Feeling like I’m invisible
Lately I feel like I’m invisible and everything is invisible. No one invites me out anymore to do things. Am I invisible, when I question it or ask to meet up it’s yeah we will plan it.
Have I heard anything or been invited ? Of course not, because I’m invisible. People only want me when they need something and I use to fall to them and do it. Today I am such a very bad headspace due to lots of deaths I ln family and also my s an abuse coming up it’s literally making em very very uncomfortable and not being nice to myself. Being in my own head with no one to speak to is my biggest problem.
One more things and I know I’m going to explode or maybe worse ( not planning ). I don’t know what I need or who I need, being in my head is soo dark and scary, I need someone to chat to or connect with and chat things through and just see what’s happening and all that
@Kayles96 I didn't know I needed to read your thread until I read it and "invisible" is a good way to say, "ignored." I was looking forward to going to VA Beach with one of my "best friends" and I'm going to put that in quotations because I'm really on the fence about this relationship. It's tricky because one part of me loves and admires her, but the other part of me is tired of how shi** she can be. We made plans last Sunday to go to the beach today but then last night she tried to lie saying she said Saturday even though I know for a fact that she said Friday because I blocked off time on my calendar. This isn't the first time that this has happened between us, the other week she cancelled Taco Tuesday and went to be with her other friend which I don't care about - just be honest about spending time with someone else, it isn't going to make me cry.
The point that I'm making is that the things I want to do are always "invisible" but when it's for her mother's birthday, or when she's crying, or when she does finally want to hang out I'm available. It's soooooo annoying, especially when you love someone a lot. It really makes me wonder why things are so one sided, what did I do to deserve that? If I didn't do anything, then why doesn't she feel like she can be honest about her true intentions and changes?
It's just very draining looking forward to something just for it to not happen. I like to live my life and enjoy things - I can't stand when plans fall through for the same weird reason all the time. People really make me feel like I can't just be at times. And, I'm really fighting for more happiness.
But, as I'm writing this I just realized that I may take myself to a museum this evening just to get out of the house and do something inspiring after such an interesting week with work. I don't like to wait on people so I may just do a solo date or go shopping for a little while, alone, just to make myself feel better even though I hate how she is towards me.
Thank you for sharing your feelings because I can relate to that 100% I'm glad I got this off of my chest because I feel lighter.
Your more than welcome it is becoming a very hard thing at the moment and feeling alone abd invisible is really hurting
@Kayles96 are you just venting, or did you want feedback?
If the latter, read on.
You are in control over who you associate with. Quite simply, find better friends.
Just venting as it’s a daily thing now
@Kayles96
Well you’re not alone in feeling that. I’ve been living with feeling that way the last 40 years which isn’t easy but somehow I’ve managed to do it. I hope that inspires you to believe you can do it too.
I mean sure it’s not right and unfair but you can’t force someone to change or do things you know what I mean?
Yeah but it’s just hurting me so bad rsd is rife at the moment
