Today, I am feeling.....

Very terrible.

I really don't know how I am feeling. I feel sad, unmotivated and heavy inside. I really want to cry but I don't want to because I don't have the time nor energy to do that. Tried talking to a friend about how I'm feeling but she doesn't seem to get it and it seems she's also bsuy. Tried talking to a listener here and I felt worse. I'm writing this hoping it'll help me a bit but tears are filling my eyes and the last thing I want is for them to fall because I may not be able to stop them.

I guess I'll just end here, hoping to get back to my normal self very soon.

awake, because it is early in my day, but like I'd rather sleep all day. I am off from work today. hallelujah! I have just a few things to do but they are very stressful things, and I am tired of fighting battles and doing stressful chores.

_{a little distressed because something happened to my best friend that she described as a "shit show that we'd have to have a call about later." I know that if it was super serious she'd have said something earlier, but before she'd shared that I'd also asked after her grandpa who has been very ill lately.}

_{Now I'm just focusing on writing something for Valentine's Day. I need all the soft fluff.}

Upset and my heart feels broken.

i'm going to ask for the schedule i want at work. Hopefully that will help me.

That’s the problem I don’t feel anything.

@Laura so so anxious and obsessed about the fact that my iPhone was stolen yesterday while I was in a rich area on the way to an NA meeting in my city. I do not know how to go about my life without my iPhone and I feel very unhappy that it was taken away from me. Now I am stuck with my old high school phone until I get a job. I thank god that I was sober yesterday and am sober for a month now. I still feel that my worst day sober is better than my worst day drunk.

@Laura

Today I am feeling, hopeful. 

weary

defeated by life