I don’t have anyone to talk with, I push everyone away with my problems
Sooo idk it hasn’t been going very well with me the past weeks. My dad has been saying stuff like he rather wants me dead.. And that he hates me… He is also telling it to other people…. It really hurts and I’m almost in a crisis situation because sometimes I feel like hurting myself to numb the mental pain… I’m crying too much now to explain the situation but he basically goes off on me and telling me all kind of slurs..
I have tried telling my best friend, but she is ignoring me. My bf is on vacation with his friends and he told me he didn’t want to hear about my problems. It’s easy to resolve my problem and that’s simply by staying elsewhere but I don’t have money to sleep in a hotel and all my friends ignore me.. I have nowhere to go, ok tomorrow I can go stay at my aunts place because she’s on vacation. Finally after 4 weeks I can escape this situation… But I feel very isolated and idk who I can tell… I have other friends too, but they’re all busy with their lives… I don’t want to disturb them.
I’m so scared that I will push everyone away because I only have problems in my life. I try to talk about the good things… But I just have too much problems.. Last year I was suicidal because I had been victim of a rape the year before… It’s always downs in my life and never ups… I feel depressed… I feel lonely…
What can I do please?
@moodydoody I am sorry for what you are going through. I can relate to being a rape survivor. It is hard to move past the trauma. The best advice I have heard so far is to take life one day at a time. And if your friends are your friends, they will be happy to listen to you and be there for you. Hoping things get better for you.
Be hopeful dear. The present is tough, merciless and painful but maybe and most likely the future will be better.
Don't force yourself to feel fine right now because it'll be difficult due to your circumstances. Just go on walks and spend some time in nature if you can. If not, try to watch videos that are relaxing and write your thoughts.
Always remember, you're strong, capable and beautiful. You deserve love and happiness. May you find them
I understand the issues you have with your dad. I feel the same for my dad therefore I try to isolate from him most of the time. He is now considering divorce from my mom while planning for my grandma's funeral. When he told my mom, things did not go well and it even made my brother get into a really ugly fight with him.
It sounds like you're in a lot of pain. I'm so sorry. I wish I could take it away. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here.
I'm sorry you're going through that. It sounds like a lot to deal with. It must be really painful having to deal with it all. I think therapy would definetly help. When you can, I also recommend getting a new place so you don't have to live with your dad. No one should have to go through that abuse. Talking about it in therapy can help. I'm sorry your friends and bf have disappointed you. I get that but therapy is a great place to be understood and not judged. Where you won't be made to feel like a burden or like your the problem. I hope that helps.
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U need someone to hear you out, be there with you. I can understand what u are going through, If u wanna build the connection and stay in touch the yu can text me
@moodydoody I can definitely relate to your situation. Do msg me if you like to and let your mind out
@BlueHope909 related newbie question -how do you pm?
@moodydoody. I don’t that hurts I don’t even have my mom
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