One thing that is contributing to my depression is....
my aunt calling me a burden, fighting with me every day, always yelling at me, calling me nasty names, punishing me for no reason, taking help she offered me away from me for no reason, living in her dark nasty house, there is always bad energy in this house and bad moods and darkness
being alone, having almost no friends, friends that i do have only are there to talk with me about themsleves - so i am ALWAYS alone when i need someone, my fish is dying, i am having huge nicotine fit, i stopped taking my meds
i have no one to talk to, my family hates me - except my dad - but my dad doesnt like me, i have no place to live other than with toxic aunt, i have no job, i have no money, all my schooling was a waste, i have no bf or hubby and never will
yeah, those are some things that contribute to my depression.
so, i guess ill never not be depressed.
i am unfixable
and so is my life.
@blissedNblessed I'm so sorry to hear all this. I wish I could give you a big hug. I'd love to be your friend.
@Christine760
HUGS
THANK YOU <3
Is me, I'm useless and really don't count, I've been shut out as a lesser of a person because I'm white, I'm tired if it, I don't want to keep going just to get degraded as a worthless person, which I guess I am
people who used to be my friends won't just leave me alone because they need me to pad their egos
Lost my job after 15yrs. Feel lost, alone, scared and worried. Don't know what to do. Change makes my anxiety really bad. Lately it's been so bad I lay in bed with heart palpitations and sweating praying for it to go away but it never does. I only get up to shower then back to bed. I feel like a pathetic loser. No one wants to hear how anxious and depressed I am. Also being 38 and single doesn't help. I'm truly all alone. Idk what to do.
@Angela760
I know it does not help at all but I could relate to a lot of what you wrote. I hate feeling so aware of my loneliness and lack of relationships. I am partly to blame because I shy away from trusting people. There are days when I don't even want to be awake or conscious. Then, I feel guilty and the cycle continues. I am trying hard to work on my ultimate life goal. I am here if you wish to talk or just want me to listen.
Being too much of a coward to commit suicide. Being alive. Existing. Kill me.
@tluper6491
You are not a coward. You are strong. Having these feelings doesn't make us weak. Whenever I start to have suicidal thoughts, I have always stop because I dont want to hurt my siblings.
I really have no clue. It's like I know but my brain won't let me realize what it is you know?
@MeowingCacti
I can understand. I hope you are ok 🙂
@Laura
One thing that is contributing to my depression is being unemployed. The other one is the uncertainty of things that are going on right now.
Being a loner my whole life
Just when I think I'm recovering, just when everything seems getting normal it hits again. One trigger word and my dreams are all about it. I can't seem to function now.
i could explain myself so succinctly and people still just only hear what they want to. it isn't about what you're saying.
