One word to describe how I feel today is....

Lost.

pessimistic

Cheerfully lifeless, but I guess that's two words.

Cheerfully-lifeless.There we go

humiliated

worthless

Apprehensive

I struggle with trust in my relationship

I have been working on taking my partner at face value even when the facts indicate otherwise

For the most part it has helped me maintain emotional balance but if I'm left with my thoughts or allow them to generate ideas then I still struggle with paranoia

Hopeful

hurt

hanging

Dead (all death really is a separation/disconnection)