Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-In Sunday June 3rd 2018
Good Morning Alle, I hope everyone is doing well.
I awoke this morning silent and still. As I recited my vows and put my tork on it began to rain. I geared up and headed outside to sing my prayers and greet the sun. It was so quiet except for the rain. Alle were silent and so I too sat and watched. As first light came in I could see 3 deer in the middle pasture. Birds sat high in the trees awaiting their werm. I melted into the earth and became part of it. The deer passed right by me as they left, so close yet they didn't see nor smell me. I couldn't resist barking out a good "BOO" lol. They jumped high in the aer an took off. My laughter broke the silence for alle and the birds began chirping, the dogs barking, and our horse Sif started demanding her morning hay (such a greedy one she is lol). As I came back in I reflected on the stillness. I thought there is always some chaotic factor that creates change. A pebble makes a ripple on still water, a spark ignites the hearth, heat makes the icecream cones melt. Today I was the chaos in the stillness, Loki if you will lol. Perhaps I broke the silence of the morning, but Sif got her hay early, I taught some deer a lession in paying attention, and I made it ok for the birds to sing. An interesting beginning to the day.
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@Raveninthelabrynth
Another great image of calmness 😊 I'm living in the chaos, so I'm usually trying to be the stillness inside the chaos, your image of the rain, the deer, the birds and the rising sun just helped me to calm myself, to breathe and be the stillness inside this chaos my world is... So, thanks for that *hugs*
@courteousNorth5140 Hugs North, My Pleasure 
@Raveninthelabrynth
Today started of okay, I had motivated myself to leave the house which was good.....but right now its taken a bad turn. Ive rang a few friends and no one is answeri.g their phones and thats totally understandable because ive been a really selfish ,inconsiderate friend lately and havent been able to motivate myself to contact them that much. So they are all probably sick of it and now its payback.
So now I just want to curl back up into bed and not leave for the rest of the day.....but immot going to do that because its only going to make me feel worse.
To top everything off im struggling with alit of feelings of anger today,I have an urge to try and punch holes in walls but as the walls are made of concrete blocks I feel like the walls might win and id need a wrecking ball to get any substantial sized holes...then id have an unstable house to live in....so after careful consideration,I think I might just leave the walls alone.

And maybe tire myself out with some cleaning or something.
@indigoBeing9907 Hej Being, sorry things didn't work out so fun. I wouldn't go assuming that you are being ostracised in an organized fashion. Often folks are just busy. Also we must remember that instant messaging doesn't necessarily mean instant reply.
Hitting things can be fun and quite relieving, but I would recommend a punching bag, sux fixing holes in walls or recovering from a broken hand. Keep your chin up, just another tricky day
@indigoBeing9907
I've been there. I can get very emotional if I don't get a response from multiple friends. I have to remind myself that they get busy and it's not personal (it usually isn't anyway). I too have felt like punching the walls. I'm having a good day today. I hope I can share some goodwill and understanding with you.
Struggling a lot today with anxiety, bad chest pains and just an overwhelming urge to lock myself away from everything. Taking all I have right now to just breathe.....
@crimsonLime6525 Hugs my friend, slow down and breathe. You may pm me if you need or wish
also you may try some grounding techniques on your own if you are more comfortable with that. Here's a link to some great grounding techniques (https://www.7cups.com/forum/TraumaticExperiencesCommunity_60/TraumaRecoveryResources_481/GroundingWhenTriggered_42512/) may you find peace and stillness soon. 
@Raveninthelabrynth thank you for the link to grounding techniques. It
@crimsonLime6525
I found a new technique to deal with ruminating thoughts - hold an ice cube. Have you tried it? I haven't yet but sometimes I can't get out of my head and I need a way to reroute my brain.
@Raveninthelabrynth
@Raveninthelabrynth
@Raveninthelabrynth
I wonder do I too much focus where it hurts...idk
weel today felt calm
naiber cat cumfert me(it folowed me :3)
Woah im really struggling right now, must be the day for panic attacks eh? I cant stop crying, ive gone from having bubbling anger in me all day, working that off and now its anxiety and an overwhelming sadness thats kicking my ass. Im getting a bit sick of this.......
@indigoBeing9907
i think someone mentioned a pillow fort on the other thread yesterday , if u want to go it then it might make u feel a bit better .
I dont give hugs but if I do l would send u one .
hope others can help u more than l can
@sincereJar9515
Thank you , thats very kind of you :)
@indigoBeing9907 Sorry to hear you are caught in a bad mode. Anything I can do to help?
@Raveninthelabrynth
I dont know, I just want this feeling to go away. Its like im stuck back to where I was a year ago. Not as bad of feelings but close and more complex. Im drinking some herbal tea, to see if that will help and I think then I might give up in the day and just go to bed and hope tommorriw is better.
Thank you so much for the support.
Hey,
I'm suddenly having a really bad day and need support. I had a training day at work, where someone came in to train me. It was just BAD energy from the get go. I felt triggered to the MAX (more so than I have felt in an EXTREMELY long time), and I can tell I'm being manipulated and tactics are being used on me (it's a sales job) and I'm going along with it even though my first reaction was to quit on the spot. I don't know how to handle this. I realized today I hate being a photographer and I don't want to do it for a job. I feel like I want to cut and run. I don't know how to handle this. My mind feels toyed with and manipulated and I want to cry. I want to run away and get far away from this situation. I don't know which way is up. I told this to my therapist too just now.
Help 
@singercrystalspirit
How are you today? Doing any better? ❤️
@KLM3278
Hey! Thank you for asking! Today I am feeling anxiety off and on (but that's pretty normal lol) so I'm practicing being mindful and making space for the anxiety 
