Payton & Celaeno's corner to chat
Hi, @Paytonfaye2003! Because I'm an adult member & you're a teen member, we can only interact through Feed and Forum, but not through every forum section - I think I created a thread somewhere where you don't have access as a teen, hence this second trial ^^ I thought it would be cool if we have dedicated space to do that. So welcome in our own corner in the forums - that way it will be easier for us to communicate. If you have any questions, just ask.
Hospital situation has to create only new stress for you, so I'm really proud of you that you keep reaching out and writing to me. It is hard for you and still you don't giving up. Please keep me updated - I'm always glad to see messages from you ❤︎
Thank you for being honest with me. I also have an eating disorder, but of a bit different kind, so I recognize your effort to eat anything to just take care of yourself. It may seem small, but you're doing your best and that's enough *hugs* Proud of you, lovely.
Getting back to a healthy weight takes time, but I believe in you. You can do it, lovely, and I and the 7 Cups community will be here to support you - we have forums about it + a helpful guide, so please take a look at it. You can find helpful resources and similar stories of struggle, which are inspiring. I can help you find some listeners, but firstly I just want to know if you can reply to this thread.
I'm everyday on 7 Cups, but I don't have a fixed time - I think I am also in a different time zone than you are (I'm from Europe) ^^; I always read all of the notifications, but sometimes I am busy or just don't have enough energy at the moment to reply, because I struggle with depression. But don't worry - I'm always replying as soon as it's possible. Hope that's okay with you.
Sending love & thinking of you ❤︎
Hello all! I'm sorry I haven't been around as much as I should have been. But I needed a time on my own. I will talk to those in need soon. But for the mean time, I need someone to listen...
Hi, @MamaBear2015, it's nice to meet you ^^; Sorry to hear that you are struggling right now, but that's okay. Everyone has a right to do that, you're not any worse, lovely. I encourage you to log in into your member account and seek support in the vast number listeners this community can offer. We're here for you.
This particular thread is the chat between me and Payton, but feel free to join us or use forums as a means of venting. Sending you best wishes!
Hi @Paytonfaye2003! Sending to you lots of hugs for this week to help you get through more difficult times! I'm thinking about you, lovely.
*hugs tightly*
@Celaeno
im getting a ride to florida march 8th... yay... i finally get to be free!!!
@Celaeno
I think its time i do something for me!!!
@Paytonfaye2003, that's a wonderful news, I'm so happy that you're happy, lovely ^^ Is it a school trip to Florida? Or are you moving there? (If you don't want to, you don't have to answer!)
All my love!
@Celaeno
Nope running away there.... getting a ride with facebook friends
@Paytonfaye2003, lovely, thank you for being honest with me. I know that you're intelligent and sensitive, and I believe you are completely aware of the weight of that decision. Running away may seem to solve your immediate problems, but it can create a whole new set of ones that sometimes are even worse. Before you take any action, please be sure to have an answer to all of these question:
- Do I have a place to stay?
- What about school? Would I continue to get an education?
- Am I going to be gone awhile or coming back in a few days?
- What would I do for money? Shelter? Food? Transportation?
- Will I be safe during running away?
- Who can I depend on if I leave my current home? Who can I count on to help me?
- Do I have a safe, solid plan?
- If I end up in trouble, who will I call?
- What is my plan B in case my first plan doesnt work?
- What have I done to make things better at my current home?
- What else can I do to improve current my home situation before I leave?
- What would make me stay at my current home?
- Who have I reached out to make things better at home?
Know that I don't advice for or against your decision, only want to support you during this difficult time, my friend. I know how hard it is for you, lovely, and I and many listeners here are for you to help you. We care for your wellbeing and this is a decision which could create threats to it. Have you talked with your listener on 7C about it?
You might really need to get out of your current living situation, I am not denying that, lovely, but that doesnt mean you have to do it alone. Instead, I encourage you to seek out youth programmes which will help you change your living.
>> For example, Safe Places are open 24/7 and they can definitely give you lots of good options to help you change your situation. Click here to read about them and to find the nearest one.
>> And if your town does not have a Safe Place program or you just want to talk about it in a confidential, private way, when no one will judge you or share your plans, reach out to the National Runaway Safeline. Their number is 1-800-RUNAWAY and the call is free, but you can also email them or post on their forum - see all the options in the green table on the left top of their website. They are also availaible 24/7 and they have a lot of resources.
Know all of your options before you act, so you can choose the best plan, lovely. Will look forward to your reply. You know you can count on me here, listening. Sending you lots of love and strength!
*hugs*
@Paytonfaye2003, you haven't reply. Is everything ok? I'm thinking of you every day, lovely.
Sending you hugs and good wishes and all of my love!
@Celaeno
Im late
@Celaeno
I am having a hard a time... life really sucks... i am going to florida, cant wait!
