No energy
Hi everyone. Thank you for your time.
I'm sorry, my words might confuse you as they confuse me too.
I don't know what's going on anymore. Imagination, feeling, real or just a phase. I'm running low on energy both mentally and physically. Being lazy all day, lost even 10 min focus for work.
From, I don't know, 2 years? I've been going through episodes of feeling down and energetic. I'm overthinking, or imagining don't know. My energy levels mentally suddenly go high and suddenly go very down. I've been not able to complete a single work before last minute from a couple of months. I'm unable to read, exercise, or just live. My mind is heavy but feels empty too.
Today I woke up at 7:30am, been awake till 11:50am, didn't even brush my teeth in between. Slept again at 12:00pm, and woke up at 02:40pm.. I feel really tired even after sleeping, I had to push myself so hard to clean my room, brush my teeth and to even have something to eat.
I want to read, I want to ace my classes, I want to atleast be able to study for an hour.. I've been trying, trying, from a very long time... I sleep every night with regret. Wake up feeling really tired.
There's no one I can talk to about this... My parents, they've been scolding me very badly for my grades, calling me worthless, disgust, and what not.. Not a single friend with whom I can talk to.
Im trying, i'm trying to make my life better honestly.. I even tried taking small steps first without trying to do everything at once, it also failed, I keep trying, still...
I want to end everything for good. I'm even useless at this point. But I want to continue... Atleast with a hope that I can do something about me...
@amusingPlum9707 Thank You. I wanted to hear this..
Today I woke up, cleaned my room and will freshen up in a short time.. I'm trying.
Thank you for lending your support, I'll definitely reach out.
Reach out my friend. Please reach out. I cannot describe how valuable your life is. Be ayse uts more valuable than words.
Please reach out. And know that... you writing this is you taking a step. Because you ARE doing something.
Not doing some things such as work doesn't mean you failed.
You said you dotn have energy. Its NOT your fault.
You need energy then. You are not a lazy person. You jsut lack fuel.
You are valuable more than any job or work in the world or achievement.
You are one in 8 billions.
In 8 billions there is only one of you.do you know how rare thya ? 1 IN 8 BILLIONS!
If you leave NOTHING AND NO ONE will be able to replace the awesome you have.
Please reach out. And dont blame yourself fir not having energy. And try to find your energy.
Proud of you for cleaning your room up. You are such a good and clean person. You just needed some care.
Really proud of you!
@MusicalTones6275 I don't know how much I wanted to hear these words.. Thank You a lot!
I'm trying, pushing, and doing everything I can.. Before few days, I was only mentally tired, now from the day I posted this, I've been feeling physically tired too.
I don't know how to even describe what I'm going through. Everything I've learnt so far is just vanished.
I will reach out. It's just you know the inner voice sometimes says "Why to make such a fuss about this? You'll be fine in no time" and sometime it says "I think it's getting serious, you need to watch out"
So, that's what my mind is going through right now and I've been trying to avoid negativity as much as I can but how do I tell which one is negative in these two voices?
It's really a hard time to go through.
@amusingPlum9707 Thank You! It means a lot... Yes, maybe those two voices are extreme..
I need to find balance.. I will try.
Hey hey its okay. Its all going to be okay.
I know man I know.
You try you push you do the right thing. The right thing but... you are just tired... so tired. As if doing the right thing isn't what you needed... but maybe something else... or someone else.
Hey dont be scared if pain turned physical. There is no shame or danger in that. Your mind and body are connected. If one is hurting... the other will soon. It just means thay you need help that you need care and you need to help yourself.
Maybe it wasn't about making mom proud or getting better grades (unless you truly want and need grades) maybe it was abour your safety...your comfort...and your healing from all this pushing and pushing yourself yo the absolute maximum.
You need rest... care and safety. Above everything else.
And it undesirable. I know. I really know. You have been hurt and exhausted so much that you cant name it. Its just there... hurting you blocking you but you just cant name it. And thay is okay... its okay to feel it qnd heal it without having "the right words" for it.
Don't worry about losing what you learned... its okay. Dont stress yourself even more. Just take a deep breath right now.
Inhale.... 1.... 2.... 3... 4...
hold.... 1..... 2..... 3... 3... .
exhale... 1.... 2.... 3.... 4....
well done. Very very well done.
You what? Things can be relearnt. No matter how hard they were. but if you leave us... physically or mentally... you cant come back.
There us one and only one of you in this 8 billion world. And we must not lose you.
Thay voice is shame. Shame others put inside you. Its not a voice. Its THEIR voices. Mean harmful voices.
You matter man you truly matter. If you can then reach out. Do it even if once failed and you didn't find the right support.
You matter do you know how rare you are ? 8 in s billion.
Yoi are rarer than ANY football trick/goal in the entire history.
Dont let people devalue. You matter and you must say thay you are hurting out loud. So you can get help.
