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Scared of the person I've become...

User Profile: IzzyGamer
IzzyGamer September 28th, 2025

I was a mistake, I don't belong, no one cares, I don't matter. These thoughts are the things that constantly annoy me. No reprieve and no relief. Everything is so confusing and I'm so overwhelmed. Don't know why I'm here. I'm so tired of everything. I can't do this anymore. I've tried to be strong but everyday is a struggle. I don't know what I'm doing don't even know what wrong with me. I hide how I feel and bury everything. People always tell me I shouldn't bottle up how I feel but it's the only thing I know how to do. Every time I let people into my life and open up I end up being the one to get hurt. I hate myself and I hate my life. I don't even know whats wrong with me, something is wrong but I don't know what it is. I find myself looking for answers only to end up more and more confused. Everything is so tangled. My life sucks and yet I continue to hide because I'm scared. Because I'm scared of being hurt again. I can't do this anymore. I lie awake some nights scared to fall asleep because once I wake up I'll be one step closer to completing my transformation. Don't even know why I'm writing this, but I did it anyways. 

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User Profile: brightCucumber5948
brightCucumber5948 October 3rd, 2025

I’ve been on a journey of self love and have learned that rejecting myself was the cause of my inner turmoil. Instead I’ve been doing the opposite and learning to love all parts of myself which is a journey that takes time. I’ve also learned that love cannot exist without forgiveness. Learning to forgive myself has allowed me to forgive others as well. I have learned that all emotions are different expressions of love that my ego has to protect its false sense of self. For example, I used to hate myself when I wanted to be something better. I learned that this is an expression of love because my ego wants to improve itself. Finding the love behind each emotion allows me to be in love 24/7. This concept may sound odd to people, but who cares when you are in love? One turning point I had was asking myself- would you rather live the miserable life you have been dreading or try something different? Later I learned that I made the right decision because life is meant to be lived in love.

User Profile: warmheartedSail3829
warmheartedSail3829 October 3rd, 2025

Don't be scared my friend !

You're strong at your core , not everyone can handle that . It shows how much resilience you have and how much clean and pure you are in your heart. Believe in yourself sometimes we see of a very short time period like what will happen in 2-3 days or a week and then if we tend to think big again for longer time example a month then you might think everything is going to end up bad .

It's not my friend it's not. Don't worry believe that God sees everything he's making you stronger challenges come to those who have heart and core strong enough to handle it . And brother you're the chosen one , God removes unworthy people who don't deserve love from your life see that way if they really cared they wouldn't have left you . Connect with those who actually care or at least listen .

We all have a reason a purpose for what we are here on Earth that's what we often slip from but God has sent you for something meaningful trust on him sometimes we are out of our minds we don't realise at that moment and do some damage that's irreversible , I had experienced it too and in my family again. But it's not the best choice or any right decision .

Try not to be that way , if no one supports you though we are here buddy we do care .

And before us is also there a guy who cares More it's You. Be your biggest fan if you think you are amazing you are , if you think you can do achieve your goals you can .

It's our mind we need to control

Michael Jordon famously quoted and it will give you an inspiration “ Every great moment is lived twice , once in head and then in reality.

I don't know from where you are how you look what's going on in your life but I know one thing you are A human like us all a child of God and our brother who's there to share his love generosity and wisdom

Be this guy Man

I would like to be remembered as a man who never looked down on those who looked up to him, who took a few cups of love, one tablespoon of patience, one teaspoon of generosity, one pint of kindness, and one quart of laughter. Take it with faith and mix it up with plenty of understanding. Then add lots of kindness. And then serve it to each and every deserving person you meet.

This is how we are meant to live my friend.

Wipe off your tears give a smile and see how amazing you are believe 😍 ❤️ 😊 in yourself friend

Tough times will make you unstoppable

Tip : Read some autobiographies of Boxers, Leaders , Philosophers or Some self help books and connect to religion which ever you follow but be there trust God and be you you're unique.

Thank you

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User Profile: warmheartedSail3829
warmheartedSail3829 October 3rd, 2025

Also Izzy ,

Communicate even if you feel hesitant I had been that too don't stay introverted or having fear because it's the only biggest thing that the chains holding you back I were same too even worse walking like a dork and freak scared skinny and lean never maintained eye contact , hunched up with bad conditioning as a kid and being bullied.

Still I improved , you can too it's just speak it gives confidence think clearly how to start what you're gonna say that makes it easier if you can't think no worry just talk earlier part was like plan for opening up and speaking so you don't feel awkward . This feeling comes awkwardness is common but laugh it off learn from it like see I got better I can speak clearly thanni thought. I will do it again. Soon we loose fear and shame and kinda BECOME fearless and we are communicating well . You'll open up talk nicely and increase your confidence just give it a try 😉👍

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User Profile: warmheartedSail3829
warmheartedSail3829 October 3rd, 2025

Try developing your hobbies to regain back your confidence , just train your mind and body , do some exercise keep yourself in shape it releases good dopamine and you get better mood and also gives adrenaline thrills which makes you determined . Realise your self worth , God forgives everybody you haven't done anything bad or harmed anyone as such you're a good human being stand tall and walk with confidence proud and not fearful of anyone.

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