Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Saturday 27th of October, 2018
We have made it through one more week. You have made it through an other week! I mean, how amazing is that? You are doing such an amazing job and I am really proud of you for it! 
How are you feeling today? :)
How was this week for you? Do you have anything we would like to share with us here? :)
Lately I have been actually delving more into philosphical topics and the hows and whys of feelings, not my feelings, but just in general and as much as it is an interesting topic it can be a really hard one. On this journy of mine one fo the thing that helped me a lot was the Dictionary of Obscure sorrows, which, I have had mentioned earlier as well.
There is one definition that really stood out for me of many other great words and definitions there lately and I keep revisiting and I thought I would share it with you today. This word and definition is "Socha". >Click here to watch the video about it<, if you want it is really well produced. :)
I have many insecurities and they can really cause me a hard time and I think it part of human nature that we do compare ourselves to others and it can often make me feel even less of a "great" person. This, however, is really eye opening to me. I mean, this just resonates within me and makes me feel that I am not alone being insecure, having hard times and just a lot of doubts even if people around me seem to have that perfect life.
I know many of you have similar doubts as well and, if nothing else, I want you to know that you are not alone. We may have been through different things, you and me, and I know I may seem like this always happy and caring person but there are many, countless insecurities and doubt behind it and you are not any less of a person then I am or the next person. It is just part of being human, there is nothing wrong with you because of it!
What do you think about "Socha"? Have you experienced it earlier?
Do not ever forget how strong and just amazing you are! I believe in you and you are doing an amazing job!
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@redmark
not sure I know what Im doing but trying to join this thread Please
i dont know if I have to say anything more? Sorry Im not good at this
Hey there @Forgive2Live *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
There is really no wrong way of doing this. I mean, you can just say hi and sit here with us, you can share how you feel, how your week was, you can share your opinion about the topic at hand. There is nor pressure on you, just take your time and only share and participate if and when you are feeling comfortable with it.
Also, if you ask me, I know that reaching out for help and just posting in a place like this can be really hard and I am really proud of you for being so strong and so brave for doing so, you are actually doing this really well! :)
Thank you, happy tears because u dont know how much that means right now, thank you @redmark
@Forgive2Live *offering safe hugs*
You are always welcome here to past whatever is on your mind or just whatever you feel comfortable with. We are just glad to have you here with us :)
@redmark hi
Hey there @crimsonLime6525 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to have you around here!
@redmark I will take the hugs. I don
@crimsonLime6525 Do not worry about it, take all the time you may need! I am really happy you are giving this a chance and I hope that some day you may trust me and this place enough but there is absolutely no pressure, just having you here, sitting with us is perfect as well!
@redmark thank you ❤️
@redmark
Hi Red. It's nice to see you. How are you today?
Right now I feel desperate. The thoughts in my head are running rampant with ways to escape. I mean to say that it all seems hopeless and the pain, both physical and mental, is so much right now.
I can relate to what you are saying about insecurities and comparing to other people. I feel I am so much less than others. That I should be so much better and so much more than I am. I feel that others deserve a better version of me. To the point I'm tempted to not say the truth in check-ins because I don't want people to think I'm a person who complains all the time or that I'm a person who just wants attention or that I'm not trying enough or doing enough or so many other things. I keep saying I'm struggling, but I am afraid to say what that means or what that is because of what others might think. I also fear that people don't believe me, because a lot of my life people haven't.
Hey there @practicalIdeal2007 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to hear from you and read your replies!
I would say I am feeling better now after like 12 hours of sleep but I feel like I could use like 12 more but I have to get some things done, so that has to wait for now. :P
I am so sorry to hear that you are having such a tough time right now. I can only imagine how hard that can be and I want you to know that I am here and I would be glad to help if I can or just listen if you ever feel like sharing anything! I mean, no pressure tho but I do believe in it that together we can get through this and I do believe in you!
One of the best things about the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows for me is really this it is trying to put a label on all these complex "sorrows", these emotiones that most of us experiences from time to time but nobody really talks about it because of the lack of words or because they do not want the world to know about these. I mean something that I do believe in is that we all are both beautiful and messed up in our own unique ways and all this is really just what is making us human. I remember getting a reply from someone saying that they feel bad for feeling bad because they saw my check-in and saw the positivity I have decided to show at that moment and since then, if I can, I just try to be honest. I mean, I do not know if this helps but at least I want you and others know that you are not alone and just say out at least that I do feel bad as well from time to time, sometimes more fometimes less but it is really not makind you any less or any more - and it is definitely not for attention seeking.
If something you are just really inspirational. You have been through so much and you still are and you are still here and just the other week you have still taken your time for example to reach out for someone else and try to lift them up and, I mean, how awesome is that? :)
I truly mean that I am proud of you and I am glad that I have got to know you!
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
12 hours of sleep sounds nice.
I'm having a lot of anxiety, nightmares and flashbacks. The world outside my front door is frightening. The world inside my head is even more frightening.
@practicalIdeal2007 I am having a bit of trouble getting enough sleep lately and honestly I feel like a bit guilty for sleeping so much but I have to admit it helped.
I am sorry to hear that you are dealing with nightmares and flashbacks as I can imagine it can be really hard to deal with. What about your little safe place you have mentioned last week, in your closet, can it maybe work to get a bit of a break and some sleep? :)
@redmark
I will try to sleep in my safe place a little later. I fell silly sleeping there, but I need sleep. I washed my bear so he smells all nice and clean.
