Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in: Tuesday 18th September 2018
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@melliotm
mellio ❤️
@sensitiveShade5337 Hi shade 😎⛺ ❤️ How are you doing today?
@melliotm
Im hanging in there how are you doing today?
@sensitiveShade5337 hmmm today I feel hungry and indecisive (the former correlates with the latter🙃)
@melliotm
hey👋
I don't see you as much. I hope you are doing fine
@scarletPear1945 Hi scarlet ⛺❤️ I'm doing my best -- taking things moment by moment
@LifeIsMyCanvas
i think it could be dissociation. as i was younger that was how i dealt with some of it. plus self hate is another i turned things on me.
@Hope7879
Dissociation is a big one and it can be tough to break as your brain gets into a groove and does it without you consciously choosing too. In the past it helped the body survive when you couldnt run away but as you get older dissociation becomes an interruption to your daily life so thats a really big thing for you to notice!
@LifeIsMyCanvas
I will gladly have a cookie, thanks and leave one of my butterflies in return
@MistyMagic
-steals that cookie before you eat it- 😝
@MistyMagic
sooo pretty! Ty for sharing *gives u extra cookies*
I think holding onto bad memories is something unhealthy I hold onto. I was so frequently lulled into a false sense of security and then hurt and scared that I always told myself I had to remember or else I was in danger. Still now I hold onto all these memories like a comfort blanket too scared to let go. I wonder what would happen if I did let them fade a bit without having to refresh them every day so I don't forget? Not sure I know how to start doing that.
@Lilibuth12
how about writing down the memories so they are there if you need to refer to them but you don
@LifeIsMyCanvas
That's not a bad idea. Maybe I should start a little project of writing my own memoir of a kind, just so that it's still somewhere and not forgotten. I feel so scared all the time I'll forget and make mistakes or wrong choices and get hurt again.
Iv decided to go away with someone who myt not be good for me..but going away protects everyone else and also ensures that the person I am with doesn
@lightVillage54
That does sound confusing. Sometimes we do things to help others but really it is them who are in control of their own feelings. What do you think would be best for you?
@LifeIsMyCanvas I don
@lightVillage54
Do you think it might help to write down some thngs about yourself that you know are true so that you have something to hold onto when things feel confused?
@LifeIsMyCanvas maybe..ryt now I can
It's time for me to say goodnight again, I'm going to curl up with my teddy and rest. I hope you all have a good sleep when it is your turn 
@LifeIsMyCanvas
Hope you sleep well.
@LifeIsMyCanvas
SWEET DREAMS😴
Hi.
@RedHawk6547
Hey Red, how are you doing? Would you like some cookies?
@LifeIsMyCanvas
I'm doing better today. Thanks for the cookies.
I am not going to rain🌧️ on anyone's parade, so I'll just take a few cookies🍪🍪 and leave quietly🤫
@LifeIsMyCanvas
Hey, and thanks for the cookie! 🍪
@fairmindedFriend3493
Hi! Any time
Free refills on cookies 
Is there something you held onto that isn
@Rebekahwriter13
That sounds like a tough situation, I hope that there is something you can find to make your home safe or a new place you guys can afford. It really is awful when your home contributes to making you ill.
@LifeIsMyCanvas
I'm trying to get my health bad in order to find work
