PTSD and fibromyalgia
My mind is turning into mush. I have lost the mental capacity to want to do anything in my life. I haven't worked in over a year. I don't like going outside. I have been through a abusive relationship and I was raped by an ex. I never thought he would have done this and he denies doing anything wrong. I have lost both my parents to illnesses and death. I'm 37 F and I just feel like I'm existing but not interested in living. I trust going out as I feel stressed and fatigued. I'm not close to family and my friends are few and far. Ive distanced myself from everyone as I get overwhelmed. Honestly I don't know what to do anymore.
@sociableBirch35
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It’s incredibly painful to go through experiences like abuse, rape, and the loss of both parents. That is an enormous amount of trauma for one person to carry, and it deeply affects mental and emotional well-being. If you’re feeling exhausted, numb, or uninterested in life, it’s not your fault. Reactions like this can happen after such overwhelming experiences.
When you say you feel like you’re just existing, that sounds very heavy. Trauma and grief can numb our emotional system, and even simple daily tasks can start to feel overwhelming. Living with fibromyalgia and chronic stress can also drain your energy, both mentally and physically.
Sometimes when we don’t feel safe or well inside, we withdraw from people. That can be the nervous system’s way of trying to protect itself from further hurt. It doesn’t mean you’re weak. Still, you don’t have to go through this alone. If it’s possible, connecting with a trauma-informed therapist could offer a safe and supportive space to process your experiences.
You don’t have to fix everything overnight. You’re allowed to take your time. Small, gentle steps toward caring for yourself are enough. Healing can be slow, but support and self-compassion can make the journey lighter.
You deserve care, understanding, and safety
Sending you healing, peace and strength.
I am also socially isolated and almost without family, so I understand how heavy that can feel. I want to remind you that you have this platform for support—which is exactly how I use it—and you can feel safe here, especially since it’s an anonymous environment for users.
In addition, you can always read or watch movies. You mentioned that you have some friends—you could talk to them on the phone. Maybe you could also find a field or topic that interests you and engage with it from home.
Most importantly, talk about what you’re going through. The more you talk about it, the more you’ll be able to release some of the weight you’re carrying. You don’t have to go into details—just sharing is already a relief.
@sociableBirch35
Its OK to do nothing.
You've had a lot to deal with. It's understandable to be overwhelmed and exhausted. It's OK to take some time to just "be useless".
It's clear that you don't want to be lazy. It's clear that you understand the potential long term consequences of not being motivated to get up and go out and cutting yourself off. But sometimes we just need to to look after our mental health. Your brain is telling you it needs time to process stuff. Listen to it. It's OK to be useless for a bit.
And then, do the next thing. Whatever it is, big or small. Maybe going for a wee. Or getting up to get yourself some food. Or phoning a friend. Or making an appointment to see your doctor. And congratulate yourself for achieving it. Because whatever you do today will be an achievement.
Looking too far ahead, it can be easy to get overwhelmed by all the things we should be doing. One small step at a time gets me further.
I hope you are already having a better day.
Hi
I'm kinda same I was diagnosed with agoraphobia which I recently learned another word for hermit, PTSD, Anxiety disorder, panic attacks.
Hi
I'm kinda same I was diagnosed with agoraphobia which I recently learned another word for hermit, PTSD, Anxiety disorder, panic attacks.
