I want to not be afraid

@Tinywhisper11

Certainly you are not a loser, not a weakling, not an idiot and not anyone dumb. You are a person able to see 128000 colours where others may struggle to see 256.

I got to run to work for now, but my good thoughts will be with you 😊 💜 

@Tinywhisper11 *sits with you* Let's take a deep breath ok? You aren't any of those things. You are brave and kind. Smart and funny. You are fighting Tiny. Not all wars are fought on the front lines. Every time you share a part of your story - you are fighting. You fight every day and night. The biggest battles are often in our minds - fighting our demons and monsters

@Tinywhisper11

I hear you.

We've all heard that healing isn't linear because it's more like a circle. When we arrive at the places which were once deeply traumatic or aversive, we find ourselves posed with the same set of questions, the same classmates (if they haven't graduated), the same teachers, and the same set of rules. In these familiar settings, we find a lot of comfort.

Comfort isn't necessarily a good thing, but it's not entirely bad either. It's a middle ground. Something about this pattern is comforting to you. I can only speculate that you're comforted by shame or self-doubt because it reminds you of home.

The truth is that when we come around full circle to these moments, if we've outgrown them then we're able to recognize exactly what it is that should be different. You have outgrown your shame. You realize what you need to be working on. But you feel stuck in the loop.

Breaking these cycles isn't something we do all at once. It's a journey of self-discovery. A conquest of the soul. And the little, itty-bitty, baby steps you take towards breaking the pattern will have a rippling effect.

Right now, you're seeing things for the way they are. The parts of yourself, your life that you don't like very much.

Recently, someone asked me if it was too late to change. The answer is no. It's never too late.

I think what you're hoping for is the permission to heal outside of what's often prescribed.

People say "It gets better" but they fail to mention how.

Better starts with taking one step at a time. You don't need strength to feel less weak. You don't need brains to feel less like an idiot. You don't need to be perfect to manage your emotions.

You just need permission. And what that really means is allowing yourself to be imperfect. Loving the parts of you that feel small and afraid and stupid and too much.

You may not ever lose this feeling. There may be days when you don't feel anything at all. But if you allow yourself the space to be a mess, to make mistakes, to be a complete idiot from time to time, then you'll be something many people forget they are... human.

You're allowed to be a silly little human.

Failure doesn't make you weak or strong. It makes you ambitious, driven, and wise. You know what it's like to lose. And if you'll put down your weapons and stop warring with yourself, then you might find that there's a lot you have in common.

🐠

@Tinywhisper11 You shouldn't say those things about yourself you are not weak you just sometimes need to tell yourself you got this 

My most precious Tiny,

Of all the things in this life you are-- weak is not one of them! You are far from being the "weakling"! You are the survivor! There's so much strength within you! You are a miracle and I'm so glad you are here! 

Without you here, the world would not be the same. We need you here and there's so much beauty you bring to our lives. We love you and are so thankful to have a friend like you! Your friendship is a beautiful gift! It really truly is. ♡

There's nothing dumb about you! Please try to refrain from talking down on yourself. There's so many things that you are, but dumb is not one of them! Believe that! I really wish you could see yourself as so many of here see you! Trust me, you're one of the most beautiful people I have ever met! Not just physically beautiful but inside, as well! Your heart. ♡ You literally give so much love to others and your heart is so beautiful. 

I do believe the things we go through in life contribute to how we are as people. But even with the amount of pain you have endured, you are one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen and come to know. You are so strong and I need you to always know that! 

Remember no matter what you go through or no matter how you feel, there's always our Heavenly Father that you can go to at any time. He's the reason why you're here. He's the reason why we are graced with your love and friendship. Man, I wish you could see yourself like so many of us see you! Tiny, you are loved and cared for! Truly! 

I will pray that your mind is free from the cage just as your physical body is. All I can recommend is that you continue to pray to God for healing and peace. I will say a special prayer for you, my sweetest Tiny friend. 

There's so many of us here who love you and I hope you feel every bit of that love! 

@Tinywhisper11 Emotions are complicated because we don't have the tools to deal with them, but that doesn't make you stupid. You learn one day at a time, with patience. We're here to listen and support you every step of the way.

My mom said you don’t need to control your emotions… You need to scream into a pillow as often as you need to. Scream and cry for as long as it takes <3

You’ve been through HORRIBLE trauma… That’s never going to be an instant fix. The memories may stay for a long time. You don’t have to feel ashamed for having emotions <3

@Tinywhisper11 No... you’re not the weak one, and you’re definitely not a loser. You’re someone who went through unimaginable pain and still found the strength to speak. That’s not weakness that’s survival. That’s courage. Emotions don’t make you dumb or broken  they prove you’re human. You're not lost, even if it feels that way right now  you're finding your way through something most people couldn't even begin to handle. And I’m here you’re not in this alone, not now, not ever.

@Tinywhisper11. I hope you won’t be so hard on yourself . You are definitely not a loser. I find you to be smart and a quick learner who is kind to everyone. Plus not to mention a talented artist!

@Tinywhisper11 where are you tiny today... I was missing you today... And remember our yesterday's convo... I hope you are well and doing great god bless you dear