My mind | my life seems so dull and soulless - 30th October 2025
Idk what is happening to me, i feel so lifeless and my life has meaning, I have no interests in anything, I lost interest in anything. My routine - wakeup, watch videos in YouTube most of the day and then sleep, everything feels so boring. I try to writing random things in a notebook from online sometimes or maladaptive daydream, nothing else. I have no life, not even social skills, I feel lazy, physically and mentally tired all the time, I was even struggling to write this post like idk what to write and I struggle to start/initiate conversation even with a listener, I am mentally paralyzed, scared and do not have the courage to listen. Sometimes I feel like my heart and soul is being stabbed with a knife. Maladaptive daydreaming is causing me issues like a addiction which is hard to get rid of, it stops and then returns, I go back to it, like for a week I was doing alright but then the next week I fell into it again, it is affecting me alot. I feel so helpless, idk who I will talk to, I have no one. Sometimes I overthink and recently I start to get paranoid even though I try to ignore.
@optimisticPlum2212
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I'm sorry you are struggling so much.
It can be very overwhelming and can lead to us just not doing anything and feeling unhappy.
It's important to try and do small, manageable tasks each day, to build up your confidence and refind your happiness.
Return to your old self.
Shaking up your routine will allow you to feel different but it's important to be gentle with yourself.
You deserve to be happy 💕💜
@optimisticPlum2212
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I'm sorry you are struggling so much.
It can be very overwhelming and can lead to us just not doing anything and feeling unhappy.
It's important to try and do small, manageable tasks each day, to build up your confidence and refind your happiness.
Return to your old self.
Shaking up your routine will allow you to feel different but it's important to be gentle with yourself.
You deserve to be happy 💕💜
@Amanda84 Thank you for your support, I appreciate it 💖.
@optimisticPlum2212
A pleasure 💜
Some of the things you mentioned aren't as meaningless as you tend to feel, perhaps because of judgments of others ....
For eg. I watch a lot of YT as well.... I watch interviews of people . I always learn things and reflect on content. The comments section is like icing on the cake. You find so many people thinking the same and it makes you feel youre together. Sometimes people engage in arguments and the humor in them is a treat to see... I find the internet very useful in how connection to hundred of others has been made possible by simple scrolling around ...
Writing is quite healthy as well even if what youre writing is all broken. Shape comes with time. We all start off with broken lines and they are powerful in their own way because they are expressions of truth, the truth of the moment, of how you feel..... I looked at my old diaries (from several years ago) last month and the incoherent stuff amused me because I recognise the progress after all these years of having found clarity.
@optimisticPlum2212
@Creamyyy Thank you for your response, I appreciate you sharing your story.
I really related to a lot of what you said in your post. Obsessive daydreaming can feel so nice and comforting, but it’s tough when real life feels dull or disappointing in comparison. I get what you mean about being bored it can seem like everyone else’s life is exciting, but that’s really not true for most people.
You mentioned that it’s hard for you to talk to someone, but if you ever feel like chatting about anything at all I’d be happy to listen. No pressure, just someone who understands a bit of what you’re going through.
@leilainvirtnam Thank you for your support, I appreciate it alot. Sorry for the late response.
@optimisticPlum2212 heyy its okay to feel like this, feel free to connect with a listener, i can help you, what is in your mind? what is stopping you? we will figure out , what things you might enjoy.
@sereneMoon4313 Thanks for reaching out, I will be sure to reach you out. Sorry for the late response.
