@lightEast7528 i can understand the feeling and can validate with you, would you like to share what is making you feel this way?
@lightEast7528 I think I pretty much missed having family for most my like. For first 8 years of my life it was just my Ma an I. There may done been 2 things not quite right but she an I were family. We only had each other. I so much wanted a dad which sadly at 9 I did get to done just dat I was his victim of choice to abuse. During holidays an birthdays only were we family as he constandly was headed out da house to head to some bar an drink til he had his fill come home an pass out. Eventually connecting wit my ex I popped for once I would done da family I so desired so when he asked to done his child despite how scared I was to getting pregnant I did BUT dat didnt work. Had my daughter dat still didn’t work I now done 3 granddaughters 2 of which I done no connection wit except for my daughter an her daughter yet I go to visit ‘em at my daughters roomates home an still don’ get da feeling to family my daughter will neither be sleep or she will take my granddaughter out wit her where she will leave me in da home alone sometimes it c’n last anywhere beteen 2-13 hours a day leaving me to do my own thing. So it makes me feel I am wit strangers rather than wit family. When my granddaughter is here she tries to fill da gap but before long bein’ my daughter brings her in too late an having school or other classes like tap dance, Jazz, etc its time for her to go to bed. Luckily as of now depression hasnt set in. I try to keep my mind occupied wit positive thinking—thinking dat what is going on right now is only temporary an things c’n only get better. I also think although ittakes more than just me to be a family there are things I c’n do for myself to give myself da family I done always yearned for-difference is I build it for myself alone.
