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I'm so stressed out. My mom just died and I have five nine hour shifts at work that I can't miss and none of my friends are here for me when I need them the most

Recently finished my studies, waiting for graduation. Starting to look for a job, and I've kinda "shortlisted" some, but I'm not really sure why I'm so nervous and scared about sending in my application..

I was sexually abused as a child by my cousin. In 2014 i went to the police about it. Gave a video statement etc. Heard nothing since..

My gran has dementia. She can be a lot to handle but it's going okay. My aunty was my grans main carer until April, when my aunty was diagnosed with cancer, its terminal. She's in hospital now, almost at the end of the road.

I have endometriosis and i have another operation for it coming up, which is a pain in the ass as im trying to care for my gran inbetween work.

Last Friday i got a call from the police about my case. They have all the evidence they can get and it looks like it might be going to court.

I went to see my aunty on Sunday. Theres no life left in her, shes too weak to get out of bed, move her arms or even talk. It's heartbreaking to see.

And during all this i moved in with my boyfriend and his friend. Turns out my boyfriend was a mojor dick so broke up with him, and i'm living with him until about December..and he's now harassing me with gifts to try and get me back.

fml.

Narcissistic sister is carrying on the family Legacy of abuse and chaos. She's currently spreading lies and playing victim on social media. She uses things like depression and self-harm as a way to control people through guilt as I have tried to help her in the past and she refuses any personal or professional help. Now I have concerned people believing that she is this poor helpless person and they have been coming up to me in my personal life and asking what the deal is. I feel like I've had more than my fair share of abuse and yet now that Mom is deceased and Dad isn't drinking anymore my sister decides to pick up the torch and carry it. And basically any attempt to limit contact with her or tell her what I really think just ends up with me being teamed up on and I lose every time. I feel like I am trapped by my own family even though I don't even live with them. Just yesterday I found a message from a young lady on my social media asking me to talk with her about my sister. She was concerned for her. I feel like it's putting me in the same position I was in in childhood. I'm the one who always has to handle there crazy and bear the brunt of it. I feel like I'm trapped. I really do try to practice self help and I love the little life my husband and I have created but my family is sucking the life out of me. Yeah, it's real fun.

I'm having a relapse in my eating disorder. I'll have to wait a couple of months until I can get help since they're short on caregivers. I also Will have to go through some tests before it gets decided. I'm scared, ashamed of myself and time just seem so slow.

Last night I kicked out my boyfriend who has been carrying on a friendship with a female that I wasn't feeling okay with. He would constantly call her talk to her or be on the computer and talk to her or go and visit her and supposably she's married. I lost my mind last night and kicked him out. I still love him but I feel like I'm the only one that gives a crap about this relationship. Now I feel guilty for kicking him out because he really does not have a place to go. Plus I pushed him in the process. Two months ago we were talking about marriage and now this.

I was diagnosed with sleep apnea, I don't have my machine yet, but I keep gagging and gasping in my sleep. It scares me to sleep.

Brutal weekend for me, my marriage broke up 2 years ago, he became homeless... I had to fight for my children and figure how to support myself and them without help.(we had been very rich at one point) I had to fight for my 3 kids. Since then my daughter ended up in hospital from her own issues and now she's better. But now my 2 oldest have left home. It's a lot more complicated than this but, I struggle with feelings of loneliness and rejection and feeling like the future is just one big abyss of loneliness and boredom and dissapointment in anyone i choose to love. I feel like my past is too messed up to ever share with anyone completely and did I mention that I'm almost 40. Feeling old:(

I'm being psychologically abused today, and I wonder: am I feeling it or is it just denial? I feel like I'm a bomb waiting for the right pressure to explode..

I feel like everyday it gets harder and harder to move and not get angry or cry and be depressed