Spilling the Tea
I am here because I underwent a spinal surgery in May. I’ve been out of work since Feb, with moments of attempting to go back recently, that led me to quit. Though I do have another job in the making.
The days when I’m home I’m filled with anxiety and tears. The days I go do things I’m exhausted.
I feel like I’m failing in every aspect and wonder where did my life go?
Where did my free spirit go?
I don’t know if I’m victimizing myself and just falling into a crevice.
I found photos last night of when I ran 5k obstacle course. I was covered in the thickest mud that stained my skin for a few days. Biggest glowing smile on my face. I accomplished it. It was one of the toughest years I thought I had had. There’s was grief, life, and disappointments. That was what I needed. I was a warrior.
I need that h hope that things are going to improve. The anxiety with decrease and the energy will increase. 😢
@peachThinker662
Sorry that your anxiety is beating you up.
wondering where life went? It's just taken a different direction but it's still there.
You are not failing. You are healing. Moving on to your new job, that has to account for something?
Spinal surgery is no small feat to recover from and you are handling it like a champ, as though you crawled through the mud once again. 😊
Even through tears and exhaustion are there, you’re still showing up. That’s courage.
Pulling up a chair to sit beside you, I'm always here to listen or talk nonsense 🤪 when ever you need to put a smile on your face, just reach out. Your Cups family has you.
lots of hugs 🤗 🤗
@braindamag3
that brave girl is still inside me. Thank you for your support. The new job definitely counts for something and shows that I keep trying and don’t give up. 💖
@peachThinker662
Let's help Peaches clean up spilt tea 😁
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@jesusredeemedme2425
I’m not the best surfer.🏄 thank you for your support. ❤️❤️
@peachThinker662
You need to be gentle on yourself .
You've been through so much .
You are not painting yourself as a victim.
You are being honest.
It takes time for our body to recover.
It's natural to miss our old self but who you are now is pretty amazing 🥰
I too had a spinal operation and it takes it out of you, it does get better 💜💕
@Amanda84
I am being honest. And I am going through a lot. But I can do it, others as you have had spinal surgery. 💖💖 thank you for being there
@peachThinker662
You need to take it at a pace however that suits you 💕💜
@peachThinker662 you are doing the best you can. We are proud of you. You are a warrior, it doesn´t matter if you just run the course or are in recovery, you are just as tough 🌻 Sending you some healing vibes
@sadcat13
thank you for being proof of me 🥹❤️ I am definitely doing my best. Just need a routine before work starts. Thank you 🐈⬛
@peachThinker662 you got this ❤️❤️❤️
@peachThinker662 Thank you for being so open about this. You were stuck at home for days, and that can be really frustrating, I'm glad you joined cups, to share your struggles and be vulnerable about them. Your feelings are completely valid, and they truly matter 🤍 Things will get lighter, and We're all here for you in this! ❤️❤️
*Biggg hugs* 🐾💝
@fossilfellow
thank you sweetie. It made me crumble for a bit to admit my challenges. It’s a raw feeling. Thank you for hearing me out and me and my feelings do matter ❤️❤️
You guys, I just picked up my phone for something quick. I was not expecting to see all these comments. I just burst into tears. I was just speaking about not being vulnerable enough on this site. Despite it being for mental health. I feel like I’ve grown to have you all as my supportive friends and I don’t want to let others or myself down. I’m taking chances everyday. Some big, some small.
All I want is this behind me and it just can’t come fast enough. Sometimes we do need to wait. I need to stop listening to my harsh angry negative voice and listen to all of you.
My sister told me “you’re pretty bad a$$ for having a neck scar” I feel like a wimp. I feel like I should have it all together. After all it was in May. Though as I write this, I think about all the sleepless nights I endured prior. The pain and the agony. It’s not just since May.
I need to go get a tissue ….
Awww <3 You’re our family. We love you. We’re here for the long haul for you! <3
You’re not letting us down… You’re so brave for speaking up! Vulnerability is a benefit, not a disadvantage <3
Your sister’s right, btw. ;) It’s a battle scar! Wear it with pride <3
Go get a tissue and go watch Anne With an E. It’s calming <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Vulnerability is a benefit, not a disadvantage
Words to Live by 💕
@peachThinker662 ❤️❤️❤️
@peachThinker662
we got you Peaches
someone once told me “you got to get out of your head, your mind is your worst enemy “
hopefully the more you get it out on the table and spilt, the better you will start to feel. I know some days it helps me.
Now go listen to some ear worms to get the clutter out of your head 🤗🤭☺️
Mana mana. ;)
@braindamag3
my mind + heads are my own worst enemy
@peachThinker662
From someone who has beaten himself up for many years, if only there was an easy way to calm the mind. 🤗🥰💞
@braindamag3
seriously need to put down the bat!!
@peachThinker662
You are not a wimp.
You are human and none of us have it all together 💕💜
@peachThinker662
I will help you wipe those tears 😜 😁 😊
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@braindamag3
🎶Peaches, peaches, peaches, peaches, peaches🎶 🍑
I always think of Bowsers song when I think of your screen name lol 🤣
Peaches you're amazing girly
Keep that fighting spirit that you have
Some days are harder than others. But on the tough days it's ok to lean on us
We love you 💕
@convivialAvocado1138
Thank you sweetheart 🥑 ❤️
Anytime my dear 💗
@peachthinker It sounds like you have been through so much! 🤗 Hugs! Changing jobs is hard as it is. Hang in there! I'm definitely not a medical advice person, but from personal experience, please don't overdo it. How is the healing process from surgery?
