Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in: Tuesday, November 6

@SouthernFlame

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@SouthernFlame

Minus my writing, my feels unlike a controlled chaotic mess that I cant even fix, none of my doctors will listen to me, they blame weight, but they give me meds and I gave conditions that give my body impossibilities with losing weight, I can't get calm in my living situation, my depression, anxiety, and ptsd is all acting against me.

@SouthernFlame

I don't know how I am feeling about today.

I really like the part you wrote about "other family". My family is not much a part of my life and not supportive people. The idea that there might be family somewhere else, here, that's an amazing thought.

@SouthernFlame

Late is definitely OK. Thanks for posting so we have a space to connect in.

My day was lengthy. There was a lot of crying in the earlier part of the day. Not something I imagine anyone really enjoys. But it did get better. Had a couple conversations with friends that really needed to happen. I was able to clear things up with one set of friends and I feel a lot less upset than I did earlier. That is a big relief because they are very important people to me. The other friend… I was able to express what I needed to say I think and I hope it will help give me some closure on that relationship. Not exactly what I wanted to hear but probably better this way anyway. I think I was very brave in all those conversations I had today. It was not easy but I tried my best & I did express myself. Thats kind of a big victory for me. 🏆

@SouthernFlame thanks for posting

Hi I'm new to the group and just trying out what might be helpful for me. The past two you have been a big struggle with depression, anxiety, and cptsd then about 6 months ago my hips pains/issues became worse because of a fall and have been out of work since then. Anyway I am finally starting the process of potential recovery from hip issues which means transitioning into walking again and returning back to work. I'm fearful of going back because of the higher potential of being triggered compared to bring home often and having space to feel safe.

@SouthernFlame just a hi

@SouthernFlame
i need more support. i ended up getting introuble for being suicidal. I have been writing poems, to get my emotions out. i saw my therapist she doesnt know what to do. I dont know either. I am getting off my one medicine because it makes me more upset and have worse mood swings. I havent been doing well at all. I just need someone because honestly I havent been okay for a while. I have multiple things going on recently. It is taking a lot out of me. I havent been okay for a while. I have been getting worse. I dont know how to stop it or reverse my issues to make it into good things or turn my issues into positive. My depression, self loathing, and outside issues going on. It feels like my life is crumbling but a cop said no it isnt you are still doing incredibly in your school work and you may have a ton happening but you are doing good. I have been very negative towards myself. It is awful. I dont know how to stop. I just hold so much in with my issues in my childhood. People say its in the past but for myself its not in the past; its here still. I just need some help with how to help myself if there is a way to get better???

at 37 and with no friends

it feels like empty

surrounded by family yet i feel like a stranger

thats how Ive started off my week wondering how to be a friend again