Struggling

@first48fan oh that's a really hard situation🙁 I'm sorry sweetie 🙁 I don't know what to say to comfort you best, sorry😕 so I'm just gonna give you a giant tiny hug ❤❤❤ good luck with everything ❤

@first48fan Hey, I'm glad you reached out. The situation sounds incredibly stressful for multiple reasons and I hope he doesn't go to jail. What would be more helpful for you right now? If you find yourself needing to focus on the situations that are bothering you, examine your thoughts: make a list of all the worst things that you are worrying will happen and then try to respond to those worries in a balanced fashion (like you would talk to a friend). If you find the need to escape from the overwhelming feels, distract yourself by either writing about all the little good things still in your life (or in the lives of others or in the world or in outer space- trust me, there's still beauty and goodness out there to be found) OR do something to turn your brain off- wordle, scrabble, sudoku, some other dumb game that's slightly engaging, binge videos online, read some comics (easier to focus on than a book, especially if you are in a highly emotional state), do some crunches or pushups while blasting music, go sing in the shower (or cry in the shower- sometimes, you honestly have to cry and that's alright too). you said you were going to do something stupid- do yourself a favor and keep sharp things away from you. keep alcohol and drugs away from you (they aren't going to help, trust me). i'm glad you are alive and while in pain, you are still here for the fight- you know well enough to not treat yourself unkindly when you are already under so much stress. 

Thank you both for your kind words and support. You have no idea how much it helped to read that people care and have useful insights on what to do and how to handle the depression.

Today was a better day still struggling but not thinking about doing anything stupid. I hope you are both doing well.

Hugs

Really horrible situation :( .

At least you typed in the right place, we don't judge

The only thing I can say is,good luck, we believe in you :)

Please don’t do anything to harm yourself. Your situation is stressful, but it’s far from hopeless. You can absolutely start taking steps to improve it. Please dial 211 and tell them what’s going on and see if they can suggest any resources. It sounds like you need to earn some money and maybe get some professional help to deal with the stress. Good luck!