everything i’m rubbish at. ✨

@LoveMyMoonflowers I hope the break helps! I see a lovely person as much as I know you from here. I hope you can see your good qualities too soon.

@LoveMyMoonflowers

Here's a list of what are things you can work on- and never ever will be rubbish at:

1) being a human 

2) being a friend 

3) being a student 

4) being helpful 

5) looking after myself 

6) talking to people 

7) writing poetry 

8) writing anything really. 

these things take time to acquire and to build, but I believe you are on your path of doing some of these things and I feel by you sharing this, you are an amazing and honest, open and brave human..

@LoveMyMoonflowers

1) being a human: h m m …to say anything about that id have to be human 🤔 unfortunately i am merely an unknown number of eyes 😔😔 still, i see nothing wrong with being unhuman :p

2) being a friend: as u are my friend, i rate you as 100/10 on the good friend scale. Its very legit, trust me

3) being a student: im a “good” student and whats it worth? Not even a potato 🥔 u matter more than ur studies. Its okay to struggle with that

4) being helpful: u help me breath. Literally, sometimes. And ur help was v.v.v appreciated during my whole moving process.

5) looking after myself: aaah…most of us are, yes? I plead guilty. We can work on that

6) talking to people: see above xD

7) writing poetry: the point of poetry is literally self expression. It may seem like rubbish to you, but one mans trash is another mans treasure :p

8) writing anything really: you wrote this pretty clearly :p

I could go on and on and on and on, and maybe ud fall alseep by how boring i get 😴 but the point is, ur comparing urself to some invisible standard that A. Either people dont achieve B. They achieve and hate it or C. They pretend to achieve and very very rarely will u find a genuine D. They achieve and are satisfied.

Sometimes u need to take a break from striving to be better, and focus on just not getting worse. Sometimes you gotta be neutral. You need to park the car sometimes, refuel. You keep it driving too long ur going to run out of fuel. Our brains dont know how to look out for us. They call us useless. Mean. Worthless. Look at ur brain like 4yr old kids who dont want to sleep. Soooo annoying. But theyre just tired cranky kids who want more play time, so they call u mean and boring. Dont believe the kids, they dont mean it. Try not to believe ur brain in times like this either frnd. Its just a cranky lil kid that doesnt know any better and needs to rest 💕

@LoveMyMoonflowers your a good friend to me ❤ and ok if your not great at being a human then you can come and join me 👽you'll fit right in ❤❤ also now I know your great at writing poems, you have a real talent there

@LoveMyMoonflowers your always kind and helpful to everyone here ❤ especially me ❤❤ know let's list things that make you, you ❤

1) wisdom beyond your years

2) empathetic

3) cute and sweet

4) fun to be around

5) open to new ideas, and learning

6) supportive and always kind

7) a friendly person, who's easy to get along with

8) gives out great hugs

Hi @LoveMyMoonflowers we don’t know each other, but I’ve seen some of your writings. I wondered if you might be a little like me in some ways.

Do you find when people write kind things to you here, even though you appreciate them, part of you doesn’t believe them? But you don’t always want to say that directly and risk hurting their feelings? Maybe part of you wants to believe them, but you tell yourself that these friends here don’t know the “real” you? Maybe part of you really does want to love yourself deep down, but you can’t help but be reminded of the people around you in your everyday life who aren’t being very nice to you? Maybe you feel like if people here were around you everyday too they wouldn’t like you anymore?

I’m sorry if any of this is presumptuous. I read some of your posts, and it keeps making me think of thoughts I’ve had (and why). If I can offer something I’ve thought about:

There’s something about being face-to-face that makes most people wear a mask. They don’t like being vulnerable. They act tough and treat people in ways that maybe doesn’t even reflect their true feelings. The world is about survival, a mindset of get them before they get you and you’ll feel better about yourself if you put them down. But not everyone is like that, and it’s us who don’t feel like we fit in because we’re on the receiving end of those people’s motivations. Online, masks seem to come down a little. Maybe because we don’t have to see the other person roll their eyes at us, maybe we’re anonymous and no one has our historical list of flaws in front of them. But even online, we are still people. We can still get hurt. Maybe even more confusingly so because we open ourselves up here more than ever. Maybe we are misunderstanding something, or maybe somebody really does take a jab at us for whatever reason. 

I hope you’ll consider that your friends here really are telling you the truth. They know what they’re talking about, because they’re seeing your deepest self here every day. They probably know you better than your family. They see your feelings, your words, and your actions to others. It makes them feel good to talk with you and help you when you need it most.

I’m speaking to myself, you, and so many here when I say that maybe we all need to take the negativity of humanity with a grain of salt. We want to be understanding of everyone, and so we end up hating ourselves instead, but let’s just call it what it is. Some people are just mean and don’t have our best interests at heart. They don’t spend time thinking about how they hurt us. We shouldn’t spend our precious selves holding onto it either. I wish you well friend.