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FH:4
Don't take everything so seriously :)
Don't take everything so seriously :)
I am learning to accept things.
*Am rejoicing more n more in my
Aloneness.
*Accepting people as they are.
*Working on Self-care.
@GlenM
I have to listen to myself....
part of my behaviour today might be due to the attachement I had in my childhood/youth, but I might be able to change that
@GlenM
Good Morning 7 Cuppers!
Cup #598! I am learning to be grateful, soooooooooo grateful. Thank you for this program. I am so grateful for this 7 cups each day I am reminded of how to be grateful.
I think I am ready to say that I have not been grateful for some of the things that I had or had received. You will all beat me up about this but I will have to say it and then I can get it out of my system.
I was not grateful for my engagement ring. I didn't like the setting. I asked for a different setting but he bought something else. I wanted a setting like my daughters so that we could connect in that way. I didn't like the store he bought it from. I didn't like the type of ring. I didn't like all the flaws in the ring. I even took it to be check out as a diamond. The jeweler said I should be grateful he gave me a ring. I remember that til this day. He bought himself top of the line things but not the same for me and I think that was what angered me.
I never told him how I disliked the ring. We got angry with one another, I gave it to the goodwill. The lady at the goodwill said if he treats you like this again, we are going to spank him! :-)
When we got angry at one another again I sent it back to him. He brought it back and apolized on one knee and proposed again.
The last time I sent it back to him, it got lost in the mail because he didn't find the time to go pick it up.
The ring scratched me and it was not the color metal that I wanted either.
Ok. I think you get my drift. I was not happy with it and it caused me great angst.
Should I be grateful about the ring or should I have been? Hummmm. I am thinking I should have been a more honest with him. But it is too late now. We are facing dissolution because of all of the other things that happened in our 15 month marriage.
Please don't say too many bad things about me. I am just able to reveal this now.
Best to all.......
@loyalDay5445,
Good Morning 7 Cuppers!
What I didn't say at the end of this long letter was how sorry I am for not being grateful. I let the bad times cloud the good times of the engagement. There were many aweful times, in my view. So I don't really know how to leave that part out of this message. I do know that I had some part in all of this.
So, I am saying to the Universe, I am so sorry that I was not grateful. I would not do that again. I am forgiving myself for these actions with the ring. I am going to be more grateful in the future. I will speak out if something like this is bothering me. I am sorry that I hurt my partner during time. I am asking his forgiveness via the Universe and I forgive him. I will say what I want and hold myself accountable for my actions toward others.
This is what I have learned--to be grateful in all things-- and today I forgive myself.
Best.......
I am learning how to handle my depression.
I am doing more mindful exercises.
I am learning how to kkeep calm.