[TW] Emo’s little emotional corner 🥲
Possible trigger warnings: death, sh
read at your own risk I guess
🥲 I know this month isn’t as bad as last month, but I still feel so awful. I know I have been sh free for 3 months but as the days go by some are getting harder and harder not to go back to old habits, UnU I wish my nana was still around. ☹️ I miss her so much 😢 ever since she passed away my mental health was never the same, it got so bad and it’s better now but my depression is terrible.. some days I feel like I’m falling deeper into the hole of depression while climbing out at the same time. 😢 and here’s me complaining about headaches when I literally do nothing about them. 🥲 what I learnt from today is try not to laugh lots with a headache as it makes it worse. I’m also sad today ☹️ I graduate high school soon and lose a whole network of irl support ☹️ so sad
*sigh* I haven’t said anything for a while in here now, 😔
*Tw- Sh*
me accidentally relapsed the other day because I got over frustrated and I lashed out at myself 😞 very ashamed of it, and with that, *poof* went my 4 month sh free record *sobs*
and I am now struggling to deal with my brain telling me to go back to old habits 😮 I’m just gonna continue to ignore it, and maybe slightly complain about it 👀👀👀 😀
this is all I have to say atm 🥺
@emotionalTalker2260 *sits with Emo and hugs* ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😛 *hugs* guess what, with the last thing I said in the quote forum, last comment I said to you was my 500th post in the forumland 😮 I though I would share that with you 💕💕🥺💕💕💕
*hugs* 😛
Omg omg omg milestone posts are always so great and special , and it was for me ?🥺 I will remember it hehe ! yayy thanks for sharing with me Emoooo * hugsss * 💕 andddd woohooo, 500 posts already 😮 congratulations fellow forum wanderer cum resident 😛 @emotionalTalker2260 ! More *hugs* 🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs* 😁 yes it was you. And I really wanted to share that with you
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*pokes sun* 😮 you’re not gonna believe this, but i literally found a song with the words in your username in it 😮😮 bahaha I heard the words and I was like, jeeze I have to tell sun this, so here it is 😮😀
song: sun is shining - Axwell /\ Ingrosso
*is poked* 😮 @emotionalTalker2260
Awww hahahha xD i do and you have to believe this too xD
That's one of my favorite songs, and I did keep my username based on it heheh😄❤ soooooMe glad you found it and i appreciate you telling me !
How did you like the song ?
*huggles* emo 🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
D: 😮 wait, wait, that song was.. *is speechless* 😮😮😮
it was a good song 😊
Also *huggles sun*
Awww yayy *happy dance* 🤗❤🤗 @emotionalTalker2260
👀 I guess I’ll tell this weeks story.. 😮 tw: obviously sh 😮
😔 of course on the day I feel absolutely terrible (breakdown level terrible) my parents go out and buy me a new cupboard literally forcing me to clean my room, and I’m over having to deal with my cousin who in fact threatened to punch me in the face (they have odd (which is a behavioural disorder)) and me gets very triggered by violence aimed at me, so every time they come over, ngl, I hide 😮 my autism doesn’t like violence.
and yeah, that day I got overwhelmed because everyone was being demandy towards me and I just lashed out on myself without realising what I did 😮
today, I have finally somewhat cleaned my room, but in the process I have butted heads (not literally) with my dad, I was yelled at for “using an attitude” I wasn’t able to cook when I needed to clean my room because my mum threatened to throw my stuff out :’) fml, why can I never get a break..
and on top of this, my brain has been my biggest bully atm 🥲
@emotionalTalker2260
*hugs if ok* That sounds like a super frustrating week. I hope things are better now :)<3
@HealingBrokenWIngs
🥺 it was *hugs*
@emotionalTalker2260
*hugs* you know where to find me if you ever need anything :)<3
@HealingBrokenWIngs
🥺 I know 💕
☹️ Sometimes I just wonder, why am I even depressed, I currently just wanna cry rn, 🥺 and I have no reasons for feeling like this
🥺 I just want a hug
The song that matches how i feel 24/7 is this: hourglass - zedd 😕
*sits with Emo*
@emotionalTalker2260 Click me 🤗❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
🥺 awwww that gif is adorable *hugs sun*
@emotionalTalker2260 yasss, like youuu 💕 more hugssss. *wraps emo in blanket full of warm hugs*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😮 I’m already hiding in blanket from the world but I appreciate the blanket offer :3
Aww safe hiding ❤ @emotionalTalker2260
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
it is safe hiding :0 my blanket removes the worry of another lockdown because someone decided to go out to a club while they had Covid and ended up making 500 people exposed to it.. in my town ☹️
😮 no wonder why my depression is not okay again 😕
@emotionalTalker2260
Oh noes , I understand the uncertainties of this current time ):
Feeling scared from another lockdown if situation worsens, is valid , Emo ! I'd feel (and already do feel the same) . Me hopes things get better in the world !