Dont let bad people make you smaller. Know that they are scared of what you could become and achieve if you break free from their voices.
It is really hard yes I know but I woudl sit here an talk if I knew you couldn't be harder.
You ARE harder man! Harder than this life and allllll of its battles. Of your family your friends your study your social life all of it. You can beat allll your problems because you are simply way too strong.
I know you can do it... i know you can.
JUST DO IT!
I believe in you and in your beautifully shapes heart and soul.
@MusicalTones6275 Honestly, from the bottom of my ❤ Thank Youu so much
Yea, tired. Just tired. Don't know because of pain, guilt, societal expectations, or something else.. But I know I'm tired. Maybe I was trying to find myself in wrong things or wrong people.
Thank you. When someone is going through this, though they know, they forget that mind and body are connected and the other ones hurts when one is hurting. Yes, it's a sign that I need help and I need to put self-care above all at this point.
Maybe.. I'm still on my way to find it.. To find what I truly want.
I need rest, care and safety for now.. I'm doing what I can taking things at my current pace.
Thank You, I didn't know I wanted to hear this.. Yes, I don't need to name anything nor try to find what has hurt me.. But from now on, I need to engage in myself, taking care and putting other's thoughts above mine.
It's just, forgetting everything I have learnt makes me feel mixed. I feel good that I can learn for myself again, but at the same time the sight of re-learning everything from scratch is making me feel really horrible..
Inhaling.. 1... 2.... 3... 4
Exhaling.. 1... 2.... 3... 4
Inhaling.. 1... 2.... 3... 4.
Exhaling.. 1.. 2.... 3.... 4..
You know, sometimes inside all this chaos, people forget to properly breathe.. Thanks to you, I feel a bit better now.
Yes, things can be relearnt and I can do it..
Right, the voice is the shame of people, perhaps might be their own fears.. It doesn't matter now anyway.. Thank you for reminding me this
Failing is not the end, in fact it's the foundation of something bigger.
I hope I can stop thinking about others and focus on myself.. I will try, you know what. I can do it!
Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for your time. Thank you for your reminders.
And above all thank you for staying here with me 💖🤗
You are very welcome!
I see you shinging and gaing your light and smile again.
Go ahead. Go ahead and take care of yourself.
I am happy that I could help you.
You deserve someone to be with tou in the toughest times.
@amicableField8118
I truly feel you. Don't lose your hope. I assume you didn't do anything exceptional for a long time so you feel such emotions right? Maybe you are in a loop. But it's okay to feel that way. You may suddenly want to do everything to change your life but when you try to do it you feel boring and that work doesn't seem that exciting as it was in your head when you are imagining at night before going to sleep. Maybe you feel that way, right? It will get better I promise. Take your time slowly.
@calmFish43 Thank You. Honestly even I don't know what's going on.
I'm trying, still getting stuck. But no use of giving up tho. So, gonna keep going no matter what
Thank you for showing up :)
I am sure you can do great things in life and make your friends and family proud. There is no doubt about your capability. This is a hurdle you will overcome. Have you checked your screen time ?
@HappyAccident4286 Thank You. I don't know if I can make my mom proud. But trying is better than giving up..
My Screen time is 6-7 hours per day.
Hey man . Life can be crazy sometimes. I'm going through exactly what you are going through. I'm just here to tell you that you're not alone out there. Posting this is a great win . Every small action is actually a great win.I was exactly where have you been . Mentally drained, And physically broken. It was frustrating I always felt ashamed of myself. Seeing myself doing what I don't want to do hurt more than anything else. So take it easy on yourself. Youa re a human . You deserve to fuel up then go. Whatever drains your fuel , cut it. Have you actually checked your screen time ? One of the greatest things that drains the energy is actually the phone.
I wish the best for you.
@Sycho Thank you for sharing your part too..
Yes, I do think screen-time is the biggest effecting factor... Thank you, I'll try to reduce it and engage more in self-care activities :)
Hope you go through this soon 💖
I hope you choose to stay. Depression is real and is not laziness. I do not want to give unsolicited advice so I will keep it brief have physical causes of exhaustion ruled out first. So many things can cause exhaustion like you are describing. A couple examples are low functioning thyroid, chronic fatigue syndrome, anemia, etc.
@creativePenguin5558 Thank You.. I will not give up so easily. Just this laziness, brain fog and other issues are making me feel terrible. I'll look up at the examples you provided so that I can find right support system.
Thank You :)
You are welcome. Also, some mental health medications can result in some of your symptoms called hyponeutremia (low sodium) which I have had twice in taking Duloxetine. Fairly rare but does happen. Good luck and I hope you find great answers with great solutions soon. If not, just know we are here at 7cups, you matter, and we care.
@creativePenguin5558 Thank you for your time 💖
It definitely helps me.. I'll update if possible.
