[TW] Emo’s little emotional corner 🥲
Possible trigger warnings: death, sh
read at your own risk I guess
🥲 I know this month isn’t as bad as last month, but I still feel so awful. I know I have been sh free for 3 months but as the days go by some are getting harder and harder not to go back to old habits, UnU I wish my nana was still around. ☹️ I miss her so much 😢 ever since she passed away my mental health was never the same, it got so bad and it’s better now but my depression is terrible.. some days I feel like I’m falling deeper into the hole of depression while climbing out at the same time. 😢 and here’s me complaining about headaches when I literally do nothing about them. 🥲 what I learnt from today is try not to laugh lots with a headache as it makes it worse. I’m also sad today ☹️ I graduate high school soon and lose a whole network of irl support ☹️ so sad
Tw: swearing, talking about sh, and hospitals
Went on an adventure to the hospital today *~* I was having chest pains on and off today. And after annoying my parents so much (as they believe I am a hypochondriac..) I was finally taken to the hospital. How rude of them to stab me with a needle for a blood test *~* I also got a EKG, turns out I have a slightly crap heart beat. I’m sure the nurse seen my sh marks, and my mum kinda cracked the shits about it again at the front of the hospital ranting about why I should tell her if something is going on, like, come on, this same fucking person assumed why I was sh-ing last time. Like.. bro 😐😐😐 why would I go to you when you fucking assume and call me a hypochondriac 😐
@emotionalTalker2260
*hugs Emo* chest pain sounds worrying! Are you taking good care of yourself? (You better!❤️) Time to pay more attention to your overall health and channelize your energy in the direction that would benefit your health! What all did the doctor say you should be doing, after diagnosing you? Are you following their advice?
@VaryingCloud
😮 yes, I’m following what has been told, only headache tablet, so yayy drugs XD
@emotionalTalker2260
Good Emu! ❤️
@VaryingCloud
😀 I made the doctor laugh when i was: “cool, I have to now take drugs”
@emotionalTalker2260
Lol! xD That's Emo! Now the doc knows it too! XD❤️*hugs*
@emotionalTalker2260
*offers hugs* That sounds like such an adventure, and one to the hospital definitely sounds scary. I hope that your chest is feeling okay and that you're taking care of yourself! Spruce cares about you and hopes that everything will be a-okay! ❤️❤️❤️
@selflessSpruce1515
*hugs* 😮 rude that they stole blood though 😔
@emotionalTalker2260
I agree...that makes them vampires :')
@selflessSpruce1515
:’) poor me
@emotionalTalker2260
:') *sniffs* It's a time, but just know that they have good intentions ❤️ (That tends to bring me some comfort)
@selflessSpruce1515
(I can see how it feels comforting, Spruce, whatta nice way to see it. ❤️)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Thank you, Sun! I’m always trying to look on the bright side, even if it may not be so apparent at first ❤️
@selflessSpruce1515
Aw ofcourse, that really is wonderful and super admirable of you. Consider me inspired already. ❤
May the bright side be in your favor and nearby always. 🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Thank you so much! That really means so much ❤️❤️❤️
@emotionalTalker2260
Oh noes :( none of this is nice :( *sits with Emooo*
I'm glad you were able to visit the doctor and have taken the prescribed "drugs" (smh i did read the previous comments :P), hopefully the pain has reduced over time. Take good care of your lovely self okiee (?)
*gentle hugsss* How's Emo doing currently? ❤️
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*husg* emo is still in pain 😮 but not as bad today. Today I’m just becoming scared about the tests that are coming up and yeah, just everything about it all is scaring poor emo here
@emotionalTalker2260
Meaniee pain smh :o *keeps hugging till the pain poofs completely* it soon will, we will continue to hang in there till then, okie? ❤️
Aw what about the tests is the most scary thing? (Let's tacobout 🌮 it, so we try to shoo the scary thoughts away from our brain, is that alright?) No pressure to answer, ofcourse! ❤️
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
scary thing, is the tests down the road, I think there is going to be many blood tests, and they are awful 🥺🥺🥺 they hurt so much 🥺 Emo hates needles, me had to put my face mask over my eyes yesterday so I couldn’t see.
