It’s like waiting for something that doesn’t come
Day or night n waking up the same again cuz I always have to shed my self pity cuz no one will cheer up on me or give me back what ppl stole from me like energy n company time cuz I wanted to be good friend for everyone but if they leave u no matter who they are so many times it’s like why giving chances unless ur truly sure which is so hard to tell💔
all I can do is protecting myself after learning it n becoming aware but no matter what I do, nothing seems to fill this void inside, I’m lacking so much empathy from others…
everybody stayed only for little until they were satisfied n left me like something old u find on street… n I wanted to believe them all thus why I gave so many chances…
its worst when ppl don’t reciprocate n instead they make illusion of care but that was never real…💔
now world just wants u to move on n not be sad anymore but what if I’m already sad months, it’s so difficult for one to let go
I come here in hopes that my compassion can be filled slowly…😔🙏🏻💐
@livbinny
It is so hard to be in those shoes to give your all be a supportive friend ....give second or third chances whatever it takes .....and when we need something or support it is just NOT there.
All the things we were told of be a good friend and people will be friends....... but people seem so fickle and self involved. I too have been left with no one to support or help when i needed it. I tried to tell myself for years that people came into my life for a reason and it is either a lesson or a blessing but how many times can we learn about not being appreciated. i can also attest that cutting people off and being alone is not any better. i can't change others but i can change me and like you said it is hard to tell and wait to see if the person is truly deserving of our empathy and friendship.
Exactly… that’s why I feel so sorry for myself bcs I never had this guidance n comfort in life so I tried to do how I knew was best or got inspired by others n wanted to mean something more to ppl but u give so much n all of them seem to be the same….i never wanted to generalise anybody but it kept happening, being alone is so hard but at least liberating.. I think u mean how many times before it could drag us completely down.., anyway thx for saying this
@livbinny
Hey, I noticed that you've written a couple of entries here on 7 cups , and they sound a lot like my own diary entries. You're not alone...I struggle with loneliness and low self-esteem too, just like you. It hurts when people leave, but people come and go. When friends leave, new friends come into your life.
And look, there are some fake people who came to you only to use you, but you'll also meet people who will genuinely support you and like you for who you are. Because you are likable and you deserve to have supportive friends.
Your inner critic might tell you mean and hurtful things about yourself, but don't keep listening to its lies.
I hope this helps you at least a bit. I'm rooting for you and i hope 2025 will be a better and happier year for you 😊