My son Joshua ❤
He will be 13 at the end of next month. I bought him a skateboard, I don't really know what present a 13 year old boy would want, I hope he likes it.
I wonder what he looks like? I can still see his sweet little baby face, his tiny fingers and toes.
I wonder what he sounds like? I bet his voice is soft and sweet. I still hear, his cries
I wonder what he likes to do? I bet he's creative, and possibly sporty
I wonder what he thinks of me? I bet he hates me, for letting them take his life
His life was taken to early. I failed him. I really wish I could hug him just one more time, try to explain myself to him. Though i think words would fail me, how does someone explain that they failed to protect him, failed to save him😞
@Tinywhisper11 *hugs you tight*❤️ I think he'll love it! I think he would love anything you got him because of the love and thought you put into his gifts. I think he knows how hard you tried for him even though you were just small yourself. If he hates anyone Tiny it would be the people who took him from you. ❤️❤️
@mytwistedsoul 🙂 I hope so, I hope he loves me. But I carry a lot of guilt, he's 13 I'm not sure if he would understand at such a young age. I just realised he's 2 years older than when I had him now. The world is a strange place sometimes.
I love you soul ❤ thankyou
@Tinywhisper11 It's hard not to carry guilt for the things we think we should have done 😞 I think he understands and he loves you all the more for it. He'd be proud of you for all you've endured and survived. He would be proud of the person you've become and all the love you bring to others ❤️
I struggle with thoughts of god but in times like this I like to imagine that there's a heaven and he's up there smiling down on you and waiting for the day that you'll be together again ❤️
@mytwistedsoul he is in heaven ❤ he's a angel now, being looked after really well ❤ I can't wait to meet him there oneday. Thanks soul, your the sweetest ❤
@Tinywhisper11
So Sad, So lovely ((((((Hugs, Hugs and more Warm Comfoting Hugs))))))
He will love the skate board! You Better send some band aids too. 😂 Much Love! 💖
@IsayUncle oh dear 😂😂 I forgot to get him padding😁 thanks uncle hugs you back ❤
@Tinywhisper11 *hugs if okay* hes gonna love that skateboard 🩷
@unassumingEyes you think so, it's black with like graffiti art on the bottom. I'm sure he will love it to ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11 as a certified teen with 13year old cousins, and as someone who knows how loving you are and how much he must love you and anything you give, im definitely sure he loves it
@unassumingEyes 🙂❤ thank you ❤ thankyou so much ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I’m so sorry this happened. But it’s not your fault. If anyone should be blamed/faulted, it’s those who took him away from this world too early. You didn’t fail him.
As for the skateboard, he would have loved it. I don’t see why he wouldn’t.
And no he does not hate you. I’m more than sure he’d hug you if he saw you. I’m so sure of that I’ll bet my life on it :)
if you ever wanna talk about anything, please reach out to me or lmk and we can talk. I’m here for you. Hugs and ❤️❤️❤️
@akunknown I'd give anything to hug him again ❤ thank you for your message, it really means a lot to me ❤ your message actually made me cry, but happy tears, I cried because what you said was very sweet so kind. ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Believe me I know that feeling of giving anything to hug/be with someone that’s you can’t be with anymore.
I lost someone really close to me too 10 years ago. He was taken away when he deserved so much better than that.
A year later someone else I lost someone else I was close with but it was a peaceful exit and Mother Time called for her bc it was just her time to go. I just never got the chance to say goodbye before she left forever. That’s the only thing that bothered me about it.
It’s difficult to deal with someone’s death especially depending on how close you were with them, how good your relationship was with them, but I believe one of the things that makes it most difficult is you can’t say goodbye and hug them before they pass away bc you don’t know when that’ll happen.
I mean there’s no knowledge or any information or you getting informed that (person’s name) will pass away on (this date at this time) Say everything you need to say to him/her and hug them on that date before that time bc it’s the last time you’ll be able to say anything to them and give them a hug.