Hello and thank you for writing,
As the others mentioned too, please reach out, its important to have proper professional help, me personally have reached out when i have had my problems with anxiety. Also if you would like to talk here there are many listeners who can listen to you
As about you feeling useless, i can say that you are one of the strongest people. Fighting your own demons and still trying, going down and still getting up, please believe me its one of the toughest things and you should be proud of yourself to have this resilience and that you want to get better.
Regarding the words that you said that dont feel valuable and you need to do this or that to feel like this in the future. My friend, you are valuable now, you dont need to do something to be valuable, value does not reside only in what you do but in who you are. And you are a human being fighting one of the toughest battles and still trying to improve and get better
Please, congratulate yourself even in small things that you do, you know its not easy and you still do it and dont compare yourself or listen to others who do this kind of comparisions, they are not going through what you are going through and you have a different life.
Sometimes its important to do little steps, even when you dont want it, try to do that 5 minutes cleaning or exercise, because by doing it will become easier to be done next time.
I can only wish you the best, and if you need a listener and a friend to talk too, this place is full of great people
You are valuable and keep going because things will slowly but surelly will get better
@Jamie9191 I've connected with a listener for the time being. If I still feel like this, I'll find a way to reach out to a therapist as my parents see mentally unhealthy as mentally challenged.
Thank you. It is indeed one of the toughest time... I hope I can get well soon. I'm trying for that.
Yes, I'm learning what actually being valuable mean. I grew up in an environment where being valuable has a different meaning. Thank God, I'm not going down the same path.
I do agree. Thanks for reminding me not to compare myself, especially in my current state with others. I'll keep in mind when I have comparison thoughts.
I don't have energy to exercise. But I should say that cleaning my house is the biggest exercise for me right now. Honestly, I find it harder the more I do.. But I'm doing anyways.
Thank You. I wish only the best for you too.. My current listener is really supportive. If I see no progress, I'll try to reach out to a therapist.
I do hope things will only get better as I see no trace of it.
Thank you for your valuable time.
Have a great day :)💖
@amicableField8118
hi and I really appreciate you for being courageous and sharing how you feel here in this post❤️
As the other people have mentioned in the above replies, please reach out, and connect to professional help as well as listeners here on the 7 cups community. It's really important to socially connect and share your feelings as that can help alleviate your difficult situation. Plus professional help gives people the best guidance! ☺️
It's completely understandable to feel useless but I can say that you are one of the most resilient people. Being able to continue to try and to be able to still getting up says a lot about who you are as a person, your mindset and who you want to become ❤️ I'm really proud of you for keeping this resilience and you should be too!
You are so valuable and loved !! ❤️ To be honest I think value does not originate only in what you do as actions but also in who you are, and who you want to become. You are a human being, and you are still trying to improve and get better. That's really powerful and courageous! You truly care about yourself because you want to improve.
Please remember that if you need a listener or a friends or just someone to share for a moment in how you feel, this community place is full of great listeners and people who want to give you their time so that they can help you feel more healed on your journey ☺️
You are valuable and loved, keep going! Things will be okay and keep fighting! The resilience is there!
@ArtisticAngel999 Thank You sooo much!
I've connected with a listener.. I'm still uncertain about how I feel.. But I need someone to just listen..
There has been no progress yet.. But still pushing. Hope things go well for me.
Thank You
@amicableField8118 I totally understand the overwhelm. We expect, even unconsciously, to be understood by our parents and loved ones. But I realized that our experiences are very unique to ourselves and not everyone can understand it as much as we do.
... So, from that, we are our best potential support. I had a whole well of sadness inside me like a pit, nobody understood it. Not my mother, not therapists or psychologists. Even helpline. So I realized I could only understand how it is myself. And courage, be kind and urge myself gently forward. Listening to people, or criticism does not make any good. Because they are not, you. They dont feel the tire you feel, they dont feel exhausted. Focusing on ourselves to be friendly towards ourselves is way to go, treating myself harshly really did not get me anywhere. 🫧
@needhelpwithOCD Thank You. I can feel you.
I know that our experiences are unique to us, and no one can understand. But when lots of mental stuff is going on, which effects us physically we forget about it. I forget about it.
I'm sorry you are going through that. I'm really glad you shared this with me. Sometimes sharing lifts the burden just a little bit, and that's why I posted. I'm happy that you are now on good terms with yourself understanding about you more.
I'm also trying, slowly. Sure, it takes time..
@amicableField8118 I’m here. I don’t know how but I’m present. This feels familiar. You are never useless. Your words made me interested and curious to see when your path brightens. Please share more and never stop. You have purpose to me right now. Please stay.
@raspberryFig676 Thank you for being here.
I'm not doing well nor bad for now. Just started with baby steps. I hope I can keep up.
I'll definitely keep things updated about how my health is going on. Thank You for your kind words.