When God Doesnt Show Up
Im going through something right now, I have been for quite sometime, and I keep trusting God
Trusting that he will work it out, that there is a purpose to this madness
Doing the whole thing - going to church, going to small group, praying to him, ect.
and most importantly beging and BEGING God to show up or even show he is in this - that there is a purpose to all this
I would brake down crying God to show me a little bit of light or even stop the storm so I can get a chance to breath
I think about a pervious season of my life where I was going through something differnt but I did the same thing
Where I trusted him but desprotly needed to know that he was there
To be fair God has deffinitly shown me he is using me for other, but I need to know God is there for me and not to just use me to be other peoples blessings
Anyways as I look back and I think about my own season and my freinds season and how God didnt show his light in storms with no end in sight I cant help to think how unfair it is
Im not even sure if I would call it 'unfair' I sometimes think it crule but God isnt a crule God so I dont nessairly know what it is
But I do know that my story isnt an isolated, there has been so meney times countless people asked God to stop the storm or show them that he was there and he hasnt
Why would the God that created the univers, the one that made the heaven and earth not even show he is there with you in the storm and im not even asking for him to give a merical im asking why wont he show his childern he is there when they need to see him most
Witch then has lead me to the question why would he let us get to bottem of rock bottem, the point of no return, why would the all loving God let his childern go there why not show mercy
This isnt a question of if God is real, he is and thats that
there may not even be a question in this
Anyways I know that the teacher is always quite when the student is taking a test but I dont need a teacher I need a father that shows he is there and willing to intervien
I've also thought about when I felt like God showed uo evertime I asking and I relized it was the season of my life where I knew of him but I dint know him
It was the season where church was the last thing on my mind and I would say things like 'God if your real the do XYZ' or "God if you do ABC then I will do 123"
As silly as it sounds it worked, God showed up and he showed out
However, I cant seem to do that now
Not becouse I dont want to, cus trust me I do, but becouse I know God isnt a trasitional God and there is nothing I need to do for him to be good in my life also I know God better now and its differnt
not sure if God is going to show up or pause the storm as time progress my faith in him showing up has dwindled but there is a small part of me that will always hope that he will show up and he says that all I need is the faith of a mustard seed and the hope I have is just about that size
Im at the point where im trying to figure out what to do if God isnt showing up and I dont quite know but hopfully ill have a solution soon
@callmeRM
I think many have their own personal relationship with God.
Sometimes when we pray and ask for him to show up ....he is there or he just did not answer us like we wanted ... the storm did not end or maybe even lessen ......
Maybe what we get instead is a chance to learn or experience something that will help us down the road... we sometimes we cannot see our blessings as clear as we see blessings bestowed on others.
@callmeRM I used to pray to change circumstances and that never worked. And even when it did happen by coincidence, I wanted something else.
What does work for me is to pray for wisdom and compassion so I can learn to cope with difficult situations and have compassion for those that create difficult situations because they suffer a lot as do others.
I pray silently without words. Rather than saying what I want I listen to what I need to hear.
Hi soulsings agreed on silent prayers one Prophet suggested even longing could go as prayers which was a topic. Even tears as prayers. A whole new way to live life. Usually end prayers w as it is according to your will God so that where guessed wrong will get the greatest outcome. But upon growing learned to also focus on not my will but Your will acknowledging God's plan as greater than our own.
Can't say fully have entire awareness of this just yet.
Someone suggested to me that God gave us desire that helped direct us to Purpose.
Some quote the verse of God giving us the desires of our heart suggesting our hearts true desires where aligned w God's will.
@soulsings
@blissfulFlute808 I have heard that when we desire things external in the world, we get trapped in a fruitless chase to find inner happiness outside. That does not mean we quit our jobs and stop eating, but do we really need another pair of shoes when we have a closet full.
So when I pray I am working on praying for the inner qualities that lead to happiness. What i need in the world follows.
Hi call me
Note the advisements were the ones given to self during the season. @blissfulFlute808