@Paytonfaye2003, I am really, really sorry to hear you're having a terrible time. You deserve better. I can't imagine how stressed you must feel right now. Running away to Florida is still your plan, am I correct in thinking that? Also, have you read my earlier post on that subject, lovely? What do you think about it?
*hugs*
@Celaeno
Yes i read it... im think im pregnant... been sick alot, my boobs hurt too. I am going to florida... i cant wait... im so over it
@Paytonfaye2003, lovely, you really need to go to a doctor, so the professional could rule this possibility out. Don't wait and don't worry - as soon as you will check it out and know what's happening, as soon the stress will be over.
I really, really urge you to speak about it with an adult. You have to go to a doctor. Please, my lovely friend, do it for me. Can you consider it?
*hugs*
@Celaeno
@Celaeno
i cant, u just dont understand... my parents go rid of me and I cant do it... but i know my body is different and i can feel the difference...
@Paytonfaye2003, lovely, I remember about your parents. I remember everything about your situation and I always try to keep it in my mind when brainstorming any ideas for solutions with you. Maybe I don't fully know what are you experiencing, but I know that you are brave and loving and hurt. I know that I care for you. And I don't doubt that you feel some changes in your body. I imagine it's not related to completely normal cycle of menstruation, am I right?
I am recommending to talk with some adult, because I don't think you can go to the doctor on your own. But if you can, do that, lovely. Just go to visit a professional medic. Right now I truly believe that the doctor is what you need. They will help you, lovely. At this age your body is under a lot of changes and your boobs can hurt for various reasons, but the doctor will tell you if you are pregnant or not. They will act in your best interest. They will give you peace and answer, and you need them.
I'm always on your side, lovely. I'm here for you.
*hugs tightly*
@Celaeno
Hi, how are you? Wish you were on here... I been wanting to talk to you. Just wanted to you to know that Im always thinking of you and that I am glad ur in my life... Its nice to know that I can always count on you... Just wish we talked more... HUGS
@Paytonfaye2003, I'm here, lovely. And it's incredibly kind for you to say that - I feel the same way ^^
@Paytonfaye2003, also, I'm feeling a bit tired, because I've been running around the town for some school stuff and papers. Still, I have a nice meeting with a friend over a cup of tea, so my day was really good. How was yours, lovely?
@Celaeno
I am having a hard time as always! I am hurting so bad.. I keep thinking I am better off gone... I dont know how much more I can take... I need someone to talk too, but everybody is to busy for me.. It sucks... 
@Paytonfaye2003, I'm sorry to hear you feel so lonely. Know that I'm here forr you, even if there is a distance between us. I'm thinking about you every day, so don't ever doubt that you have no one to talk to. I'm always willing to listen to you, friend.
*hugs*
By the way, are you saying that no one on 7 Cups is able to chat with you right now or do you mean people from your life?
@Celaeno
people on here! im really need someone.. can u help me find a sponser???????????? wish it could be you
@Paytonfaye2003, oh, everyone's busy? That happens unfortunately.
Sadly I can't be sponsor, but I'll always support you in here, in our little corner.
*hugs*
I understand you've filled the form to get a sponsor, right? I think there is a big shortage of a adult-teen listeners, so it may take a while. Maybe try also posting in here and answering the given questions - it won't hurt to quicken the process.
@Celaeno
i just put a bad post up!!!!!!!!!!!!
@Paytonfaye2003, no, I think you posted in the right place, lovely - in here, right?
@Celaeno
Miss you!!!!
@Celaeno
@Paytonfaye2003, I saw your post on the feed which really worried me. Are you safe, lovely?
Please don't do anything hasty. I'm here and I encourage you to connect with a crisis line, lovely, like this one. Just give yourself one more day and for now just talk with a help line. They can help you make the suicide urge to go away.
You're not alone, lovely. I'm still here.
*hugs tightly*
@Celaeno
hi, how are you? Im sorry ive been this way. Not sure whats wrong with me. I just have alot going in and im having a hard time dealing with everything. I am always acting out and its starting to get out of control... i know i talk about dieing but i dont always feel that way. Sometimes i just feel it would be easier sometimes... and all these people think im just a bad teen, i aint bad, im just have to much going o. At once that it gets to much to handle sometimes. Sorry to worry you!
@Paytonfaye2003, I completely understand that you are overwhelmed with lots of fears and troubles, lovely, and I still don't think of you any bit of less. There is nothing wrong with you! You are not a "bad teen" - you are just trying to cope with your situation the best as you can be, as much as you can. You don't have to diet, you don't have to push yourself to be a better human, lovely. You are already good, already worth loving. From now you can only do what is best for you in regard of your mental and physical health and general wellbeing. To focus on your emotional growth and expressing of feelings, of getting education to provide yourself a home.To reach out to people who you know will be helpful to your life. Don't be skinny, don't be anything less than you already are. I love you just like you are right now, with your passions and flaws and quirks.
