Old friend I cant get out of my head.

Hello! Thank you for taking the time to read this. I just need a place to vent<3

so I had this childhood best friend. As we got older I started noticing the red flags about her. She would make fun of my hobbies or mock them. Like I’m really into drawing when I was younger and she grabbed my drawing pad out of my hand and showed a group of guys she was trying to impress. Anyways as time goes on we got older and she met this guy from church. She would cry about him to me constantly. I would give her advice. She would feel better and not talk to me again until the next time they fought. Once she even lied and saying a group of our church friends were going to hang out and it turned out to be a date for her and the boy she was talking too. When I asked her about it she said “oh the others cancelled last minute” which I knew was a lie. Or once I had a birthday gathering and all of the church friend came. Months later the party came into conversation and she said “well you know no one really went for you right?” I swear I wanted to cry right then and there. Okay now that I’m finally typing my thoughts…I thought I missed her but I was glamorizing her in my head 💀 but the list goes on! She was going through a rough patch with the boy she was talking too…and she started taking to someone else who was a girl. I was happy for her cause I’m actually bisexual so I was happy that my friend maybe was too. But the way she talked about the girl she was talking too made it sound like she was using her. She would call me and say that she likes her and she wanted her and I to meet. So we met and the girl she was talking too was the sweetest. My friend wanted me to talk to her about dating. And I did. As someone who’s in the LGBT I told her to not date my friend. It would feel so wrong of me to actually let her date my friend when I know damn well my friend is just using her. I couldn’t lie. So let’s just say the car ride back was very very awkward. Anyways we drop the girl off and my friend goes “so what do you think?” I told her what I said to her and my friend laughed. “You TOMD her that??” And I said yes. She said “well you’re not going to see her again so who cares” which shocked me. Anyways I continued saying that the girl was very pretty and sweet. My friend then said “really?? I don’t think she’s that cute she’s okay” which honestly was my breaking point I was so done. One thing I cannot stand is people using others. Especially for either own benefits. BUT THE LIST GOES ON…you remember that guy she was talking too? Yeah they’re still together. And when I gave my friend advice saying he was a bad guy she told him and now he hates my guts (i used to be friends with her boyfriend until I found out he was homophobic) I’m not that religious I just went to the church thing cause I met a lot of people that were cool besides her. I hate it there it’s extremely homophobic and cultish. anyways I’m just ranting LOL. So much religious trauma has happened in my youth years and this friend did not make it any better . If you actually read this I really appreciate it. Hopefully you can be as disgusted as me. Also I’m not saying I’m a perfect person. I was depressed and ghosted her sometimes cause I was so drained. There’s not point to this paragraph again I’m sorry. I just hope someone else can be as disgusted as I am