meth addiction
i relapsed today after 20 days clean. i tried so hard but couldnt do it. i need someone to talk to whos actually been through this so i dont sound crazy. stupid responses like “one day at a time” “you can do this” and stuff like that doesnt help. i just wanna talk about the experience of it that absolutely destroys a person.
@sociablePrune69 sorry to know you're struggling it makes sense you want someone who understands and relates better rather than give you positive blanket statements 😅
have you tried looking for listeners? there's a topic filter for addiction support you can choose and then read some bios of listeners if they have similar experiences
you can also vent in forums if you need to till then.
Hi sociable prune. I too was addicted to meth, two different times in my life, both for several years. It is all consuming. I had to go live with a family member out of state where I didn’t know anyone or how to get it. And then I came back and relapsed even though I was feeling and doing great! WTF, right?!? I honestly can’t put a pin on how I eventually kicked it, but I do know I was lucky enough to have a lot of people who still loved me. And of course I had to cut ties with anyone who was remotely connected to it. But then I just drank more and more, and am struggling with that to this day, years later. I have burned more bridges than I can count and lost so many opportunities, jobs, relationships, health, etc ad infinitum… I know this doesn’t sound helpful and most likely makes you feel shittier. Just wanted to let you know you’re not alone, and neither am I. But the people in your life who don’t understand can make you feel very very alone. Mostly they don’t intend to, they just don’t get it. That’s why I’m replying to you, because I too need to talk to someone who understands. Wish you luck.
Hope your doing okay @sociablePrune69
Meth is all that is evil. Keep fighting. it does get easier but somehow only harder first.
Forgive your relapses and hold on to the pain to help as you fight again and again. if that makes sense.
Man I hate that dude. I had what... almost 5 month sclean. I went on an absolute terrot last summer. Before bro I had 12 fing years clean sober. And you are so right bout this drug. It's not a choice that Satan would choose. I'm certain Satan would refuse. If it makes clouds then it's from the real heavenly above ***. @sociablePrune69
I've been there, let's talk
If your still available to chat I am going through the exact same thing with the exact drug..
I’m there with you, friend. I’m looking at starting sobriety again tomorrow, Wednesday, and I’m scared to death to walk away from it even though I know without a doubt that if I keep using I will lose absolutely everything I have worked so hard for and everyone I love most- my boyfriend, his kids, my kids, everything important to me will be gone if anyone else finds out I’ve been using since last fall that in fact I never really quit when I said I did.
So yeah I get it. I’m here for you.