@emotionalTalker2260
Needles are truly awful, I don't like them either, needles and tests are pro at making one feel anxious, Emo is not alone though --- it is not a nice feeling for anyone, the fear and anxiety is valid. :(
But but, it is important for them to run tests on us so they can assess what we need and how to get better soon --- getting better is the goal, right? Yes or Yes.
We can ofcourse try to calm our nerves when they are "stealing" our blood, some people like to listen to music, some try to count numbers (in their mind ofcourse), some use a squeeze toy or plushiee to hold during it and Emo did something good too --- not looking at the nurse sure is helpful, i feel. What else can help feel calmer? ❤️
Perhaps a self reassurance and repeating to thyself "It's only a matter of few seconds, I'll be safe and okay really soon."
Emo will be more than okayyy vvv soon, gotta brave through it, being the strong EmoSelf that Emo is. We got thisss, we sooo got thiss. ❤️ More *hugss*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs sun* I think, sun gives one of the best pep talks even though thats not the goal *is feeling vvv reassured* *hugs sun again* 🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
@emotionalTalker2260
*hops inside your brain and feeds "getting better" as a goal* --- sorry I'm persistent 🤡
Kidding hehe, we need not set any goals we do not feel highly inclined towards, getting through the day and doing the best we can right in this moment is more than enough and appreciable also. ❤ I'm proud of Emo anyways.
And am super happy you feel more assured, dear. Lots of love to youu and *keeps hugging* 🤗💖
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😮 we love sun *hugs* sun is such an awesome friend, cannot wait to become oldie so we can have hilarious conversations
@emotionalTalker2260
Awwww so sweet😭❤ thankieees, love yall lots tooo anddd andd Emo is an awesome friend alsooo! *hugsssss* soooo looking forward to them! 🥰
@emotionalTalker2260 Hey you :) I hope you're doing ok - the whole thing sounds pretty scary 😬 I hope everything turns out ok and it's nothing serious
*leaving a hug* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
*hugs* 😮 it’s not scary.. it’s mortifying. Anyways, I’ll be okay <3
@emotionalTalker2260 Yeah 😕 - I hate hospitals but I'm glad you'll be ok
@mytwistedsoul
the pain won’t go away though, but thats okay, at least it’s not all day and comes in waves. Also, what the doctor told me to take is literally useless, my heart hurts with or without pain meds 😮 but at least I am starting to write down when I am in pain
@emotionalTalker2260 Geez - that can't be good though! Your heart shouldn't hurt like that at all
I'm glad you're writing it out when you're in pain - it's better then trying to hide it and keep it to yourself
@mytwistedsoul
nothing I can do about the pain until I go see a doctor for more tests. So I have to live with it 😊 but it is horrible.
Such is Life - Ned Kelly
@emotionalTalker2260
*hugs* I hope that you can find out what’s causing the pain in your heart real soon, and we are here for you, Emosaurus. Never forget that! 🤗 ❤️
@selflessSpruce1515
yeah, that’s going to happen after many more tests 🥺 Emo doesn’t want any more blood tests, they are horrid and painful and bad
@emotionalTalker2260
Oh nooo :') *sends a blanket and plushie for comfort* ❤️
@emotionalTalker2260 I hope they're not making you wait too long to see you. I admire your spirit ❤️
Kind of like - Que sera sera
* sending you good vibes though* I hope it eases and you feel better
Sorry all, I went silent for a bit, I was just really angry about 2 things that happened in 30 mins. One of them sent me into a quick crisis (I logged off until I was okay) anyways, I hate my anger. I tend to go silent when mad or really upset 😀
@emotionalTalker2260
Nothing to apologize for at all, anger tends to be a more difficult emotion to deal with for many of us, so if being silent and taking time for self to restore works, it is more than okay (I'm the same really, silence can be Bliss sometimes hehe). Emo is always allowed all the time okieee. We here to wait for ya🤗
Is emo feeling safe and calmer now? *gives an extra comfy blankey* ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
emo is way more safe and calmer 😮 me spams my crisis thoughts into a website designed for them (even though there is rules, so I end up typing them down on a google doc XD) but yeah, group chats made me so made twice within 30 mins ☹️
@emotionalTalker2260
Super relieving to hear. ❤ I'm glad such a space exists, sure sounds helpful to write our thoughts (kind of like a brain dump, aye?:o).
