The fear of being alone forever or the terror of being in a relationship
I’m searching for purpose in this life without romantic relationships. I haven’t found anyone in like 7 years. I’ve been in many short-term ones. Long story short, I perceive relationships to be terror-filled. I’ve gotten to the point of nausea when talking to a potential partner now. I’m not meant for relationships. I can’t do it. Maybe there’s something wrong with me. But now I’m faced with the serious contemplation of spending the rest of my life partner-less. I think it’s sad of course. But is it worse than being stuck with someone who mistreats you for the rest of your life?
@mxscn
It's not good to be with someone who mistreats you 🥺
That is lonelier.
But I'm genuinely sorry, that you cannot open up to a relationship but absolutely it doesn't mean that anything is wrong with you 💖

@mxscn
I guess it depends on your vision of a relationship.
IMO people tend to try to fit into something that does not work for us. It is not an interview process or something we must go find. when you are ready and open things happen in our lives.
Dear,
First of all I want to hug you tight. I wish you will be fine.
I always want a partner who loves me and cares me. and give value to my feelings. I gave her respect love and care but I did not get anything from her but a lot of arguments and my body shaming ( even I dont look faty and ugly as per others ). I gave everything to my parents but got hate from them because I choose a girl without their permission.
I was seeking love, care and respect but I didn't get anything even I love, care and respect to others.
If you feel scared and lonely, don't loose yourself. Don't expect from others but from yourself. Be kind to yourself and love yourself. Be healthy love animals and nature.
Love you so much take care.
@mxscn
Firstly there's nothing wrong with you! Sometimes these things work at a different timeline than you have for yourself. It absolutely doesn't mean you settle in a relationship with someone who mistreats you, but sometimes it's about staying open and hopeful to the idea that someone out there is waiting for you, just as you are for them :)
@mxscn
Nothing is “wrong” with you for moving slowly toward trust. Some people rebuild safety before they build romance. A life without a partner isn’t a failure, just a path that looks different. And if love ever returns, it should feel safe, not suffocating.