@practicalIdeal2007 I mean, if it helps you than it is not silly you know? Also, sounds kind of comfy and actually safe! :)
Also with your freshly washed teddy bear there with you I am sure you will be able to get some sleep! - I mean, I do beleive in it anyways ^-^
@practicalIdeal2007
Hey you do what you need to do, we all know self care looks different for different people.
@redmark
Hi red
Good to see you as always x
Hey there @Avaray *offering safe hugs*
It is always so nice to see you as well!
I hope you have had a good week or at least today is going well for you so far :)
@redmark
Thanks red xx
@redmark
@redmark I am having an intense week even without exams, which is quite frustrating. I had a breakdown at the bus and I feel like there is more to come but for now I feel hopeful that I will feel a lot better later on.
Hey there @originallifer *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to see you around here!
Oh, that sure sounds like a lot of stress with all those exams especially. I am really sorry to hear about that breakdown but I am glad to hear that you are feeling a bit better now and I am just so happy to hear that you are hopeful! I want you to know that we are all here for you and I do believe in that you can get better and I do believe in you!
If there is anything we may be able to help you with or you would just like to vent feel free to reach out to us here :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark -- I'd like to come in and sit with y'all. I'd rather not a folding chair or chair at a table in general. I'd sit on the floor with a cup of hot apple cider, maybe with a few red hots dropped in. If someone invited me to a comfy chair, sort of out of the way - I would do that, probably. (wishes for "Free Hugs!" room to be open) I could use some free hugs, or huggles (@bunnypants) would be quite fine just now too. I've a meeting on Tuesday that I am already beginning to dread :( Could use some encouragement over here, @fluffyunicorns84, @Pinkfluffyunicorns8706, @Kate, and more. I'll shhh now and just sit, okay? ~ Platy
@cyanPlatypus6370
Sending safe hugs your way. And a virtual comfy chair for you to sit on if you would like. Sorry you are feeling stressed.
@cyanPlatypus6370
Hey Platy. I'm sitting on the floor, you are welcome to join me. You like the free hugs room too, huh? I didn't think I'd like it, cause I'm not a fan of hugs. That room showed me that virtual hugs are okay, at least some times.
Good to see you Platy.
Hey there @cyanPlatypus6370 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
Sitting on the floor with that hot apple cider sounds really nice! I mean, you are always welcome to just sit around here with us or whatever you feel comfortable with. :)
We have pillow forts here which are kind of a combination of a comfy chair and sitting in the floor if you are interested and hugs are something that I can always offer here as long as you are interested in them! ^-^
I mean, just take your time now, it is okay we are all here for you and together we can get through this. I believe in it and I do believe in you and we will all be here for you to get through this together!
No pressure of course. :)
If there is anything we may be able to help you with feel free to reach out to us anytime here :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
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Hey there @pioneeringBanana1598 *offering safe hugs*
Welcome here! We are really glad to have you here with us and I am really proud of you for being so strong and brave reaching out to us here, you are doing a really good job!
I am glad to hear that you are having such great people in your life who care about you like that. Of course it can be really hard sometimes to understand these feelings and just what you have been and still going through. I mean, everybody can experience these things in their own unique and different ways and it can really be hard to understand at times but I do hope you will find this place helpful in that sense and just in general :)
I do definitely hope to here from you later on sometimes. ^-^
Stay awesome!
@redmark
I just decided to check in tonight because I just realized that this weekend is the anniversary of a traumatic event that started a spiral downward with my mental health by bringing up old trauma. I had a hard time getting out of bed today and even skipped work because I didn't have the energy to go and it made me anxious thinking about going.
In previous years I've always been hospitalized for mental health in November, March, and July and have always thought there might be some trauma link, but I don't know what exactly, and this past year was no exception. I have been hospitalized every month since last November. The months that I spent the most days in the hospital were November (one 18 day visit), March (several short visits because no one knew what was going on and kept discharging me), and July (3 week long hospitalizations). Now it's almost November again and this weekend is already bringing stuff up and it is a bit concerning.
Hey there @beautifuldisasterx0 *offering safe hugs*
I am glad to hear that you have decided to check in today, it is really nice to see you around here!
I am sorry to hear about the reason of it though. I can imagine it can be really hard to have such an anniversary for you this weekend and how many feelings and thoughts it can bring up but I do want you to know that you are not alone here and we all are here for you if there is anything we can help you with. You are safe now and together we can get through this.
It seems like an interesting pattern to have. Maybe it would be worth it to try to work on it with a professional and figure out what triggers come with these months that have such an effect on your mental health. Although, I can imagine it has to be hard and right now, with November coming up, it is not a priority of course as I can imagine you are having a really hard time already but I want you to know that whichever way you feel is valid and we are here to support you as best as we can and I do believe in you! You can get through this, you are really strong! :)
There is no pressure of course but if there is anythng we may be able to help you or just want to vent feel free to reach out to us here anytime :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
This was a rough week but im looking forward to some quality relaxation with family today. I hope i can get some cleaning done too.
I am so tired...
Hey there @RiverTamer102409 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you around here!
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a rough week but that time with your family sounds really nice and I hope you will be able to reacharge a little bit and probably get some cleaning done too :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
@redmark
Hey i made butternut squash soup if anyone wants some?!
@RiverTamer102409 Oh....I do not think I have ever eaten - or heard - anything like taht but it actually sounds pretty nice ^-^
