One word to describe how I feel today is....

allergies

tired

@Laura hard to say, my mind is all over the place as usual I just try to put on a happy face.

Shattered

@Laura grateful

Clumsy

nervous

@Laura

impulsive

@Laura Just saw this. Only a few years late. If I had to choose one word to describe This day, January 31st 2023, it would be "Agony"

I learned today that my ex fianceé, though having expressed previously the possibility of being on speaking terms again one day, has discarded all of our messages and chats from 2018-Now aside from our Texts via phone numbers. All social media has been deleted and she moved accounts so I could not contact her through them even though I hadn't.

Today has been nothing but pure agony because I realized there may be no hope. She removed all ways to see me looming in the background. I am worthless, and unwanted. I caused this and I can't even make a post that could explain every reason why I say that. It would exceed whatever character limit there may be.

sick

pushed over the edge