Needing rough advice
I'll go straight to the point, i'm recently starting a major in psychology at a really prestigious university, as good as that can sound, i honestly have no idea how i got here in the first place, i barely clutched out the admission exam and all my studies in general.
I'll be honest with myself and all of you, i'm not the smartest guy in the entire world, studying for me is more of a nuisance than something easy or interesting, and i'm also really really rough at myself when things don't go good, not the profile of someone who will indeed graduate from this, and i'm aware of it, then why am i still in here in the first place? Well, it's just normal to start a major right after finishing high school to not get thrown raw into adult life and underpaid and miserable jobs.
Therefore, i'm just studying without any motivation, the few weeks i was in here tell me that i don't truly like what i'm studying, the classes just feel boring, i've been skipping a lot of them from waking up downed and not wanting to go in the first place, exams are really close and i know nothing about anything, i really feel i won't be able to wrap this up.
However, i can't just simply drop out like it's nothing, sure, i lost all of my scholarships because of the high standards and exigence of the university, but my family just won't give up on it and they keep paying a lot of money in different stuff, how do i even tell them that i don't like this major/life and would want to drop out without having terrible consequences in a lot of aspects in our life? i'm walking on thin ice, if i choose myself, i'll bring bad moments for my family, and they'll probably end up hating me, if i choose to keep going, at one point i'll just collapse.
My mind is fogged, i can't really know what to do, so i'm asking for your advice on the matter if you have any, even the most life-destroyer things you can say can be useful, because this is the moment they'll truly make impact, if you took the time to read this, even a "i don't know" will also help to consider my options, that's all i think.
@SaviSSS
Thank you for sharing. I can hear how tired you are. As for advice I don't have much and also can't tell you what you should.
I can tell you from personal experience it can be a lot to switch majors. I was ONE semester away from an IT degree and then decided that I didn't like computers and switch to Human services(psychology funny enough). The choice was not easy and my parents were worried for me mainly due to the potential of now getting a good job to support myself. While I understood where they were coming from I couldnt force myself through a program I started to hate. So I completely understand how you feel. The main focus is you, while choices can affect others around you at the end of the day you want to make sure you are happy with what you are doing and decided on. They always say if you like what you are doing you never work a day in your life. While I don't fully believe i do think that it helps to be someone you like versus don't like.
Didn't mean to write a whole personal essay but i hope it might help even a little. Just remember this is your story and no one can tell you have your pages and chapters are written.
I really appreciate your point of view, it'll help me sort stuff out
@SaviSSS
You have a lot going on.
This is something many people facing similar situations. I feel too many are in a major or even finish and have a career they dislike... why because they stayed in a program for whatever reason like parents invested in it or had a scholarship. Most young people fresh out of high school do not know what they want to do for a career. Not sure how they end up in majors and then find after they need to start over to find something they actually do have an interest in.
you speak of people in miserable jobs that did not head directly to university..... but IF someone does go to school after a year or so they have a much better view of what they do not want....
Some go thru many years of school lots of $$ and find their job miserable.
Two paths that end at same destination.
I appreciate your words, and it's not to be critic but- it is a bit discouraging to hear that, but maybe it's because my thoughts are still foggy, i'm sure i can make sense of it and make something out of it, thank you for your words.