Certain spaces can feel overpowering at times, it is super alright to step away from them when things get difficult, we can always return when feeling restored. ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
awwww, sun used my fav comic strip 🥺🥺🥺 *hugs*
@emotionalTalker2260
Sun did 💕 *hugs hugs hugs* 🤗
@emotionalTalker2260 You've been in my thoughts
@mytwistedsoul
awww thanks soul 😊💕 lovely to see you around. Also I love the gif, it’s cute 🥺💕
@emotionalTalker2260 You're welcome :)
Anxiety and other things say I bother people so I hide alot lol and lurk in the shadows 🙂
A certain spruce tree has been thinking about you ❤️
@selflessSpruce1515
awwwww 🥺💕 I think this is one of my favourite tree’s. You are so kind, also love the gif, thats a cute gif 😊
@emotionalTalker2260
Yay, I have influenced your taste in trees 😛 And aww, this gif is so representative of my thoughts ❤️
Now enjoy this picture of a grove of your favorite tree xD:
@selflessSpruce1515
*enjoys grove of trees* 😮 you know what, enjoy isn’t even the words. *cherishes the beautiful sight of a spruce tree grove* 😮
@emotionalTalker2260
Aww, cherish is such a beautiful wordddd ❤️❤️
@selflessSpruce1515
😊💕💕💕💕
To all that reads this. Yes you!
You Are A Wonderful Hooman Bean! And you are amazing, kind, loved and very valued.
@emotionalTalker2260
*reads this message and dances* 💕💕
@emotionalTalker2260 aww you are too emo. thanksies for these words *purrs contentedly*
@emotionalTalker2260 🙂😁😂😜
@mytwistedsoul
Soul, I- 😀 Wow
@selflessSpruce1515 lol! I know right? 😂
@mytwistedsoul
that looks like me 😛 is it me? Hahaha, I love the gif 😂
@emotionalTalker2260
You do bear resemblance to the emu xD
@emotionalTalker2260 😊 I found it and just knew I had to share it with you - if I knew how to do graphic stuff - it would have been really cool if it had a beanie on
@mytwistedsoul
i’m still convinced thats me running around 😂 *pretends to be bird*
@emotionalTalker2260 I can imagine you running around like this 😁
@mytwistedsoul
🤡 same!
@emotionalTalker2260
*Sits with Emo and hugss*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
🥺 *hugs sun* Emo having bad day.. me woke up to find out someone I’ve known for most of my life passed away
@emotionalTalker2260
Oh Dear, I'm really sorry to hear that :/ sending my deepest condolences. ❤️
*keeps hugging*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs sun* 🥺💕
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
How’s Emo’s fav ball of sunshine 😮
@emotionalTalker2260
Aw this phrase never fails to make me smileee! 🥺❤️
Sun is slightly unwell, nothing to worry about though, doing okay otherwise. Thankiees for asking. 🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
tell the sickness to shooo 😮 *hugs sun* you will always be my fav ball of sunshine <3 🤗
@emotionalTalker2260
Hehe yes gotta shoo it away, even sickness likes being around me it seems 😛 what to do smh xD (':
Awwwww *heart melts* 🥺 *hugs back and keeps hugging Emooo* 🤗💖
@emotionalTalker2260 *pokes* *leaves hugsss for emoo*❤
@Aikyaa01
:0 Aikyaaa with my favourite adorable tiger pfpppp *hugs* 🤗 how are you?
@emotionalTalker2260 , me okayish.
How is emoo?👀
@Aikyaa01
Emo is trying to be okay 🙁 bery sad though.
good to hear you are okayish <3 😊
Tw swearing
People hate me, people hate me, people hate me, people hate me, people hate me.
