Allies diary ( open to all )
Everyone in the chats HATES ME
well then why don't they like me
I can't be that bad
@sunshinegiraffe123. They don't hate you they just don't understand
@Wolf2903
im not sure
@sunshinegiraffe123
why do you think everyone in the chatroom hates you ?
@jennysunrise8
Things happened in the room ( 1-1 me if we can )
Hey at least not everyone knows where this is
Hey at least people who do actually like you
Hey just calm down and relax
hey it's over now
hey you can get Jenny
hey just calm down for a few
@sunshinegiraffe123
princess your okay
If ur gonna breakdown
say it
If u feel like crying
cry
If u feel like ur gonna explode
just keep trying
@sunshinegiraffe123
princess your okay
Friday 11/15
Tired of the changes !
All these helpful mods
all the helpful nice understanding listeners
all the ACTUALLY HELPFUL rooms
All the nice members or well most of them
ARE GONE
STOP CHANGING THINGS WITHOUT WARNIN US
I DON'T LIKE IT
@sunshinegiraffe123
im leaving I'm sorry here's my insta (offsite contact link removed by Hope)
No
@sunshinegiraffe123
princess here's my email
(offsite contact link removed by Hope)
email me bc I have to leave 7 cups
@sunshinegiraffe123
im sorry your friend left sun you can message me if you feel like it
@jennysunrise8
yes
How come normal not on the spectrum people dont get told to mute everyone in the room when they arent supportive but the minute I say Im on the spectrum and some things are hard for me , I get told to mute everyone in the room
@sunshinegiraffe123 Hey Allie - I'm sorry this happens to you. It's hard feeling different and knowing people don't understand or they're just insensitive. I've noticed alot of people say they care but the things they do say otherwise.
@mytwistedsoul
it just bothers me because according to ada I'm supposed to get the same opportunity as everyone else on here but I don't
@sunshinegiraffe123 You're allowed to be bothered by it Allie. It isn't fair. It shouldn't matter what our issues are - we should all be treated with dignity and respect. I wonder if there is a way to get another room opened for people with autisim?
@mytwistedsoul
we could ask around I like idea
@sunshinegiraffe123 I remember seeing a thread around here somewhere that people were asking about rooms. I'll have to see if I can find it. It might be something that they can only have open certain times because of the mod thing.
@mytwistedsoul
yeah..
@sunshinegiraffe123
thats a great idea having a chatroom for people with autism that can help a lot of people here i think i dont see why it cant be a popup chatroom when there is a mod available (i dont see why any specialized chatroom shouldnt exist if there is a mod willing to be there) your other posts about it might get deleted because there is a rule about no duplicate posts so if its an exact duplicate anywhere else in forums most likely all but one - left in the most appropriate place - will be deleted (or if the thread owner only wants certain things in the thread for example his/her own posts or limited to only replies related to their posts ) but dont take offense to it its not that anyone doesnt agree with the message or you personally if it happens
but i do think its a good idea and a good time to bring it up now since glen is active right now in the forums you could bring it up in his thread and maybe start a thread in the ASL forum about starting a chatroom i think a lot of people with autism would be very interested in that
@jennysunrise8
i didn't know that was a rule lol
@sunshinegiraffe123
its ok theres lots of rules too many i think but thats another issue i could go on about lol but its ok if your not aware of everything or make mistakes itll just be fixed just didnt want you to take any deleting or editing personally if it happens its just for a reson that doesnt have anything to do with you your a very sweet person and people care about you 💓
@sunshinegiraffe123
hey princess
@Wolf2903.
hi
Dear dad, are you even a dad anymore ? Dear dad, what are you? Dear dad , I cant trust you Dear dad, whyd you whisper to me on the phone that you hate me ? Dear dad , I dont want to see you for Christmas Dear dad , I know you hate me Dear dad, idk what to do anymore
Dear dad , youve made me hit my breaking point...
