Never alone with my thoughts

@AnarchyFox

I get what you mean about being alone and the hiker in the woods did make me laugh 😂

I too listen to music and craft and write poetry 

Poetry allows feelings to flow, rather than everything being just hard, and intense all the time 💖

@AnarchyFox Hello,

Thank you for sharing openly; it takes courage to put feelings into words. The sense of being watched alone and hesitation to express creatively are common. Social anxiety can feed these thoughts, making it limiting to sing, write, or explore ideas freely.

You're right that these thoughts seem irrational, but they influence your choices. It doesn't mean you're broken; your mind tries to protect you, even if it feels restrictive. Recognizing this pattern is a strong first step.

Start small: write a line, hum softly, or jot a safe idea. Over time, these acts build trust in your thoughts and creativity outside your head.

You're not alone. Many feel the tension between creativity and fear of exposure. Sharing shows your voice matters, and you deserve freedom to express yourself without fear.

Hey hi @AnarchyFox 💞

I just want to say first, you’re not strange or broken for feeling this way. Reading your post honestly made me pause because it hit too close to home.

Idk why you completely wrote what I’m feeling tho. Most of the things you said totally resonate with me. I’ve felt this same way since my teenage years, I feel exactly what you’re describing, buddy.

For me,

That constant “what if someone watcing me now?” loop.

That hesitation to sing, write, or create because it feels like you’re being observed.

That fear of your private thoughts becoming exposed, judged, or misunderstood even when you know it’s irrational.

It sounds simple on the surface, but living with it is exhausting. I’ve always felt awkward sharing this with anyone because it feels… embarrassing? Hard to explain without sounding paranoid, even though you know it’s anxiety.

That thought became extreme for me as a teenager and honestly ruined a lot of things I could’ve enjoyed back then and now. I didn’t really “solve” it, I just survived it. Somehow, over time, I managed, and now at least I don’t feel scared all the time lol.

You’re absolutely right though, this kind of mindset kills creative expression. Creativity needs privacy, messiness, and permission to be cringe. Anxiety doesn’t allow that. It tries to keep you “safe” by keeping you small.

One thing that helped me a bit (not perfectly) was reminding myself:

thoughts aren’t actions, and creations don’t need witnesses.

Sometimes I’d write with the intention of destroying it later. Or write nonsense on purpose. Or keep things locked, hidden, or unnamed, just to teach my brain that nothing bad actually happened when I expressed myself.

I’m also dealing with extreme social anxiety, so I really get where you’re coming from. You’re not alone in this, even if it feels isolating as ***. I genuinely hope we both ease up with time and little by little, take back the right to exist, think, and create without fear.

Thanks for putting this into words. It helped me feel less isolated.

Hope things will get better soon 🌸

Sending lots of love and support 💜

Hugs*🤗 💞

@AnarchyFox I made a poem if that's okay with you I am going to share it with you, Mirror , Mirror on the wall, made by me 

@AnarchyFox

i completely get youuu, do you also, like, kind of "think freely" because you fear (irrationaly) that there might be a mind reader just judging you ? (even though it's everything but probable)