*warm comfy hugs* 🤗❤
Take good care of yourself, okiee ! You're not alone .
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs*
@emotionalTalker2260
*hugs tight* <3
@HealingBrokenWIngs
*hugs*
Today has been an okay day I guess
😀 let’s just say, me being the goldfish I truely am, I forgot I invited 5 of my friends over for a pool party 🤡
but, I did have an absolute blast for 4-5 hours 😀 for at least 2 of those hours were spent in the pool swimming 😀 (and yes, I did ignore the fact I have a cold atm)
but before my friends came and after they left, the only thing making that time ok for me was literally a pair of soft floofy socks :0 (which I am in fact wearing while writing this smh) other than that, i am still in fact feeling depressed 😀
Emo tagged me in a Teens only community forum thread recently? 😮 sun cannot access it ):
Me appreciates the tag though. What was it about? ( if you remember ) 😄❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😀 it was a shout out and i high five, and I realised that i tagged a few people in a thread they cant even access 😢
@emotionalTalker2260
Awww shout out reminds me ..... ( wait for another tag from me 😛 )
You are so so kind, I appreciate the shout out, high five and Emoooooo! ❤
*high fives* and *koala hugs* 🐨🤗
( issa okay hehe, we can shout out to them another time again. ❤ )
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😮 *~* can’t wait to be tagged *koala hugs* 🐨
*~* today is a bit of a weird day
First it was ok, and then as soon as it was midday i got depressed and i ended up just being sad for 2 hours.. amd then I decided to have a nap because i just couldn’t deal with my empty feelings and I must’ve had a panic attack while i was napping and i woke up shaking because my heart was going way too fast. 🙁 but anyways fast forward to now and i can happily say that i am coping 😀 i am watching a show about an autistic person (one that needs a bit more support) and its really funny 😮 as i can relate to the awkwardness that comes with socialising. (I am autistic so yeah😀)
Tw: sh and I guess sexual health
🥺 Emo hurts.. yesterday I’ve done nothing but hurt myself (mentally and physically and in multiple ways).. and mess things up 🥺 I am so overwhelmed about all off this, I can’t even come out from underneath a blanket because the world is overwhelming and all the dumb crap I did is too..
I am so stupid 🥺 I shouldn’t have been alone with my boyfriend.. and it was my stupid idea… and now I hurt 🥺 and and, I have relapsed once again.. so again.. I hurt 🥺
I had 2 massive meltdowns yesterday.. the second one was the worst, and I am still overwhelmed 🥺
@emotionalTalker2260
*hugs tight if ok* I'm so sorry you've been hurting so much. Please don't hesitate to reach out if you need anything I can provide! I'm here for you!!! *sends comfy blankets and hot choco* <3<3<3
@HealingBrokenWIngs
*hugs* 😮
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou 😭 the tag you gave me (the other day.. really last year though).. I love love love love it 😮 and me is a pika 👿 in fact I nearly cried reading it 🥺 it was soooo swweeeettttt 🥺💕💕💕💕💕🐨 me loves the image and me saved it to my iPad because it’s beautiful
@emotionalTalker2260
Yayyyyy I am really happy to hear that, Emoooo!! 🤗
But oh noes, you cried nearly🥺 * super warm hugs * 🐨
you're pika, yes😮 only extra adorable!
I hope the words and the image comfort you and remind you of your awesomeness often. ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*koala hugs* :0
😕 I’m completely lost, some days I wonder who I even am anymore, I’ve been numb for way way too long, also not to mention my only dreams were just crushed this morning and I had such high hopes and a lot of optimism and now those feelings were just a waste of time. I wish I wasn’t depressed, I absolutely hate this. I hate this week.. everything that’s happened is just 😖
@emotionalTalker2260
heyo, friendo, its been a little while 💙
im so sorry to hear that things have been so tough for you, i completely get that feeling of 'it never ends', how exhausting it is. it sucks that something that you were hoping for, looking forward to, isnt possible :c you deserve good times, and i hope that you are able to find other positives in your life
hugs or just sits with you, cookies and lollipops and love 💙💙💙
youre not alone
@ahhhhelpimalive
*hugs Liv* 🥺 💕
@emotionalTalker2260
huggles for the moomoo ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