Breakup and suicide
After 5 years of relationship my gf split up with me 2 month ago. My life had stopped at that moment. What I feel since that moment is only pain and emptiness. I spent a month in psych-hospital. I have nothing to be interesting in anymore. I don't feel that I'm a person that I used to be. It's like my identity is erased. She is getting married in few days. I had problems with depression from time to time even before. Now I think about death and suicide all day long. I'm alone in another country. She was my single friend. I cannot do something or even think about anything else. I had suicide attempt in the past. I've never felt as bad as now. I have strong feeling that EVERYTHING is wrong. With me, with the word. So I'm just a mistake that must be deleted, I'm trash. I am in despair
@Caoge
Hey Man, how are you doing? I hope your better. I just read your post, I am new here, but I have some really heavy life experience in this field.
Are you doing okay? Did you got help? Is someone helping, supporting you?
I am wishing the best happiness for you!
Hi @Caoge, how are you doing?
Your situation is VERY similar with mine... also just came out of a 5 year relationship, ex boyfriend who has been my pillar more than my FAMILY ever was, decided that I have changed for good and beyond hope... dumped me and I didn't see it coming at all. I also live in a foreign country all by myself, he too was my only friend. Trust me... that heaviness around your stomach/ chest you feel, that pain, that hopelessness, I feel it too. I feel you.
But we need to be strong. Our lives are more than this. Reading your story, I KNOW for a fact that you can prove your ex girlfriend wrong one day, if you get through this and get your life together. I'm sure, reading my story you feel the same way for me too.
Please let me know how you are doing. We can make it out of this together! I'll share with you this powerful video I have found, I hope it helps. But I do hope you also check in here, and talk to us whenever you need to. We are here for you!