Miracle
I want to share something deeply personal about my faith.
If I’m completely honest, I turned my back on it seven years ago when my best friend passed away from cancer at just 25. Since then, I carried a lot of hurt, doubt, and distance from anything spiritual.
Recently, I became a mum for the first time. My little boy means everything to me. Over time, I began noticing delays in nearly all of his milestones, especially in his communication and speech. He wouldn’t make eye contact, couldn’t vocalise, and was non verbal. Naturally, concerns about autism began to surface. I want to be clear: there is absolutely nothing shameful about autism, and I would love my son unconditionally no matter what. But as a parent, I was overwhelmed with worry and fear for his future.
I shared my concerns with my husband, and we both broke down. Despite how far I felt from faith, something in us reached for it. We prayed constantly. I prayed in the shower, throughout the day, whenever the anxiety overwhelmed me. My husband told me that before I even woke up, he had fallen to his knees and prayed.
That morning was especially difficult. Our son wasn’t responding to his name, seemed distant, and remained non verbal. Trying to distract myself from the heartache, I took him to the shops. While in a bookshop, I broke down crying because I couldn’t even get him to look at me. I called my husband and said I would come to his workplace because my anxiety, especially postpartum anxiety, felt unbearable.
On the drive there, something happened that I still struggle to fully understand. I was stuck in traffic when suddenly my son appeared to be choking, even though he hadn’t eaten anything. I panicked, pulled over immediately, and ran to him. But when I got to him, he was completely calm, perfectly fine. What stood out most in that moment was a sound he made, a kind of screech I had never heard before and cannot explain.
After making sure he was okay, I got back in the car and continued driving. Then, out of nowhere, he started repeating words. He was talking. Smiling. Engaging. It felt like a light had been switched on. The same little boy who, moments before, seemed unreachable was suddenly present, responsive, and full of life.
This all happened this morning, and I am still in shock. After everything, the doubt, the distance, the guilt, I cannot help but feel that something profound took place. I genuinely believe I may have witnessed a miracle… but could this really be true?
@raspberryHouse3476
It's understandable your faith was shaken when losing a friend so young 💛
May they rest in peace.
Amazing things happen all the time to remind us of Gods mercy and unending love, this was your miracle 💛
@raspberryHouse3476
Some things in life just happen that convinces us there is no other explanation.
You had your miracle and you know what it feels like.
Others may try to explain anything or everything away, but I feel you know that moment and feeling. We do not have to convince anyone else.... we just know in our life something happened that we prayed for.
@raspberryHouse3476
Yes — what you experienced may truly be a blessing and an act of mercy. Some might call it a miracle, others may use a different name. But what is certain is this: if God (Allah) wills, He can open a door in the darkest moment of the heart.
From the Qur’anic perspective, Allah is the Most Merciful of those who show mercy. He knows the tears of His servant, the broken heart, and the silent prayer. Sometimes a person comes closest to Him at the very moment when they feel they have nothing left.
As described in the works of Said Nursi, there are four deep truths in a person’s turning toward Allah:
Helplessness : A person realizes they have no real power of their own. You also felt that there was nothing you could do for your child. That very state opened the door of prayer.
Neediness : A person recognizes how utterly dependent they are. You were not just seeking a solution, but mercy itself.
Compassion : A mother’s love for her child is one of the purest and most powerful forms of prayer. A supplication rising from a mother’s heart is profoundly sincere.
Reflection : Pausing to reflect after what happened, and searching for its meaning, is itself a form of awakening of the heart.
The Qur’an mentions the sincere supplication of Hawla bint Tha’laba ( Surah Al-Mujadilah (Chapter 58)). In her deep hardship, she poured out her complaint and grief to Allah. And Allah revealed that He had heard her voice. This teaches us something essential: sincere prayers that come from the heart are never lost.
Perhaps your prayer was of that kind as well. Your tears in the shower, your spouse falling into prostration and pleading, a mother turning helplessly to her Lord… these are not ordinary moments.
What exactly happened to your son at that moment may be explained in different ways from a medical perspective. But from a spiritual perspective, one point is deeply meaningful:
Allah may have given you the feeling: “I see you, I hear you, and I have not left you alone.”
Perhaps the greatest miracle was not only the change in your child. Perhaps the greater miracle was the return of a heart that had been distant for years back to Allah.
What is needed now is to move forward not with fear, but with gratitude. Seek support where necessary. Consult doctors. Do not abandon practical means. But keep this sentence in your heart:
Allah, the Most Merciful of those who show mercy, does not forget His servant.
@Inpursuitoftruth73116
salam alaikum my friend - this was a beautiful post and I greatly appreciate it!
@TovaCares76
Wa alaikum assalam, my friend.
Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words — I truly appreciate them.
My intention is simply to share what little I know in the hope of benefiting others. Our beloved Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) taught that the best of people are those who are most beneficial to others. This beautiful principle reminds us that serving others can take many forms: helping those in need, speaking kindly, reconciling hearts, listening to someone in pain, offering comfort in hardship, encouraging truth and patience, and showing mercy not only to people, but also to animals and all of creation.
Since this topic relates to hardship and healing, I would also warmly recommend a work by Said Nursi called The Message for the Sick. It is not only for those who are ill, but also a deeply meaningful book for doctors, nurses, psychologists, caregivers, and all healthcare professionals who stand beside human suffering. I believe many people can benefit from its wisdom and comfort.
Thank you again for your generous message. May Allah bless you with peace, health, and goodness.
@raspberryHouse3476
God bless you and your family. I'm praying for you. <3
If you would like to talk about having a child with autism (even if you just have concerns and not a diagnosis), I have a 22 year old I raised who was diagnosed at 3. Please feel free to reach out to me if you need to talk - my pm's are open to you.