Be Honest 💕
If you had to be honest in this exact moment, no mask, no filter, what word or sentence would describe how you feel?
@Amanda84
feeling frustrated and angry at them that make this time of year bad for us also at mom for enabling our abuses she left us alone with brothers and went took care of other peoples kids she spent most the money she got back on the kids she was taking care of but left us with the boys trigger warning this enabled them to sexually abuse us we know was years ago but we was emotionally numb most our life guess the feeling are connecting to the memories now
@stormieandpaws
There's no timeline when it comes to sexual abuse!
The one person who should have protected you most, let you down 💖🥺

@Amanda84
thank you she uses her past to make excuses even conpares her childhood abuse to what we say we went through and well hers she believes was worst but she not get help she uses her story for pity also she uses our mental and physical abuse to get pity too
we mean would you tell people in checkout line you never met before about you adult child issues and bring attantion to self by using the adult child issues our mom did that a lot
but the different between her and us is we getting help have been for years and not like pity to us it empty as we want healing and support keep asking self what did we do that made our brother and his friends trigger warning sexually abuse us others have even blamed us for our abuse made excuses for our abusers too
so yes we angery at all that was done to us
@stormieandpaws
Don't ever let one person make you believe it was your fault!
@Amanda84
thank you we deal with many who seem to blame us for things that happened we know truth that it was not our fault but doubt some of it at times too
I wish I had someone by my side. A hug. Reassurance. I start a new job tomorrow, it’s a bit nerve wracking. My last choice was horrible, I want to succeed and Enjoy it. Make up for my past year. I want happiness.
@peachThinker662
You've got this!
I know it's daunting but you are good enough 💜
I will be rooting for you 💜

Thank you sweetheart
@Amanda84
today we feel lost and unwanted by most people also feel unsupported by most too
but also feel very happy about being out today with small gruop from church to sing at a senior housing place was nice to get to know the ones live their
was blessed with a walker we can use from staff they was going to give to goodwill but they end up giving to us it a standup walker that will not put us in pain due to wrist and hands not be were pressure put on them
@stormieandpaws
I'm happy for your people from the church 💖
@Amanda84
we be too they trained to help special need kids and adults it really helps a lot they not know we DID but do know we have learning disabilities and mental health ones we no longer tell other Christians we DID we had way to many say alters are trigger warning demons so yes they know about the bipolar PTSD and anxiety but not the DID so many really not understand DID sadly even some mental health workers so fear come into play with it our new therapist we been seeing little over 2 yrs she has went for extra training so she great first one since we went into community mental health over 20yrs ago that get it has the training in it
it so sad the stigma around mental health stuff so glad we found a church that not down the mental health issues
@Amanda84 feeling:
@curiousbookishness
This warms my heart 🥰

@Amanda84 thanks for being in the same boat🥰
@curiousbookishness
I'm usually full of beans 💖😁
I need improvement
@thegoodboi
Thanks, I need hugs
