One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}

I'm having trouble with my best friend. I feel like she judges me. I'm also dealing with stuff right now that I just don't feel like she can understand and so I don't even want to talk to her because I feel I need space to work on these things. It's really hard because we used to be so close but she moved away and now she works all the time and I haven't spent time with her for so long I feel like I don't even know her anymore. I feel abandoned and yet, I feel too overwhelmed with my own stuff to try to fix it. I just wish she could get me more and had the time for me. I guess I'm realizing too that we're both changing and maybe we're just growing apart. It's really sad if that's what's happening. I'll miss her so much. I've never had a friend like her. I really love her.

Starting to feel that sadness creep in again. No reason. It just happens. I should be happy, thankful, etc. I hate depression and how it distorts your thinking!

I feel worthless.

I was attacked and sent to the hospital by my nextdoor neighbor, who has been harrassing me for years. I had her arrested and thought that was going to stop the harrassing. I thought it was finally over when she moved, before, until she moved back 9 months ago. I still have over a year on my lease and the owner won't let me out of the lease. My so called friend who knows all about the situation and has even seen and heard some of it refuses to give a statement to the police or be a witness in court unless I give them whatever they want. Now this same person who jumped on me is accusing me of threatening her with a gun on 2 separate occasions. I'm sick of going to court, have had to postpone 2 surgeries due to all this, I'm so sick from the stress that my IBSD medication isn't helping and It feels like I'm on house arrest even though I was the one attacked.

I thought I was being bumped up to get free trauma couseling ( been on waiting list for over 5 months)....turns out I was just given a referral to places I can't get to or afford.

One thing I'm feeling sad about today is being turned down by a friend I asked out yesterday because he didn't have feelings for me in return about a month after my most long term and serious relationship ever had ended.

I find it really difficult to make friends and talk to them. It feels like no one is interested in talking to me. I wish i was a person who others looked to or at least remebered about. Its hopeless I guess, it sucks.

today im sad because, despite the life i have, despite how happy i should be, i still want to die. i know that i should be grateful. i am. im just not happy. i know i should be, and i try to be, i try so, so hard every single day. but i cant do it anymore. im sad for the people ill hurt, im sad for what ill leave behind. im frustrated with myself for even wanting what i do, because i know i should be happy. im frustrated, sad and hopeless. i cant remember valuing my life, and i cant imagine it. i wish i could. im frustrated with myself, and i feel like im going in circles. i just dont know what to do anymore.

For all the hurting people out there that feel they have no support. I have been giving out this sight like crazy because so many people are hurting and are in need of help they can not get ... I am so sadenned by all the people in pain out there...I guess, me included.

I'm sad that the year is ending and my relationship with most of my friends probably won't be as good as its now (or maybe thats what negative thinking is telling me)

I'm also quite sad that lately I've been physically terrible. My mind is making a lot of progress, but my body just can't keep up with the rhythm. I wake up tired every day and sleep in almost every class and that makes me feel extremely useless.