*hugs*
I know that you lash out sometimes, because I've been the same. And it's awful - feeling like you have no control of your anger and sadness, feeling like no one understands your guilt afterwards, that no one sees that you don't really want to push people away from you. Lovely, I've been struggling with similar things and I can assure you that you can in fact learn how to manage and express your emotions better. You can learn that, you really can. And it will give you so much space and freedom and more energy to use for things you really want to do, instead of guilt. Have you read this guide?
We all make mistakes all the time, but what is the most important to me is that you are safe. You regret putting yourself in risky situation and I understand you feel guilty about it. Only today I've read about your lonely night in the park and I am so so so relieved that nothing dangerous happened to you. I'm really glad that I can chat with you again.
*hugs tightly*
Be safe for me, lovely. Please.
@Celaeno
Im trying just not getting anywhere
@Paytonfaye2003, I know that you try however this things takes time, sometimes years even. But I believe in you. No matter what will come, you can handle it and grow stronger, kinder, smarter.
*hugs*
@Celaeno
Hey its Payton, i have no idea what happened. I didnt do anything wrong and got on to check my messages and something happened to my account... I am sure there are people wondering how I am doing and i know there worried and u please let them know this is my new name until they unblock me!
@Payton2003, hi lovely, I don't know what happened either, but it looks like your account were blocked.
And now I see that the one you using right now was made in August. It's a speculation on my part, but maybe the block happened, because you had more than one member account and that's against the rules of 7 Cups...? Here's the official protocol.
I encourage you to write to community@7cups.com and just ask for clarification. It's okay, they will definitely answer you.
@Celaeno
Miss you so much!!!!!!!
@Celaeno
Friday will be a whole month without talking to you:( theres so much i have to tell you
@Paytonfaye2003, I'm really sorry about that, lovely. Unfortunately I've been sick for a pretty long time + I just started a new job in a different city which takes almost all of my time right now. It's pretty hectic for me right now, lots of changes and new situations to tackle. Also, I'm letting you know that from now on I will be log in to 7 Cups only on the weekends, so look forward to hear from me on those days.
*hugs*
My lovely, how are you feeling this week? How's your health? What's been on your mind? Let me know about everything, I'm here for you. Even if I'm here less from now on, I'm always here for you. I will always listen to you and support you. There is no doubt about it. All my love!
@Celaeno
Yesterday was an amazing night. We went to dinner and then tonight we went to the movies and watched Beauty & the Beast and we Both Laughed together. Cant tell you the last time I had a good time like this. It Deffiantly made me feel special! It was just a great time and for the first time in my life I actually was happy... I hope that this happiness doesent fade away, because Tonight I have a different out look on my life.. I Just wanted to say thanks for being there for me and it means alot... No matter how good or bad my life gets, I still want you to be apart of my life even if its on a computer screen... I have so much to be thankful for and never realized it until today... If it wasent for you I wouldnt of let loose today and enjoyed it...
I know not everyday is going to be good and Im sure I will have my ups and downs, but no matter what I still need you! I need ur support and I owe you guys so big! I couldnt do this without you! Big Hugs xoxoxoxoxo
Thanks for Believing in me!!!!!!!!!! My counsler is my foster parent. Moved in with her friday!
@Paytonfaye2003, wow, that's amazing! Congratulations, lovely, I'm so happy for you! ^^ You absolutely deserve to have a family, don't ever doubt that, lovely. I hope it will bring you the peace you seek.
*hugs*
I'm super glad that your counsellor decided to take you in. And I know that's a big step for both of you - remember that movie you sent me, Removed? That's a big change, but still I believe that you do your best to shine and grow. Let yourself stay in his place and make it your own, no mater of what setbacks you encounter. You deserve this space.
All my love!
@Celaeno
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@Celaeno
I miss you.
I really wish you were here. I miss you so Much. We were so close and you didnt even say goodbye or that you were leaving! YOUR JUST LIKE ALL THE REST
Hi @paytonfaye2005! I am back! I took a really long break, but it was a needed one. I decided to return, because I miss you guys, but right now it would be hard for me to keep the same level of involvement as three years ago. Still, I would like very much to chat with you, if it is okay with you.
From what I remember I did say goodbye and tag you and everything but it was posted on feed on my profile page. Since this feature was disabled there is no trace of it - which is kind of sad to be honest. I'd save it in a different way if I'd be a bit smarter about it ^^;
How are you doing, lovely? Are you having online schooling? What are you up to lately? Hope you are still here, and that you are doing well.
*hugs*
@Celaeno
I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!