Looking for someone who I can count

I'm new in the 7 cups and I'm looking for tools to help me to stay sober. I'm not a native English speaker but I think that this community can help me for real and It's worthy the effort to express in another language different from my mother tongue.

I've tried to quit from alcohol for several years, but although it's easy for me not drink alcohol for months, eventually I have a relapse and feel worse than the previous time I tried.

I have done meditation and seen lots of vidéos and podcasts and I suppose that the fact that makes me relapse is the thought that I NEVER will be able to drimk some beer or wine as a normal person. I have a compulsive character and once I star to drink I can't stop and next morning I have blackouts and feel misérable, guilty and embarrassed

I would like to keep in touch with someone who was there for me and me for them and talk about our problem and support each other when temptation shows.

I'm decided to get rid of alcohol once and for all not only for me but also for m'y family and friends.They don't deserve see me drunk even although sometimes I behave corectly enough.

My path can be slow but it'unstopable

Hope and strenght for all