I need to help the others (Trigger warning)
I can't live with the guilt anymore if knowing other people are suffering from the same sort of abuse. I was born into a christian cult they are bad people. I was a slave had to have sex since I was 4 years old, I saw many people killed. I was rescued by a undercover police thing 3 years ago when I was 18, they saved a few others too. They moved me from America to the UK where I'm under government protection. So the cult is big they own several places around America they have a lot of power it goes as high as the government. That's why I had to leave the country. If I go back if they find me I won't survive very long. But the authorities can't stop it I don't know why. But I can't live with the guilt of knowing other people are still suffering. I need to help I need to do something. But I'm scared. I'm a coward I don't know what to do
@Tinywhisper
I understand your feeling guilt and a need to help others but your safety comes first. Have you discussed with a therapist ways you can help victims that don't put your personal safety in jeopardy.?
You did nothing wrong you were a child. I'm so sorry about all the physical scars you have. But they do represent your incredible ability to survive some of the worst abuse. You are so strong please hug yourself and tell yourself you are brave and inspiring for others. I know how hard this is but, put Focus on the positive - you have a second chance to have a beautiful life, a life you deserve, happiness and joy.
Maybe with help you can write a book about your survival. I have read some great books about other people who have survived abuse under all kinds of circumstances and those true accounts keep me going. I am inspired to hang on after I read these books.
I have been struggling with my own personal traumas and the guilt I feel about some of them. I feel defective and different from others. I don't feel like I fit anywhere.
You are not a coward you are a hero
Best always ABB 💜
@Tinywhisper11
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Sorry I never knew..... when I said I wanted to know you're story I wasn't wanting an answer I just meant you were interesting strong and fun with a lot of Witt. I felt like I had said something wrong...... and I did . Forgive me please . I found this post this morning and cried. I support you . Stay strong. Glad you made it out thanks for sharing
@luckypenny714 hey lucky ❤ no you didn't do anything wrong 🤗 I don't mind sharing my story but most people here don't like me to talk about it outs not something that people want to know it understand. But I think your awsome your gonna fit in here easily ❤ mcr is not the room for me to open up in. Sorry I made you feel like you did wrong that was not my intention. I love you lucky we are gonna be good friends here
@luckypenny714 hi lucky ❤ how are you?
@luckypenny714 I just looked in the chatrooms for you ❤ I couldn't find you
@Tinywhisper11
I was born into a cult too...it was just getting weird (childhood sexual abuse, sex as inducement to join) when my mom got me and my five siblings out of the country...it seemed just in time.
Now I am 50 and 3 of my siblings are dead.
Is there a place for us?
I have never really heard of anyone else like this.
@mamapants hi ❤ don't loose hope. I've actually heard a few others who have also been in similar situations in the trauma chat room. We are not alone there are people who understand, people who care ❤ gives you big tiny hug ❤
@Tinywhisper11
That's a lot to swallow. No matter what, you are no coward. That's partly survivor guilt talking, which is a lot to take on, especially when the situation is ongoing, and youve been through way too much already on top of it. Nonetheless, you deserve to be able to live your life and enjoy things. If there's any way to help... I don't know how to do it, but don't put it before your own well being. Your rescue in particular might have given information that's helped in ways you aren't aware of. That said, I'm glad you're not just trying to suffer all of it alone. Your story deserves to be told as much as you need to tell it.
I hope my words are somewhat helpful, because this whole thing got me in the feels. By the way, I'm getting into painting too, what do you like to paint?
@Torean yes your kind words were very helpful Thank you ❤I'm glad your getting into art it's a great way to express yourself 🤗 I paint pictures of mostly angels or places I want to see oneday. Like the ocean, and forests and waterfalls. Good luck with your new hobby ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I'm glad ❤️ and that's really cool about what you paint. I feel like I need to learn to draw more realistically before I try to paint that way, so I've been sticking to (mostly) abstract.
@Tinywhisper11
Hi Princess. Here's some ice cream for you because I know you love it. 🍦 The white flavor, your favorite. LOL.
I didn't realize that this cult you were born into was still active in such a big way in America. I want to do something about it too now, but I have no idea what. Do you have more information to share with the police than you already did? I know things like this go on here and I'm just ignorant of it. I didn't know how big it really was or how far it really went.
Lola, I'm going to educate myself and get involved with one of the organizations here that deals with sex trafficking of young girls (and boys) or maybe even deals with cults and do something. I won't remain ignorant of this problem and I won't just stand by and do nothing. That is my promise to you.
I hope you will accept a hug from me.
Jewels
@Jewels012222 awww jewels gives you big hug ❤❤ it's not ignorance, it's just something that's kept hidden out of the public eye. Which is sad because it happens more than people realise. The police know everything, and are kinda keeping me in the dark they won't really give me any real answers to my questions. I am not even supposed to talk about this to anyone other than my therapists and carers. This is the only way I know how to make people aware that this stuff is going on, without hopefully getting in trouble. There is nothing that can be done to stop this from happening. If I try I will be found and I don't want to sell you know❤ I don't know if anyone will ever be able to help 😢 it's just so hard to know people are still suffering like this still diying. Oh and btw while I was worrying this I was eating your icecream 🙂 you remembered I like white flavour ❤ if your gonna get involved please please becareful
@Tinywhisper11
Hi, i feel sorry for you, you couldn’t have a happy life since you were born. And all the injuries you have, it so much pain, you are actually braver than a lot of people. I know that it’s hard for you to come out of this, but i hope you will soon.
@magnoliahua aww thanks ❤ but no need to feel sorry for me. I'm doing ok ❤ gives you big tiny hug🤗
@Tinywhisper11 I don't think you're a coward, I think you're actually such a strong person for going through all of that and still having the strength to wake up each day. It is going to be very hard knowing that there are still people who need your help but I think you have to work on yourself before you're able to rescue anyone else. Only after you think you're mentally and emotionally stable enough do I think you start to take some action.
@miakitten9123 I've talked this over with the authorities many times. I don't really get any straight answers. Other than there's nothing I can do, it's not safe for me to help, and their doing everything they can to protect the other slaves. I don't know what I can do
I am so sorry you went through that. Those people are not followers of God. They are just using his name for their own uses. They will get what they deserve.
@AdventurousAddi4597 I don't believe they are followers of God either. And I hope your right I hope they will be brought to justice. Thank you ❤ gives you big tiny hug ❤
@Tinywhisper11 You were very brave, there's only so much you can do. What was the name of the cult?
@Amber357 I'm not allowed to say their name. I'm not supposed to talk about them 😞 cause of government protection thing
💟@Tinywhisper11
Lola,
Your doing so well with setting boundaries. Protecting yourself is so important. I hope this post finds you doing well and doing lots of art and crafty things. I hope your having good weather too so you can be outdoors.
Best
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ABB