@sunshinegiraffe123. Aww princess I'm so sorry for what he did hugs
@Wolf2903
😭
@Vershteam1
I will not be in the rooms as I am currently muted. Is it okay to 1-1 you ? I have a concern to talk about.
@sunshinegiraffe123
huh
@Vershteam2
i wanted to say hi
So for those who read this as you can tell I'm muted again. My thoughts behind this mute was that it was unfair because I was flashbacking and unable to type. I did get a listener but it didn't stop the mute from happening.
why is it always me ?
am special just like you
I can take the things I do
And learn from them the best I can
Make a difference with who I am
You might be slow and I might be fast
We dont need to measure who is first or last
You might be smart and I may be not
So who cares about that we still have a lot
To share and to grow together well be
Friends to the end just you wait and see
I keep to myself quiet as a mouse
Quiet is good in this very big house
The noise the noise that gets too loud
If were shopping or in a big crowd
It can come from the tv or radio music
Whatever it is I can easily lose it
It bothers me everywhere and starts to hurt
In my ears and my head and Im just not sure
How to stop it but wish I could figure it out
What is this terrible noise all about
I am a happy kid most of the time
And smile at everyone I can find
If I dont understand I easily cry
Wish I could tell you I just dont know why
Sometimes when you speak
Im not sure what you say
If youre sad or youre hurt
I might not hear it that way
I like it when things are always the same
Like my food and toys and my video games
I walk on my toes and twirl round and round
It makes me feel better and helps me calm down
When you listen to a sound that you dont want to hear
You can take your own hands and cover your ears
If I were a turtle I could move my head fast
Back into my shell where its quiet at last
Sometimes when we talk I dont look in your eyes
I might just forget so dont be surprised
If I dont speak at all lets try to wait
There are other ways we can communicate
Its hard to sit still when I want to play
I start moving around in my own special way
When I get excited I can keep myself busy
By jumping and spinning even though I get dizzy
I can play with my hands and fingers all over
Its just what I do no need to take cover
When Im finally tired I do realize
Its the end of today and can just close my eyes
Things dont look the same to you and me
Where I see a forest you see a tree
I hear the wind blowing strong in the sky
You hear a breeze as it softly goes by
My smell and my taste are different than yours
So many choices thank goodness of course
heres really a lot to say about touch
Sometimes even my clothes feel too much
If I think the light is shining too bright
Or even if the noise isnt right
If it smells awful and tastes bad
And anything touching makes me mad
Its a terrible time for you and me
But it passes so quickly and soon we will see
That its over and done with and better at last
It was just a quick moment now gone in the past
Say what you say easy and clear
I only understand exactly what I hear
If I cant find the right words to answer you
Watch me carefully look at what I do
When all those words get in the way
I learn best when I see it every day
Be patient with me it does take me time
Show me again and again until my mind
Can figure it out so I can tell
That I learned what I needed and remember it well
As I grow bigger and stronger each day
I hope I can find an easier way
To say what I think and think what I feel
How great that would be a really big deal
I can do better when you think that I can
Remember to show me and show me again
I know that you love me so love me through this
I do my best and dont need to be fixed
Help me and teach me its simple as that
I need you I love you matter of fact
If I cant tell you exactly how I feel
Or act out in a way that seems unreal
Youre everything I count on every day
Do accept me and cherish my own special way.
this is from autism speaks.org
@sunshinegiraffe123
Allie these words are so meaningful and have really helped me to understand even better. I can't imagine how hard and frustrating it must be, understanding and patience is the key. Hugs honey
@Gracey
You can always learn something new , it's a matter of do those who know they don't fully understand actually read ?
@soulsings
I touch everything with my soul,
you may not see it the way I do in my parole
my voice, perception, understanding a greater sky stole
for earlier I
@sunshinegiraffe123
Another very deep and meaningful poem Allie.
This is important tp remember "I do things in my pace without your control"
@Gracey
To me I view that line as : I will do things on my own time when I am ready , not when you say or maybe even ask. No amount of reminders will have me do the things you ask if I myself am not ready to.