I fucking give up sharing, no one really listens anyways, especially in the stupid ass group chats. It’s bullshit. I’m once again pissed off. I was having an okay day, and of course my fucking anger issues decided to come out, I need a fucking break. And my music is causing an earache, everything is pissing me off right now. Fml, I hate the world (not people..)
@emotionalTalker2260
*sits with you and huggles* ❤
*whispers in ears, Sun Loves Emo* ❤
A pikasun plushie for you :o
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs* 🥺💕 the pikasun plushie is soooo adorable 🥺🥺🥺 <3
@emotionalTalker2260
I know right 🥰 accept this as a gift from me okie, a virtual plushie 😮 32nd? :P
How you doing currently? ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
yayyyy 32nd plushie 🥺💕💕💕
Emo is meh, having my waves of anger issues and numbness 😮
how’s my fav ball of sunshine <3
@emotionalTalker2260
Aw I understand those waves are never nice :/ hoping you feel better soon! More *hugs* ❤
*smiles reading that* I'm doing okay, thankyou for asking too. 🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs* today is a new day, it’s midnight. Emo is okay 😛
@emotionalTalker2260
Oooh yay a new day. And I'm glad you're doing okay. ❤️ Sleep well soon okiee. 😮🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Emo doesn’t want to sleep :/ sleep is overrated. But me will most likely pass out at some point <3
@emotionalTalker2260
Is it? 😮
*Sends beams full of rest for Emo* catch 'em all! ❤️
@emotionalTalker2260
Aww, my dear Emosaurus 🥺 *hugs gently*
Dealing with people isn’t a walk in the park, and I know what you mean when group chats are beyond unsupportive (more times than not, unfortunately…). It can be difficult to cope with anything when you feel like no one is listening to you, but I want you to know that I’m listening, as well as a few wonderful people on here who have such huge hearts. ❤️ Don’t let people invalidate you, because it hurts and blind you from the ones you trust. However, don’t stop searching for those who you feel safe and comfortable with…that’s so important, and as someone who can’t really trust people, I know it’s a stretch but also an important commitment. ❤️ I appreciate you so much, and I will be here if you need to talk about anything, whether it is in forums or sr. 💕
*hugs again* I believe in you, Emo ❤️❤️
@selflessSpruce1515
*hugs dear sprucie* 🥺💕 me knows. But me has the more special people me can trust in pms and forums (including you <3)
@emotionalTalker2260
Aww, Sprucie is very glad to hear that ❤️ ❤️
Now Emo will get their 33rd plushie 😛 💕
This time...a penguin plushieeee ✨✨✨
@selflessSpruce1515
me has penguin plushie 😮
@emotionalTalker2260
Well then...you get a bigger penguin plushieeeee 😛
@selflessSpruce1515
yayyyyyy big squishy penguinnnnnnn 😀
@emotionalTalker2260
Plushie partyyyy 😛😛😛
@selflessSpruce1515
yayyyyy plushiesssssss
😖😖😖 why is there no one around when I need someone the most.. no one wants emo.. Emo is so close to giving up on sharing feelings and me nearly give up on getting support that doesn’t even exist to start with.. why does everyone hate emo 😖
@emotionalTalker2260
*slips into Emo's thread and hugs if it's okay* 🥺💜💜💜
@selflessSpruce1515
*hugs* emo was having a meltdown that turned into a full on breakdown at the time 😮
how’s sprucie? 😮
@emotionalTalker2260
Aww, Sprucie hopes that Emo is doing better now 💜💜
Sprucie doesn't know how they're feeling 🥲
@selflessSpruce1515
it’s okay not knowing how you feel 😊 thats me half the time. And Emo, well, they are quite numb.
@emotionalTalker2260
Thank you, amazing Emosaurus 🥺 ❤️ *passes a plushie*
@selflessSpruce1515
*takes plushie* tankchu 🥺💕💕💕 this is why sprucie is a Jellubean. Such a kind heart 💕
@emotionalTalker2260
Awww 🥺❤️❤️❤️