I hate myself:(

And one last thing- you may have made a mistake, like everyone has, but you are Not a mistake.

Darkness During A Storm Doesn't Mean The Sun Isn't Shining Above.

Running Away Must Be Impossible When Your Feet Are Tied Up Like This.

But You Have A Choice....

You Can Either Endure it...

Cursing Every Second Of Your Life Just Wishing It Would Be Over Soon

Or

You Could Build A Shelter, Not A Comfortable One But Just Enough To Get You Through It.

The Storm Always Ends And The Sun Always Shines

Trust Me It Will ❤️

Hi Ailura,

Just one ask from you if you can..

Write down the exact opposite of this post ( do keep the reference to you same) and say it aloud 3 times..

Tell me how you felt post doing it.

Appreciate your genuine feedback!

from less recent times but im been trying to step out there and try to reconnect with people, so ive been shairng some of my writting but from experince being alonly inside regardless on how many messages you get will still be there when the message arent (To say hello is harder than a few things; we find it hard to understand the world, never seems to care. So we much leave for this feels the only way to improve anything, when the air disappears from the breath we are told is a gift yet feels like a curse. Ever heard the expression getting hit in the face by a brick wall only if you could see my job and if others didn’t see it I wounded believe it myself but I understand that personally and it hurts less than the void.) for this they say take a breath and breathe but cold air is still cold air dont let the phyical pain overtake the emotional pain for flowers bloom after a harsh winter

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9

I am just seeing this. 💙💙

i really really hope you are having a better day today sweetheart!!!!!! 

But, I’m very happy to see you expressing yourself and not holding it in. Let it off your chest 🧘‍♀️ These waves 🌊 of guilt, shame and anger come…and it’s overwhelming.

i am here with you! I hear you. I see you. 

I see a very kind, compassionate, intelligent, brave, determined person with a loving, caring way and a great sense of humor. 

Let those tears flow of they need to. Yell into a pillow of you need to. Or keep venting. Sometimes it helps to say “what do I need?” 💜🤍

One day you will feel peace, you will feel relief and you will feel happiness. It feels like an eternity when stuck in the emotions. But one day when you smile, you’ll notice and say to yourself there’s some joy. The confidence will come. 

And please —remember—-we all make mistakes. 💙🩷 We learn and we GROW! 

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 I am going to give you my humble opinion:

I am sure that you are aware that one of the main characteristic of being human is the possibility of being wrong, As a species we have accepted this, Because we understand that our perception of things sometimes is not accurate Although individually sometimes we forget it. my point is That you are accurately describing your perception of things but if you remember that you are human, Then you could realize that you might be also wrong.

If you could do THAT. Inevitably that opens the possibility of a different scenario, because the thing with perceptions, is that we react to them as if it were the reality. 

You are here you are interacting with people, You have education you express yourself well... My point is that from here I can see some good things.. if I knew you better I am sure I would find more and more positive things.

anyway, You have two options as I see it: find People who love you and ask for THEIR perception, you might be surprised on how different it could be, I have been in that situation more than once, and I couldn't believe how wrong I was, but knowing made me better.

but there is only the beginning.. Professional counseling is always a good idea They are trained to analyze perceptions. I am just a regular guy, but if you want to talk to me I am happy to oblige

Have a hug and good luck 😊

I can completely understand this feeling. It can be so hard and crushing. My physical health has been it's most horrible lately. I haven't been this sick before. I am worried something might be terribly wrong. I wonder what is going on all the time and it causes me even more distress. Not helping the body recover at all. I do wish us both well.

@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 Why? Talk to me about it 

Hi there :,(

You are not a mistake! We are all here for a reason and we all have a purpose ! The point of living is being to experience life and learning everyday! Anything that we mess up on or learn it's always just a lesson. Life is about learning about yourself your likes and dislikes. No one is perfect we are unique in our own ways! Love yourself!