I Want to Be Free…
***TW***
I want to be free from my binge-eating ED…I eat a TON. My stomach always hurts. I feel like a fat, disgusting whale.
And I weigh almost nothing… I’m so thin. My stomach is slightly bigger. But I feel like a bloated seal… Fat. Gross. Unable to control myself. Self-soothing with food. Forgetting trauma and pain by stuffing my stomach… I disgust myself.
@jesusredeemedme2425
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I'm here!
I'll always be here for you!
I'm not going to patronize and dismiss your feelings or tell you how to feel but you are not disgusting , and you deserve to be free of this!
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Thank you <3
Much agreed, I wish I knew how to better help either of us with this. 😅❤️
@jesusredeemedme2425 ❤️❤️
I don't think we can ever forget trauma. I have found that sharing my trauma with a safe person seems to lighten the pain just a little bit. But the memories are always there. I feel for you.
Well if youre binge eating and not putting on weight - arent you very lucky? I'm dieting and still stuck on a certain weight :(
Making little changes to arrive to healthy feeling gives me dopamine because I'm checking off my list a task done.
Could you work on your trauma by talking things out? Of course trust is a big factor in opening up to someone. But youre so loved here, so many people support you, could you tap into these resources and give yourself a bigger healing chance?
@jesusredeemedme2425
Healthy eating *
Honestly this one is little out of the box...You can try a astrological remedy...this works magically...Donate bananas on Thursday either in temple or to needy people...this will help you alot since this has also worked wonders for many!!
@jesusredeemedme2425 Sounds like you perceive yourself very different from your actual image... This could mean body dysmorphia accompanies your ED. Have you talked about this with anyone in the mental health field?
Maybe start with trying to be gentle to yourself... The way you would to a good friend going through what you are going through.
Be kind to yourself moon🙏🏾 it feels better. I can definitely relate to feeling bad about myself but its possible to see yourself in a more fair and compassionate way.
Hope u find a solution 💙
@jesusredeemedme2425 Hello, I am so sorry about what you have been going through and I really do hope that you will be okay soon. When you get the feeling to binge eat try to find something to take you're mind off of this for a while until that feeling goes well. For example if you like reading or painting or drawing or watching a movie or playing a game or going for a walk or something else that you like and try that for a while. Also, try to be kind and love yourself because you are a lovely person inside and out. If you ever wanted to talk, you can message me anytime. Sending you lots of 🤗❤️ to help you to feel better.