One word to describe how I feel today is....

Numb

deeply depressed

Same, I'm feeling deeply depressed

Unsure 

Anxious 

Optimistic.

Fantastic (my bipolar depression kind of just lifted a few hours ago 🙏  thank heavens!!) My perspective has shifted to neutral and everything around me feels real solid again.

One word to describe how I feel today is sadness

Today I woke up sad the pain from yesterday SH was hurting me really bad, after hours I finally got up to take a shower and after I had no strength to dress up and also I wasn't feeling safe in clothes anymore so I was just in my bathing suit. I had to go somewhere so I force myself to wear clothes and when I got to the place I had my intense intrusive thoughts to undress and run around o kept spacing out I had to leave the place to get back to my home ate a little. I decided to meet with a friend and tell her what's up with my life and she said I must be crazy I guess that didn't help so I just went to sleep that was by 3pm it's 7pm now and I wanna SH again. I wish I could be normal honestly