Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in: Friday September 14th
Happy Friday Trauma Community!
We have made it through another week. Whether this week was a good one for you or a struggle, I'm proud of you for getting through it.
Here on the East Coast in the United States, we are watching and preparing for lots of rain and hurricane conditions. If you are also in this area, please check in and let us know you're safe if you can. I know lots of community members may be without power in the coming days and am thinking about those of you who may be impacted.
- How was this week for you on a scale of 1-10 with 1 being very difficult and 10 being awesome? Let us know if we can provide any additional support for you going into this weekend.
- What is your favorite activity to do on a rainy day? Whether it's watching a good movie, building a pillow fort like many of you shared yesterday, reading a good book, or cuddling up with a pet, what makes you feel relaxed and comfy when it's raining outside?
- What is one positive affirmation (if you use them) that you tell yourself when you're feeling bad?
@Kate
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- How was this week for you on a scale of 1-10 with 1 being very difficult and 10 being awesome? Let us know if we can provide any additional support for you going into this weekend.
2 probably .... yesterday i had flashbacks and i was shaking plus crying so much, i was having like feelings of the flashbacks. i know how i felt as a child. i was scared and terrified ... i hate flashbacks i almost cut yesterday. i got a knife but put it back
- What is your favorite activity to do on a rainy day? Whether it's watching a good movie, building a pillow fort like many of you shared yesterday, reading a good book, or cuddling up with a pet, what makes you feel relaxed and comfy when it's raining outside?
I love reading and dancing in the rain.... I love listening to it.
- What is one positive affirmation (if you use them) that you tell yourself when you're feeling bad?
honestly i used to say itd be okay ... but i dont know anymore..
@Hope7879
very well done about not harming yourself yesterday 
so I want to second Kate here, you are brave and strong 
@Hope7879
Well done on putting down the knife. I agree with the others, brave and strong for talking about it, sharing.
Have you red any good books lately?
@Kate
- How was this week for you on a scale of 1-10 with 1 being very difficult and 10 being awesome? Let us know if we can provide any additional support for you going into this weekend.
This week fell somewhere between a 1-2. I'm going to take a risk here and try to explain why.
Something happened recently that took my shattered pieces and ground them into the pavement (sorry not going to explain that part). This week simply the act of getting up was a struggle. Facing each day and facing the fear, anger and so many other things is overwhelming. I tried to cope with the thoughts and feelings the best I could. I fail to have good coping skills. I think the average 5 yr old probably has better skills.
In desperation I gave into some of my more negative coping methods. I self harmed yesterday and I'm very ashamed of that. I mean just typing that makes me want to go hide so none of you will see me again and know. On the other side the secrets and hiding aren't helping much. My mind went to that place where I didn't want to live anymore. I did reach out yesterday for the proper support for that, although only because my mood app insisted. Who knew an app could be so pushy.
I know this was a lot of words to answer a simple question. I'm at home sick waiting on some test results. This weekend is going to be difficult.
- What is your favorite activity to do on a rainy day? Whether it's watching a good movie, building a pillow fort like many of you shared yesterday, reading a good book, or cuddling up with a pet, what makes you feel relaxed and comfy when it's raining outside?
I like to curl up with my weighted blanket and a good book. I like the rain, but I can't stand thunder or other loud noises. Today's weather will bring thunder.
- What is one positive affirmation (if you use them) that you tell yourself when you're feeling bad?
You're doing the best you can. Although, I'm not sure I believe that.
@practicalIdeal2007
You are doing your best Deal and its so brave of you to come here and reach out and share, share all you want and answer as long as you want, share whatever you need, also if its not in the question. Im sorry things are so hard, but im glad you are taking the steps needed to make sure you are safe, you are doing your best. I too hope you can forgive your self for the SH just like you would a friend, it is nothing to be ashamed of, so please dont be to hard on your self.
You are doing your best, Deal, and that is good enough
@LoveFromSara
Thank you Sara. It's true that I am doing the best I can. I will pick myself back up and try again.
How has my week been on 1 - 10 scale??? 2 or 3 I guess. Not been a good week. I am in a lot of pain right now physically no longer crying hysterically or screaming but yer lots of pain. Struggling to accept this is just part of my life now.
Things to do on a rainy day?? Curl up in a little den next to the window with lots of blankets and read with a nice cup of tea :) also with my teddy because he is comfy :).
Positive affirmation? No idea really um I just think of Dory from Finding Nemo saying "just keep swimming swimming swimming"
@Lilibuth12 I'm so sorry to hear about the pain. Hoping it eases up more for you soon.
Just keep swimming!
@Kate
Thank you for the message and the GIF ahahah it's made me smile each time I've looked at it <3 been much needed today :)
@Lilibuth12
I like that quote too, and that movie
Im really sorry for all your pain, do you have anything that can help you with it?
