You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Having a rough day today. Not the worst I've had, but definitely pretty down on myself. I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired.
it's not a "I want the pain go away" day, but it's definitely a "I'm worthless and nobody cares" day.
ever since summer started i've been really sad. like i don't hang out with my friends as much just because my body and mind tells me no even when i want to. i've just felt so bad about myself lately and i'm not sure what to do. i don't have anyone to tell, my friends are dealing with their own things, and i'm not sure i could ever tell my parents. ive just been doing a lot more bad things than usual because of this sad feeling. sometimes i think i need help but i just tell myself that people have it worse than me, and people deal with stuff worse than me for longer periods of time. i tell myself i don't have a reason to tell anyone, whenever i try to say something all i get is "at least..." or they just say "same lol" like, idk i was just expecting maybe a "im sorry you feel like that" or "are you okay" or just something that seems like they care. but. i guess that's too much to ask. oh well, i'm just not sure what to do, so i just sit and sulk, and talk to myself since i have no one else to talk to, to talk through my feelings with. i keep saying it'll get better, but i seem to get worse and worse.
@syd11 hope you're feeling better and if not just letting you know I saw your post wouldn't the world be better if we all said we care
@syd11
Hey I know exactly how you feel. I have been told several times by my Mom that people have it way worse than me and that I should be grateful that I don't go through those things or worse. I feel a lot of people who don't have or understand mental illnesses, assume that your being overdramatic and ungrateful and try to downplay your feelings. I feel that no matter how "good" or "bad" your situation is, you are allowed to have feelings, negative and postitive. Don't let anyone try to downplay and your invalidate your feelings. Your feelings are vaild, you are allowed to have negative regardless of your economic status, material possessions, family, race, gender, etc. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but I promise better days are lying ahead for you. I'm sorry about situaution, if you ever want to talk let me now. I will be happy to listen.
Stay safe,
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@syd11 no matter how hard other peoples problems are, every problem is valid. theres help out there, theres so many people who care and are able to help. please remember your problems are beyond valid, dont compare them to someone elses, i know its hard cause we always feel like we are less but thats okay. its just some little steps you know.. but its gonna be okay, no matter how hars things get, in the end, everything will be alright. i believe in you, hope ur okay
Feel terrible. Like everything is going wrong. Without a job. Relationship troubles. The dream, the life that I had imagined has disappeared. And I feel alone. I'm still trying to get things done., do what I have to... But its difficult.. Every single day is difficult.
@turqoiseOrange7980, I know every day is difficult. I'm sorry that you are going through this.
LIFE SUCKS and is unfair! Why do dem males in my country feel entitled to be a freaking misogynist?!?! I (female) AM A HUMAN BEING TOO!!! I have a head with brain to think and judge! I have right to own my opinions and preferences!!! SOCIETY IS JUST SO DEPRESSING HERE!!! i can never find justice, leave alone love, THEY GIVE ME NO CHANCE, dem males here have MASSIVE ego and superior complex, AM I JUST GON BE A CRAZY CAT LADY IN THE FUTURE?!?! BUT I WANT A FAMILY?!?!?!
Life is crazy lol
Words.
All I see is words, surrounding everything in this world, describing each and every thing. Are they perhaps some form of those hallucinations doctor insists I have? Who knows. Only I see them. I could write of them, of the things the words show me to do, how they affect me, but it seems so trivial. So many words, there are, that it would be rather pointless for me to even begin to explain. Only be conscious that they are always there.
Doctor says I am insane, a psychopath, she explains. Most do, but they don't understand. Sometimes I find that these white walls are a prison for my thoughts, but then, my mind has long since left me anyways. Perhaps I will get better, but nothing is right for that. I didn't choose to be like this. Doctor says He broke my mind. Maybe. I wasn't always this way. I don't remember the before, though, not anymore. They tell me I used to be a normal, sweet innocent girl. What does that mean I am now?
Sometimes I think that I should be dead. Doctor says He should have killed me, that it's a miracle I'm here. It isn't. Is living a life without a mind worth a life to begin with? Maybe. I don't know. Doctor says many things. I find that she never says I will get better though. Perhaps that's something for a later consideration speculation. Not to worry, I can't do anything anymore anyways. These white walls of my mental prison serve efficiently as a physical constraint as well. And here I am, only giving more words. That's all I ever seem to do. Insanity? Who knows. Broken? Perspective opinion. Death? Inevitable. But Words? A constant. An infinite, if you will. We will always have words.
I'm thinking of buying my supplies I need to make this my last day.
Just fed-up of my life . And I am just 27 years old . No idea how I will survive the rest of my life with this mindset . Every day is painful . :(
@calmsoulmeet, calmsoulmeet, i'm so sorry that you feel this way. All we can do is put one foot in front of the other and keep going. I wish you the very best.
@purpleTree4652
Thank you so much friend ♥️ .
Blame myself for everything I do and done.
this week has been a tough one in a long time
it started with a phone call last friday from the doctors, turns out i got clamida. it's treated now thankfully but i think i had it for a while n could effect me having a child in the future. i sprained my ankle rollerskating and i haven't been able to walk properly for the week. thinking it couldn't get worse my cat got hit by a car and passed away. he was my rock and emotional support and my company at home and i don't know what i can do i loved petting my cat and messing around with him and now he's gone i don't have that. i'm getting him cremated but it still upsets me i just want him in my lap purring while i pet him and him to sit in my chair and to sleep on the couch when i pet him when i leave to go to school. i've cried every night since then. last night was awful i scream cried for an hour and now i've got a sore throat. i know time is only going to help i want a new pet but i feel awful for moving on so fast. i know this isn't as big of a problem as others in this chat but i don't have anyone to talk to and i just want someone to understand what i'm going through and help me.
@Chxrrypicked, oh my gosh, i completel understand. I got PTSD from the death of my dog. (without going into the details, I will just say that it was traumtic). One thing I am sure of is that your cat is looking down on you from heaven (where I am sure all animals go) and wants you to take in a new kitty so you can be happy and can give love to another animal.
I've also had my baby angels (pets) cremated. They are resting right near my bed on the bottom shelf of a large night stand. When I pass away, I want to be cremated and all of us buried together.
Blessings to you and your baby angel who passed away.