I want to let go but I can't
Since early 2014, I have been hurt because I was betrayed and deeply hurt by someone I wasn't compatible with. She told me about a year and a half later that she faked a friendship with me for her interests. She also admitted that the friendship was one complete lie and that she everything I knew about her was a complete lie. Since then, she's shown me her true color by revealing that she hates me and thinks she's better than me and stone walls me now.
Though I appreciate her coming forward and admitting what she did, I don't think she fully realizes that lying like that is very serious and have long-term consequences as. Rather, she seems to think she can still skip through a rose garden as if nothing happened.
I wish I could just let it go but I feel like some serious and traumatic damage was done because I have felt nothing but anger and hurt toward this person. Though I would love to just move while I am forgiving them, I cannot be around this person without feeling serious discontent toward her. Therefore, I make every effort to ignore her.
While I am starting to reach a point that I will eventually forget about her and the nasty things she did, there are others where I still feel haunted by the past and how she treated me.
@Summershy im so sorry you went through this. i went through something similar where i trusted this friend for over 20 years and last year she told me on the phone that mentally she had stopped being my friend within 10 years of the relationship. Imagine that, but she never said anything out loud to me until then
@Cisumusic
Though it's been a minute, my ex-friend said that she had been a people pleaser all her life and was always trying to be someone she wasn't. Therefore, it wasn't worth it for her to associate with me anymore. However, she didn't tell me this until I confronted her in an email which was several months after she dumped me and I didn't know what she was getting at. It wasn't until we met nearly a year later that she explained to me that the friendship was one complete lie. Since then, she hasn't been very nice.
In the mean time, the grief and hurt seem to come in waves for me where sometimes, I have appeared to let her go. While there are other times when I am haunted by the nasty stunts she would pull on me within that fake friendship.
@Cisumusic
I should also add that your friend sounded like she was fake but was too embarrassed to tell you but kept up the charade. While that must have been hurtful, it sounds like it was all for the best because you don't need someone like that in your life.