@LoveFromSara
Nothing seems to be helping, when it's that bad I can't keep anything down so painkillers are difficult, no over the counter meds work and I am just having to try out different drugs as doctors prescribe them for me. Doctors given me some anti nausia stuff but honestly I am just terrified of the level of pain. I normally have migraines but these bad ones are in a league of their own. All I can do is rock and cry and scream. It's quite traumatising to be honest and knowing it could happen again any time is terrifying.
@Lilibuth12
That sound aweful and scary, im so sorry. I hope that you and your dr can find something that works and that it dont take to many tries.
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@melliotm
Hi mellioo!!
@sensitiveShade5337 Helloooo Shade how are you doing today? 😎⛺💜
@melliotm
How do I get on the taglist?
Hi @practicalIdeal2007 -- the new Google Form is currently under construction but shall make sure that your name gets manually added to the current tag list cc @LifeIsMyCanvas @Kate @Anomalia
Praying for everyone effected by the hurricane! I've been very scared and I guess where I am we can't even get the hurricane! Stay safe!!!!! I hope you're pets and friends and families and homes will all be safe and everything will be okay. 🙏🏻
@KLM3278
I hope that you can feel safe soon. Your prayers are appreciated. It's good to see you.
@practicalIdeal2007
Thank you! My counselor helped a lot. He said where we live no hurricanes can ever come. So, now I feel silly. But also sad for so many people. Lots of prayers to many!!!!!!
@KLM3278 Even if you're not in an area that may be impacted, it can still be scary and upsetting to keep hearing about others who may be in danger.
You stay safe as well and have a restful weekend. Thanks for posting
@KLM3278
My family is in Myrtle beach right in the path and theyve all been mandatory evacuated. Scarey stuff.
Happy friday everyone :D so happy to see all of you participating in todays check in <3 take care and have a great weekend!
@ontheotherside Happy FriYAY! Have a wonderful weekend!
@Kate you too :D x
Im struggling today.
@Npepsicola Hey! I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. If you're comfortable sharing what's going on, we're listening. Either way am sending you good thoughts and support.
@Kate
My head just isnt in a good place at all right now. I feel confused and tired and scared. Im tired of fighting all the time. Self harm thoughts, eating disorder thoughts, trauma thoughts. All the bad self talk. Its overwhelming. I just wish it would stop already.
@Npepsicola
Hey Pepsi, I'm sorry to hear you're struggling today... is there anything comforting you can do for yourself to stop the negative thoughts for a while? perhaps have some hot chocolate or watch your favourite movie? Hope you'll feel better soon
My week has been a 2, my boyfriend who I'm too dependent on hasn't been on his good days so I haven't been able to talk to him, I had to walk a lot with some classmates and my feet started aching, I fucked up my literature exam hoping I did well and I didn't do well the only teacher I've ever liked is gone now and I feel like crap because I hate the other teacher. My relationship is going through a tough time, and my mentally ill dad has been unpredictable too, everyone is so stressed out about everything because there's no money and no food. I didn't get to see my only friend because my dad didn't feel like it.
My favorite activity to do on a rainy day is playing pokémon and laying down on my bed, listening to indie music.
The positive affirmation I make when I feel bad it's "everything's going to be okay" even though I know it's not, but it'll be okay someday so I just stick to that I guess.
@Smalltoaster
I'm sorry to hear about your rough week, really sounds like you're having a lot to deal with... but your affirmation is the perfect right one for times like these, everything will be ok just one step after another
I feel like shit right now 😞
@sensitiveShade5337
I'm sorry to hear that Shade. Do you want to talk about it? We don't really know each other, but I'll sit here with you if you'd like.
@practicalIdeal2007
I was looking for a listener to talk about it but no one is available so I will just go to sleep. I will just keep it for myself 😞
@sensitiveShade5337
I'm sorry there wasn't a listener avaliable Shade. I'm not a listener and I haven't been able to find one today either. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you.
@practicalIdeal2007
Im not sure if you can do something..
- How was this week for you on a scale of 1-10 with 1 being very difficult and 10 being awesome? Let us know if we can provide any additional support for you going into this weekend.
3 to 4, I've just been depressed overwhelmed and tired this week.
I plan to sleep in this weekend, write and watch football.
- What is your favorite activity to do on a rainy day? Whether it's watching a good movie, building a pillow fort like many of you shared yesterday, reading a good book, or cuddling up with a pet, what makes you feel relaxed and comfy when it's raining outside?
Movies, baking, writing or reading. I prefer indoors over outdoors.
- What is one positive affirmation (if you use them) that you tell yourself when you're feeling bad?
Tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow is a clean slate.
@Rebekahwriter13
Sleep in and watch some footbal!
Tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow is a clean slate.