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I know, this post probably won't get much attention. Perhaps its better that way.
I.. I am tired of this world and all the people. I wish I never existed in the first place (I am not suicidal, pls don't refer suicidal resources to me).
I feel neither belonged to the world, nor to God. My life is been a struggle ... And when i look back.. I see that I spent my life mostly alone.
I m sick of loneliness. Things don't get better. Its been the same for 5yrs now.. I am tired of everything. God, people, bonds.. everything has only hurted me.
I wander around in this world with fake smiles and feel abandoned. I act as if it will be fine. And I'm a strong warrior and all... But at some points ... It gets suffocating.
@SoulwithGoals - This is exactly how I’ve been feeling for a very long time, like I don’t really belong on this earth or among the human race at all. It’s like I was created to be hated, like I’m cursed, or being sacrificed for some higher purpose I can’t see. It’s such an odd, unsettling experience, and I don’t know if anyone else can relate to this one specific part of it. Human behavior feels alien to me, and on some level it always has, even though I’m starting to think I’ve lost more pieces of myself than I can count. I lost those pieces just to survive. Anyway, I wish we didn’t have to feel this way, but sometimes I look at the world and wonder if it’s for the best. If the human race is so convoluted, maybe it isn’t so terrible to feel like an outsider inside of it. I hope you can find peace or some kind of outlet that makes you feel connected to something better, whether that better thing exists in this world or somewhere else entirely.
@SoulwithGoals - This is exactly how I’ve been feeling for a very long time, like I don’t really belong on this earth or among the human race at all. It’s like I was created to be hated, like I’m cursed, or being sacrificed for some higher purpose I can’t see. It’s such an odd, unsettling experience, and I don’t know if anyone else can relate to this one specific part of it. Human behavior feels alien to me, and on some level it always has, even though I’m starting to think I’ve lost more pieces of myself than I can count. I lost those pieces just to survive. Anyway, I wish we didn’t have to feel this way, but sometimes I look at the world and wonder if it’s for the best. If the human race is so convoluted, maybe it isn’t so terrible to feel like an outsider inside of it. I hope you can find peace or some kind of outlet that makes you feel connected to something better, whether that better thing exists in this world or somewhere else entirely.
@SoulwithGoals
I am really sorry you feel that way. When I feel down, I like to listen to the Quran to feel at peace. I know you may not be Muslim but you can give it a try as well. Best wishes