately, I’ve been feeling guilty about things I’ve procrastinated on for years and about wasting what should have been my golden time. I feel guilty, yet I don’t seem able to stop—I’m still stuck in the same patterns. I keep repeating the same habits even though I know how much they’re destroying me inside, even though i know what can help me heal. I really want to stop the things that have been pulling me down all these years, but I can’t seem to do it. I feel so lazy that I’m not even ready to take the first step 😔 And with the next year so close, I’m still here, making the same mistakes again and again 😔
🎄Ailuraphilelove8tear may l ask what kind of feelings are making you feel stuck? colly51
Don't ever feel bad for posting how you feel
I feel that eact same way.
@rosebud525
Hi rose !! 😊💞
Thank you for saying that 😊 I'm so sorry you can relate with me 😔 i know the pain-i see you... ur not alone, I'm here for u always, sweetie!!💞💝
sending lots of love 💗 and healing ur way ✨
Hugs 🤗 ❤️
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 u are not alone 😔.
@purpleDay727 Aww 🤗 Thank you so much for saying this, it means a lot more u think 💞💝 i really need support rn. 💞 hugs 🤗❤️
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I can feel you buddy. I understand it feels heavier to even move out of bed, to even do daily routine things and the worst of all the guilt to be unable to do anything. Lots of chaos, thoughts, emotions everything just feels overwhelming. One day you are motivated to do everything and the next back to same. Feels like your whole world is shattered. I felt the same.
A big hug 🤗. You are not alone.
Try not to be alone and in the same room/place when you feel heavy. Just go for a walk, get out of your room. Breathe, feel the sun, air. Dance, walk do whatever you and your body feels even for 5 mins. If you don't feel like talking to people or being around them( i literally hated being around humans during this time) be around plants, animals. Each day move your body ,do just a small thing even if next day feels heavier it's completely fine. Push a little, I know you can do this. Take all the heaviness, crumbling thoughts out. You will eventually feel light. I hope this helps.
I am also trying and i can see the changes. This community is wonderful and helps you in difficult situations. We all are here to listen and support you so feel free to share everything, anything you want. You will be fine.
@TheAlchemist1111 😇
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Sometimes slowing down is also a part of healing which we can't see at the moment still it's working for us. Keep trying even it's not working out right now eventually it will. I can feel your efforts and you will heal soon.
Thankyou for the appreciation and kind words. I wish you feel better and stronger everyday. Hoping you find peace, resilience, healing and good health in this journey of yours. 💪✌️🤗
@TheAlchemist1111 Wow!! that's so much for me 🤗💞 Thankyou, Sweetie 💕
I get all ur point's, I'm also looking forward to it, slowly 💐 hope will soon get to process myself over this Feelings, thank you for see me more than i could 💞 i really love ur kind and genuine support 💕
sending lots of love and hugs ur way 🤗💐
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 ,,, all i want to say you will be ok and sending lots of hugs 🤗 💝
@softRainbows1775 oh please....😭😭 that's so gentle 🤧 I really need this now 💕 Hugs received 💞 sending back millions of hugs 🤗💝
