I wish I had someone with whom I could share . . . .
THIS IS NOT OK I'VE BEEN CRYING SO MUCH FUCK YOU. I WROTE A HEARTFELT TEXT FOR LIKE AN HOUR AND YOUR FUCKING "OH MAYBE YOU'RE IN A CRISIS" FUCKING THING DELETED IT. FUCK YOU SO MUCH I HATE THIS. IT HURTS SO BAD. I'VE SPENT A YEAR LEARNING TO VENT AND THIS HURTS SO MUCH THIS IS NOT OK. I DON'T CARE IF THE WORD S-IDE IS A BANNED WORD, JUST TELL ME YOU DELETE POSTS THAT HAVE IT. THIS HURTS SO MUCH SO SO SO MUCH YOU COULD NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH OF A EXTREMELY VARIED INSANE COMPLEX MESS MY BRAIN IS OVER THINGS LIKE THIS AND NO I COULDN'T TALK ABOUT IT. I CAN'T THINK OF THESE SUBJECTS MUCH AND FINALLY I WAS ABLE TO WRITE. THIS IS VERY VERY HURTFUL.
There is NOTHING that could be a crisis for me in ways that I wouldn't hide from you. The crisis auto delete filter shouldn't apply to me. I was being honest and I FINALLY had written clearly what my brain couldn't think clearly. This feels awful.
Please no one feel like you're relevant or anything, I just needed to say those things. I don't expect anyone to read, but I really needed to express myself. I was the opposite of that, but for deleted reasons I'm letting a childish part of me complain.
I seriously don't get how someone found it non-sadistic to create an undisclosed filter for commonly used words that just directs a post to the void. I value those moments of expression and attempts at clarity more than anything I could ever get. I don't really value much except that, even. It stings a very personal needy hypersensitive hidden part of me that I was divided to protect. I am just completely distraught, numbed and distant because of this. It is sad for me for the moment. I will forget the last hours and now as well as the event. It happens. I don't like this.
Again, sorry if you reacted to anything in this. I just needed to write to process things better. I want to feel ok venting.
I hope you're alright of functional to some degree. If not I hope some moments are neutralized or less intense. I don't mean to really imply I'm talking to you or anyone. It's just complaining and venting. I hope it is completely understandable and without trouble.
wish I had someone with whom I could share My Life My goods My bads My ups and My downs
"My Fair Lady," much? 
Rex Harrison as Professor Higgins.
I'm not trying to make light of your post (not even a tiny bit); I'm just laughing at myself for #IGeekMusicalTheater and movies! Oh and plus, Audrey Hepburn? Yup, enough said.
"I could have danced all night! I could have danced all night! And still have begged for more ... "
@affectionateShip3957 - but just between you and me ... I'd really like to have someone to share those things with, too. Like, "Honey? Today my day was _____ and because of that I'd like to _______. And may I please have a hug?" (Are you an 'I like hugs' person?) ((Platy offers Ship3957 a hug if you'd like)) Take care! ~ Platy
I wish I had someone with whom I could share ...
my actual feelings and great concern too for myself regarding this unnamed-Eating-Disorder I have. I've resolved to bring it up again with my GP doctor, if she does not. (That appointment is now about 2 weeks away - mid-June.) I was just reading something in the ED Support SubComm and thought how I was not even being really real with them - there, in an ONLINE, ANONYMOUS, SUPPORTIVE area of 7CUPS! Okay, yes I am really too hard on myself at times. Just now I was like, "Come on Platy! It's online, they 'get it' (or at least might), they have struggles with food too ...." Big challenge for self: open up just some, a bit more with the #EDSupport sub-community. They are, many of them, in the midst of #EDWarrior -ing life right now too. Perchance if I can convince myself I am not fully 101% alone in this ... (looks at the floor) ... maybe 'just' the not being alone can decrease the shame I feel with, around, and in this eating disorder.
Thank you, Relationship & Friendship Support Community for reading my post here, basically about another sub-community. 
Platy
@Laura anything and everything. All the small details, even the irrelevant ones. I wish I had that
advice on my relationship.. Finding out what's best for me is so so hard. When do you walk out and when do you prevail?
@Yumebi
Yep. In that same place. Hard to know if I'll look back and wish I left sooner, or look back and wish I hadn't left at all...
my past experience and my deepest, darkest memories.
The small details that I notice in everyday life..
everything. the highs and lows of each days and the little moments that make life so worth it.
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what do you do when your in debt because you were supporting your (now ex) partner in All senses of the term, they weren't the one for you so you had to leave, the house you both were living in was destroyed by "freak" weather (you can't do anything about climate change or make other people realize how fucked 99.99% of humanity is, by the way) and the only person you have to talk to is a functional alcoholic of a father who you are forcing yourself to live with?