@akunknown sorry for your losses😥 I can't really say much on the forums, but they took his life, right in front of me. I can see still see the pain in his tiny face, hear his screams.😞
@Tinywhisper11
Ooh, a skateboard is a great gift, I'm sure he would love it!
I have to say, though, that I saw a kid today, who looked to be about 13, and he was riding a really fast electric skateboard thing. Yikes. I wouldn't have the nerve for that, but then again, I'm not 13.
As someone else said, band aids are a good add-on gift, lol!
You have a knack for art, so I'd guess he would have some of his mama's art abilities. Sporty and creative sounds like a totally cool combination.
I know you talk to Joshua all the time, so he knows exactly how much you love him and care about him. At 13, Angel Joshua is old enough to know that the entire situation was out of your control and he doesn't blame you. He just loves you right back and says "Cool skateboard, see ya later!" and off he goes, zooming around like a kid who knows that anything and everything is possible.
@DancingSongbird579 ❤🙂❤ thankyou for always being so kind and supportive to me, your a really great friend ❤ electric skateboard sounds dangerous😂😂 actually all skateboards are dangerous😂😂. I'm sure Joshua would jump straight on and master all the tricks within days ❤❤
He doesn’t hate you, hon <3 He’s with Jesus now. He’s infinitely happier and more loved than we are right now <3 Please believe that <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I hope so ❤❤ I know he's happy in heaven and safe ❤ just wish things were different
You did the best you could. <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 ❤❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
a big hug for you and I bet he's gonna love that skateboard also ill fulfil my promise to write a poem for him on his birthday may God bless him and you with all the happiness and joy 🤍✨
@tranquilechoes hi, thanks sweetie ❤ how are you doing lately?? A poem would be very sweet, but I know your struggling, so don't worry to much. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤squeezes you tightly
@Tinywhisper11
I am doing good and no it is not stressful id love to write one for him thats the least I can do for an angel 🤍✨
@tranquilechoes your an angel too ❤ a earth angel😇 thankyou ❤ I'm glad your doing ok. I miss you around here ❤
it’s not your fault beautiful , i know your thinking that it’s your fault i bet he loves you. no matter what a parent thinks their child thinks of this we will always love our parents 💕 happy birthday to him !
@ZSilly ❤🙂❤ thankyou, I really hope he does love me ❤ I love him very much ❤
guilt is a nightmare thing when it comes to death, especially our children, the guilt of not knowing and the guilt of all the possible what ifs that come with the loss, it's almost like a Rollercoaster that you can't get off of, my boy would be 9, 10 in February, it sucks so much of the what ifs. u protected him in a different way it sounds like
@angelmommy15 maybe our boys are friends in heaven ❤ bad people took his life, and I couldn't stop it, I couldn't protect him. It's very hard 😞
maybe your boy showed mine all around heaven, if that's something u believe in, I didn't, I still don't fully, I think that tears me the most. I'm sorry about your son though, what's his name ?
@angelmommy15 his name is Joshua ❤ I do believe in heaven,and angels. Although I don't class myself as any particular religion. If it is true, I'm sure my boy is taking care of your boy, playing happily together ❤ what's your sons name?
linkyn Dexter ð¥°
@angelmommy15 that's a great name ❤
thank you, I bet he's going really fast and doing so many tricks to give u a heart attack right now, lol, ah teenagers. it sounds like an amazing gift.
@angelmommy15 do you do anything on your sons birthday?
I make him a birthday cake, amd put his age on it that he would be. and sometimes I buy him a present that consists of a turtle of some sort or something like that. Xmas I do the giving tree sometimes, if I can afford it, I pick out the age he would be that year if I'm able to do it. i also only pick a boy as well :) sometimes I light a candle for him as well. but 9 years is along time :(
@angelmommy15 yep! 9 years is a long time😥 but the pain never gets easier😞 last year I wrote a poem for Joshua, and I attached it to a balloon and let it float up to heaven 🙂 I plan to do that this year too ❤
aww. that sounds amazing ð¥°
@Tinywhisper11 I skateboarded at that age so its a perfect gift :)
@genericbeing 🙂❤ thats great, then he should like it ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Yes :) :)
